"April weather, rain and sunshine both together."

"April weather, rain and sunshine both together."

We could use a little rain, it's to dry, and tonight it seems like were gonna get some. Well, I hope so, it's already getting much colder. I was outside for a little bit after dinner, and the wind blew hard, and it was a cold wind. Today we had sun and warm degrees, 23 degrees. Tomorrow they forspelled 13 degrees, hello? That's ten degrees lower, guess I take a few sweaters out of the closet again. I had a nice day at work this Tuesday, it's nice to get away from Humanitas so now and then. Specially now when the nice atmosphere is totally gone, like today I heard there was some talk fighting again. One guy was shouting to Johannus's kids and another guy insulted again the new woman who just got here. 

Can't wait for the up comming residents-meeting, although some residents complained that it doesn't mean anything this meeting. A guy told me that I would be the same like last year, "They promise you everything, but don't do a thing," he said. We will see, you can write your own complains on a paper and hand it in at the office today. And I just did that, I'm looking forward to the meeting. Tomorrow will be a busy day aswell, pffeeww! I need new medications, so I have to go all the way to Nijverdal again, sigh! Not by bike but by train, I don't want the hay fever to bother me.


From the trainstation to the doctors will be alot of miles to walk, atleast a 30 minute walk. Then to the pharmacy that will take me atleast 40 minute, and from the pharmacy back to the trainstation another 40 minutes. I hope the weather is good one me, if it's dry I will happy. Long day tomorrow, but that's good, right? I hope I get the medication, I will ask right away for aa blood test. It's about time to check my blood for my thyroid, last time was in Mississauga, Canada, last year February I think. So yeah, it's time. 


Today at work I made a wooden sidetable for in the garden together with my boss, pretty big one too actually. It was nice to work on something and finnish it too. Today I had a evaluation 
to with my boss, we both had a piece of paper with written on it a few lines. For example there was written, "I can do my job well if my boss gives me an order," or, "I get along well with the other workers." There were more lines, atleast 15 or 16 of them, and my Boss and I filled each a certain kinda grade in after each line (Numbers from 1 till 10) After we filled it in we overheard each other, and I noticed there were a few differences. 


The thing what bothered me was the communication with other workers or with the boss, I'm just not a talker, I never been. I would like to change that though, The Boss diddn't mind that I wasn't that a talker, "It's fine, it's just the way you are," he told me. For example if there's a problem while I'm doing a order and I need my Boss to help me, and I see he's busy elsewhere, I rather solve the problem myself instead of bothering him. Cause I see it as bothering him. "I rather that you come to me, cause that's why I'm here for," the Boss told me. I had this problem many times in my past and still a bit, and not only with bosses. 


Another example, If I have a complain from someone, I rather go to someone else and complain about it to him or her, instead of going to the one who caused to problem. I really want to work on that, I wanna be more thougher and man up! I was glad about the evaluation, that way I could talk about my character and explain things a bit more. I could hear aswell what the Boss had to say about me, and how he thinks I'm doing at work, and maybe correct him in a few things, or not. Or just be suprised of his sayings, I liked it.


I'm doing well, but were still not there yet. But I'm on my way, there are a few things where I'm slightly worried about. I'm worried about where I'm going to live, I hope it will be a nice house in a nice area. I won't be precicly or how you call it, if I'm happy with what I get then It's all good. Next thing I'm  a little bit worried about is the contact with Saf, maybe the contact will fade away. It scares me a tiny bit, So now and then a little message from them or from me does me good, it gives me a good feeling. And what they further do is all fine with me. I really hope they have a good life cause they deserve it, specially the kids.

I really hope that I could see some of the kids one more time or perhaps two times, (specially Tasn) That would be nice, or would it be only in my dreams? Like I said, maybe it will all fade away and I will think about this in a half year differently. I doubt it though, cause these people have made such a huge impact on me. That's why I want to keep a little contact, I really don't see harm in such thing, and further we continue our lives in seperad ways.