"Getting there."

"Getting there."

This Sunday started of with alot of rain, but later on it went dryer. I don't mind rain on Sunday's though, there's not much to do on Sunday's anyways. I woke up this morning with the same unussual feeling I recently have, worried and nervous. As then the day goes further I feel a bit better. This morning I had a appointment with Sandra my second counselor, Paula had the weekend of. Sandra and I are usually searching for houses online, but this time it wasn't necceccary, I have a house. I explained her my worried feelings and thoughts, and she calmed me with saying that I don't have to be worried. "We are professionals, we know what to do," Sandra told me. I would like to know already if I get the loan, or when to start with ordering internet? or when to start buying things? It's all thinking ahead and that's not good, Sandra told me aswell that I have a good helper beside me 'Paula.'

"Paula and you will make a good team, she and we at Humanitas won't let you down," said Sandra. I kinda knew this already that Humanitas won't let me down, but I guess it's normal aswell to have nerves and worries before a moving. Humanitas will help me these following weeks with moving and arranging everything, even when I already live there for a few weeks, Paula will visit me once or twice a week to help me around when it's needed. I will try to do most of myself cause I know I can do such things, I done it many times before. But this time it just feels different and akward, I don't know why. Doing things myself will do me good aswell, I will try it and if I don't succeed, I will try it again. In the end if I still don't succeed I will ask for help. I don't like half work, I don't like problem afterwards, I want it to be good.

Today I have been searching for cheap furniture and cheap electronic stuff online, I had alot of tips the last days from staff members and residents. I found out that Ikea is a must, they have so much differences with the prices then other cheap shops. I found myself already a bed online, oh yeah. This week I will go to Ikea with another resident to have a peek at the bed and perhaps other stuff I need. Aswell I found a few second hand shops where I can go to, and outlet stores. Kinda fun though to search online for the cheaper stuff, and compare prices. I think I found me a internet-provider aswell, Tellfort is a good one and it's cheaper then other providers. Only I'm asking myself when do I buy or order the package, (The package includes, TV, internet and phone) Decision this week!

Tomorrow I will go asking for my loan what I need so badly, papers has been filled in, I got everything ready what I need with me, I'm ready! I'll keep my fingers crossed! Today I went out for a little while with some residents, there was a flea market near at the German border. Nice when your only 30 minutes driving from that border, it was a nice out and I enjoyed it. They had aswell a huge supermarket, everything for cheap. But I didn't need anything, besides that it was way to busy and there was just way to much stuff to choose from. But again it was a nice out, I feel okay now and everyday I will feel better and better. It's like I have a puzzle in my head and I would like to have that puzzle solved, but I have to have patience. Everyday I solve a little piece of the puzzle, day by day a bit. This solving calms me.


I'm starting to get excited! It's all good and it's gonna be all fine! I informed Saf aswell about my new living, she gave me a nice email back with congrats, and she gave me some tips. Nice of her, and this is how I like it between us, good friends in the end! Bless her!