Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Working is good but there is a line...

Working is good but there is a line...

Another working day, although I slept long, I went to bed at 9:30 and woke up around 6:00. I took a shower, and felt good afterwards. Today I worked with a resident from Humanitas, I get along with him so now and then well. The guy's name is Frank, and Frank has found himself a new house. Today he needed help with painting, laying a carpet and putting wallpapers on some walls. Ugh! what a work, we had Johannus with us, he's the guy from the Family, I told about him in my early posts. Damn, these guys are tough, tough in there language and jokes. There rough in there comments to each other aswell, but it's all meant as a joke.

Frank in his 'new' house.
If your not aware of 'that' then you might felt offeneded or feel bad. I didn't feel offended or bad, cause I know by now that it's all a joke and they explained it a few times. But! Enough is enough I thought this morning, they really had to had me this morning, LOL! I can laugh about it now, but then, sigh! I went a bit mad and cursed a few words loudly, just like them. I'm a person who crops all his anger sometimes and then afterwards I explode. Being with these guys is prolly a good lesson for me, I need to learn how to handle if you get critism, and to learn to speak up for yourself, be tougher is a good lesson too. And by thougher I mean tougher in a positive way. This morning wasn't sometimes so nice but it was a good lesson to learn. 

Johannus helped us out aswell.
We all worked hard and we mostly finnished all walls and layed carpet in one room. The house looks like a normal 'one Family house,' but it has 2 floors, first floor is for another resident and Frank has his 'living' on the second floor. The floors are small, I don't know if I could live there. I did most of the walls and helped out with one wall doing the wallpaper. Around 1:30 pm wer were finnished for the day, and I was happy with it, I was exhausted. It's sometimes difficult to explain to people that I have less energy then healty people have. Blaming my thyroid disease, I explained the guys yesterday once about my thyroid, and they understood. I'm not going to explain again, cause otherwise I start to complain to much in there eyes, I don't want that.

The new black carpet.
I took a nap when we got back at Humanitas, I think I slept for 30 minutes. I was still tired and just layed on the bed. Relaxing and chilling, my room was feeling nice and warm with the sun on the windows. Around 4:00 pm Frank knocked on my door and asked if I wanted some chinese food, instead of going to the free dinner at the church. I had doubts cause I was looking forward to the 'free dinner.' But okay, I went for the chinese food, tomorrow is another free dinner. Frank meant it good but sometimes it feels like he gives orders, just like today. Like, you do this and that, and you are going with uss to eat chinese food, etc, ect. I reffused a couple of times today and explained him why I refussed. But still, it doesn't help. He means it good though, but his asking sounds a bit like, if you refusse then he feels offended. 

It's not that a problem though, like I said in the beginning of this post, this is for me a good lesson, speak up and be a bit thougher, learn to say 'No' more aswell, if it's needed. Tomorrow another working day, I will be joining my blanket and pillow early tonight. Sleep does me good, I had a nice day, hopefully the night is nice to me aswell, night, night! 


2 comments:

jazain said...

sjon, dont get too tough like these guys. its not you at all!! these tough men really dont make good husbands and fathers and i know you want to be both.

second thing is frank, i think thats what you said his name is. yes please say no when you mean no. you are just trying to get over a very difficult time and trying to find your way. you are not trying to find "franks" way. so if you want to do things with him just do it and if you dont want to say no kindly. he will soon learn he is not there to lead sjon through life. you are in a very important period of your life. like starting over and youve come a long way, i'd hate for him to get you mixed up!!!

take care

sonnie100dj@hotmail.com said...

No worries Jana, I will never become like these guys, I told that to myself many times when I saw there behaviour in the months I'm already here. But it's good for me to learn to say 'no', sometimes and it's good aswell to learn to stand up for myself, if someone is making a bad joke towards you or says something what in your eyes isn't right, I need to speaak up then and say something about it. Thanks for the advice Jana, and thanks for the comment :0)

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