Two posts in one day? I'm on a roll!! (1)

Communication and socializing! 

I have to get out more, but yeah going out on your own can be fun but, going out with other people is so much more fun. To get in contact with these 'other people' I will have to search. But how? I know it's alot of work, and sometimes these 'other people' come just by luck, if your lucky, lol. Being surrounded by people is important, it's good for me, I noticed that. I don't want to live like I use to did. I lived on my own before I went to Canada. Did my daily things like groceries, house holdings, and so now and then I went out by myself. Sure I had a few friends but in my eyes they weren't real friends. We went out so now and then, and that was it actually. In that time I was rather on myself, cause I was used to it. 

When I went to Canada my life made a u-turn, I wasn't alone anymore, I was totally surrounded by family and friends. Oh yeah, I really had to get used that, for sure! Even when I returned from Canada, I was surprising surrounded by people, Shelter Humanitas! Living in a huge shelter with several rooms did me good, but I was aswell longing so now and then for a time alone. Ofcource... after a break up and a huge adventure in Canada behind me, ofcource I longed for it. But the socializing and communication for sure helped me alot to get trough this, it was needed, and still it is. Otherwise I will fall back... no better, take a huge step back in my process. 

Ofcource I have sometimes my sad, bad thoughts and 'missing them' moments, but it's less, much more less then a year ago. I'm sure I will get over this in time, though the time in Canada I would like to treasure as a adventure, a precious adventure, yes! Cause I have been there and I did my best, all the best I could! Now I'm here, and here I did my best aswell, my best to get everything on rails again. And I managed! I'm still not there yet in my eyes, but I'm getting there. Again I want to be surrounded by people, my new job is a good start, the free dinners in the week aswell. But in my eyes it's not enough, the volunteers jobs where I'm searching for  is still not a success. 

I'm still busy with finding and searching for a nice volunteers job, the volunteers agency where I recently have signed in and where I had a few test appointments are a bit slow aswell. The agency is called 'Scoop.' The last time I contacted them was last week, I reacted on a vollunteers job and 'they' mailed me back a week later, saying that they will put me trough trough another volunteers agency where 'that' job is located, I'm still waiting. Like I said it's going to slow. But I'm not giving up, perseverance is what I'm doing. I'm looking for something in the weekends, I have six days off now, and... well, it's not that I'm bored but, just having people around me is what I miss so now and then. 

Do I have friends? Uhm, what are friends actually? Friends are people where you can depend on and where you have a good time with, people where you can socialize with and communicate, people where you feel good with. I think I have a few, but if I can depend on them, I don't think I can, there not really trustworthy. I'm talking about a few friends from Humanitas who I see almost every week, at the free dinners. I had a nice time with them at Humanitas, shared things, and had fun. It's tough to find a good friend nowadays I guess, sure I have a few people where I can go to and have a nice time, but that's it actually. I guess it should be enough....