"I will continue my path, but I will keep a memory always."

"I will continue my path, but I will keep a memory always."

Again the same waking up as ussual, nerves and nerves. This morning I was nerves about the loan I have to ask for this morning, sometimes I ask myself why I have these nerves. I should not worry, it goes as it goes, right? This morning I went with Nicole to the cityhall for the asking for my loan, (Nicole is another staff member from Humanitas, Paula had a long weekend off) I had everything what I needed with me, and there we went. It was a ten minutes walking distance, and while walking Nicole and I talked about my plans these comming months. I told her that I would like to have people around me, just like I had in Canada and Humanitas. "You should join a sport or start a hobby, there are lots of oppertunities in this city," said Nicole. "I know," I told her, "Once I'm settled in my house I will start with something."

I see this aswell as a new start, a new living, a new city, new people, everything is new, I kinda like that. We were good on time for our appointment, eleven am correct. A woman named Elize guided us to her office and asked us to sit down, I handed in the papers and other stuff she needed. Elize asked a few questions about the house, and about the list what I made. (The list off  stuff what I need for the house) "That's quit alot," she told me. "I have totally nothing, and I can't help it," I replied. As the conversation continued I had a good feeling about the loan, let's say 75% is in the pocket. Elize made alot of copies, and she told us that these papers will be send to the citybank jury, then it's a yes or a no. I will hear from them in a couple of days by mail. I'll keepmy fingers crossed. I'm 80% sure I will get the loan.

If/when the loan goes trough I will get a extra sum of money on top of the loan for 'opknapkosten' (Dutch) refurbishment costs (English) It's extra money if I need to fix the walls or paint or whatever to fix the house. Nicole asked for this, Nicole knows such things, handy right? I don't know much about these 'free' things, some off them I know but I guess alot has changed in Holland when I was over seas. After the appointment Nicole and I went back to Humanitas to do one more thing, taking care off 'housing benefit.' That's a allowance for people who pay to much rent in relation to there income, and I am one off them. Nicole and I took care of the allowance online, she needed information and I looked trough my papers for that information. She filled everything in online and we were done in fifteen minutes.

I saw right away the sum of money I will be getting extra, and I was happy with it. Extra's are always nice. As the day went on I felt a bit better, I hope the nerves will not get to me to much though, my stomach hurted bad this morning. I hope everyday I will come a bit further with the moving, it relaxes me. Let me put some things in order, the things I already had done and the things what still need to be done. The loan has been asked for, I will hear from it the following days, the keys I can pick up the 22th of August, aswell I have to pay for my first rent money then. Buy the furniture, carpet, fridge, etc, etc, I will do that maybe this week or next week. I will have to make a few lists, cause I saw already a few cheap shops where I can but my stuff. Ikea is one of them. I must not rush things cause Paula will help me with handy things. 


Like, she knows about things what I don't know off, she might can get things for free, while I pay for them instead. I can ask anything when I have a problem downstairs at the Humanitas staff, that's good to know. But aswell I want to try to do as much as possible myself, I want to learn these things again. I noticed that I'm a person who would like to have things in order, thinking ahead, or working ahead. And that's not really possible right now, that can be annoying sometimes. This comming Thursday I will be going to Ikea with two other residents, I will have to make a list what I all need from Ikea. If I'm satisfied with what I want I will order it right away. I'm not worried, everyday I will come a bit further knowing what to do and what not to do. *Insert smile.*