"Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work."

"Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work."

 I love the work I do, although it's hard work sometimes with hard thinking. This working day was nice, we had laughs and made fun, it's a nice bunch of people together. Today I completed another butler-tray, it seems so easy but I worked almost a whole day on that tray, I wasn't that happy about it that I did only one tray. But I was happy that in the end of the day I finnished that whole tray, that tray where I worked so hard on. I made some little mistakes and did some miss-counts, and the other workers were joking around with me, (lol!) "Aren't you finnished yet," they tell me, or, "I could have made four trays in one day." That's all okay, I know it's all fun and jokes. This comming Monday I need to make another tray, and then I want to accomplish it without any mistakes and miss-counts. I'm such a perfectionist, LOL!

There's so much dust comming from the electric sawing machines at work, I don't think it's that healthy. We open alot of windows and doors though and that seems to help a bit, but still. This little factory is in need of more workers, more tools and more (mighty) machines. We still have work to do, but it can also be one day that the work is all over. But so far, were still having some work. Today someone called for me at work, it was my counseler Linda, who told me that my re-intergration appointment was not going trough. I had at 3:00 pm a appointment with a lady who wanted to know what the options are for me for re-intergration, the lady is from Gak, Gak is the company where I get my monthly money from. Well, I'm in the middle of a re-intergration program at Reha, I don't need other options.

Funny thing is that at Reha I'm doing re-intergration with aswell a lady from Gak, she leads me trough this project and tries to find proper jobs for me. And now this other lady from Gak wants to invite me to see what options there are for me for re-intergration. Linda left me a phone-number of the other lady so I can call her tomorrow, and I will call her tomorrow.
There was so much wind today, I was out of breath almost when I arrived at the free dinner. I didn't expect to see Ricardo there, he came with two other residents who I know. I sat with them cause Ricardo wanted to, just like yesterday. Johannus walked in aswell what really suprises me. He had a appointment with the child custody today, and he told about it a bit. He told me that Ricardo can visit me only two hours in three days weekly from now on. I understood why cause Ricardo spents much more time with me then his own Father, and that's not right, I see it aswell.

I do alot stuff with him what actually his Father should be doing with him. I almost never did mind though, I like Ricardo aswell. I thought about it today, why I liked Ricardo that much, perhaps it's the fact that I miss having kids around me, what I had in Canada. Ricardo fills in that empty space, and I must say, when Johannus told me that Ricardo can see me less during the week, I felt a bit bad about it, but I understand, it's better this way. It's better for Johannus and Ricardo and better for me, they need to spend time with each other. I think them leaving Humanitas and find a place for themselves is the best option, so they can be with each other and lessen the drama from Humanitas. It's not healty for little kids here. Johannus and his ex-girlfriend plus there two sons are still seeing each other, there's no avoiding each other possible here. The need to go, or the ex-girlfriend needs to go. 

Ricardo wants to stay with his Dad, and his Dad needs to take care of him like a maniac, he needs to prove child custody that he's able to do that from now on. I wish him luck, I must say he's doing a much better job then he used to did. To much Ricardo/Johannus writting lately, I'm sorry, hehe!  I just feel like I'm in the middle of this whole drama. After the free dinner I went for a long walk with Johannus and Ricardo, Ricardo cried cause he wanted to be with me after we ated. Johannus refussed but he took me with him for the walk. It was a nice walk and I had fun, but just that sometimes I think that they need to go, go from Humanitas. It's way much better for them and for me aswell. There's just a little bit to much stress and pressure.I don't want to stay that long here aswell, just like my counseler Linda told me, "It's better for you to stay not that long here."