"Dissapointment."

"Dissapointment."

This morning started out okay, like ussual. It were the normal little bits of nerves and the little bits of excitment what went trough me, although I felt a bit like I had a bit more nerves then ussual. The first of September is getting closer, and then it's better for me to leave Humanitas, otherwise I have to pay double rent. Still I haven't heard from my "So needed loan," I can't do a thing about it. This morning with the coffeebreak, Paula came up to me and asked right away if I had already heard from my loan, I told her, "Nothing yet." She told me to come with me, straight away to the office, Paula was short in her answers. Was it about my loan? Or didn't she slept well? I didn't know, anyway, in the office Paula called with Elize Wolters who arranges my loan.

I thought, that's no use, cause Elize was still on vacation. Wrong! She was back and she told trough the phone, that my loan will have a extra 'As soon as possible' sign. Perhaps this week or for sure upcomming Monday or Thursday I will have the money. Yeah, I heard that before, I will see. I felt a dissapointment and so did Paula, I could have a extra 300 Euro aswell from 'them' if I didn't have payed for my first month rent at the housing corporation last monday. If I could have showen that I didn't had enough money to pay the first month rent 'they' would have helped me with paying the half of the rent. If, if, if, sigh. Anyway, it's been a long day. I felt down after the short appointment with Paula, I felt lost and a bit anger aswell. 


I didn't feel like doing much today, cause I felt tired and there wasn't much that I could do. The deadline is the 1st of September, then it's better for me to leave Humanitas. If I stay, let's say a few days more, then I will have to pay each day 29 Euro for renting (again) my room at Humanitas. I hope I will get my money tomorrow or the following two days, so I can buy my laminate and matrass, it's a start. Two residents offered me to help putting in the laminate, cause I never did such a thing. They told me that when I buy the laminate, the laminate has to breath for 24 hours, so in short, I will buy the laminate and then wait a day with laying it.

Today I found out that I DO have to sign up for gas (Electrabel) and water (Vitens), the housing corporation told me that everything (gas, electricty, water, etc) was on one bill, the montly rent I pay includeS aswell the gas price, electricy price, water price, etc. I told this aswell to Paula but she had doubts about it and decided to call the corporation, and yes, Paula was right. The montly rent included electricity and a few things more, but not gas and water. So I have to sign up for the missed items, gas, water and cabel for if I want to watch TV. Sigh, it wasn't that easy the signing up, actually I'm still working on it. But I had enough of it, tomorrow another day. 

There was a couch for free that I found on a second hand selling site, I called the seller and asked if I could have a look first, that was alright with him. The guy gave me the adress, but I couldn't find the "#*^%&" adress! It was a bit of a ride though, lovely weather aswell. I was searching and searching and even asked a few people where 'Weilre nr. 19' was, (the street where I looked for) After 30 minutes of searching I gave up, sorry seller. I decided to ride to my new house, another long bike ride, but still good weather, it felt nice. How am I doing under all this? It's hectic and sometimes the nerves are getting to me, but I take my rest aswell, IF that's possible. They say sometimes that things happen for a reason, still though I can't find a reason why most of the things go wrong at the moment or take so long.


Why does it go so difficult? It only gives you nerves and worries, I don't want that. Ofcource when you start with almost nothing, you will appreciate the little things later so much more. I think I will be very happy when I can buy the laminate and the matras at Ikea, I think? I'm sure. That's also a thought to look out to, right? And even the thought of living on myself and have enough money again to decorate the house. I will have to struggle trough this moving proces, and I will. I never worked so hard to get this moving all straight, allthough I learn from this aswell. I will be rewarded for sure.