Criticism!

Criticism!

Today was one of the day's I guess at work, or it was national complain day. I think I wrote about it before, our foreman isn't always the nicest while working. Maybe I shouldn't even blame him to give criticism, it's busy and maybe it's all stress. I work hard and I always give a 100%, sometimes even more, I dislike making mistakes, I hate it. Though making mistakes are normal, people learn from it. Though in my foreman eye's I sometimes never learn, making one mistake is in his eyes ten mistakes. He sometimes makes it a huge problem and announcing it trough almost the whole factory. 

That makes it even worse towards me, it's busy, though I love my job and then I get sometimes over excited and work harder. But I know when to put the brakes on, my body gives a signal then. Today was a day of comments, criticism and sarcastic jokes. We were busy with a huge mat which had 6 parts, this mat needed to be filled with rubber, though job! I'm pretty fast with other material, but rubber? no! With rubber I don't need timing or drilling, lol. I have to take it easy and do it my way. 

I was proud of myself how far and fast I came with this huge mat, though with my foreman not really. He commented on the last part, asking me if I really could finish it before the coffee break. I told him I could if they don't bother me. Though he wasn't convinced, two other fellow workers came aswell with some jokes. I gave up and let them do it, ugh! I could finish it and I gave it 100%, but no. The 'complain' day had officially begun. I disliked it what they did and what they said, it was all jokes, but I didn't like it. After the coffee I worked harder to get rid of my anger and let them see I can work. 

My mood was 'f*&ck it. The work I did was okay and everything went well and fast. Though my foreman spotted a little mistake I made yesterday, three other fellow workers joined. It was actually nothing, just a little mistake. Though I disliked it ofcource, but I completely ignored it and went on with the work I did. "Just one of the days," I thought. The last our of the day a fellow worker stood up for me, not that a success, but okay. My foreman had a little inside joke with me, it was all jokes and it wasn't that much. Though the fellow worker commented on it, and told him the true. 

This fellow worker always rides home with me after work, we talk then about our working day. I tell about my day and what I went trough. Also sometimes about my foreman, today the fellow worker told him that. The foreman didn't like that, he called it 'gossip behind my back.' I can't talk that much with my forman or have the time to speak what bothers me with him, it's just to busy. Now there we were, busy with work, and unkind, angry,  disappointed forman, and there's me, upset aswell and trying to find a solution for the situation. I came up with the idea towards him to have a little appointment with him. 

Me and him talking under four eyes Thursday morning 7:30 am.  He agreed and was kinda relieved though still a bit upset, I think I did the right thing. I can tell what is bothering me, I can tell my story. He has probably something to tell me too, who knows. He's a though guy, talking with him about serious stuff or something what bothers me isn't possible, he will joke around just to stay in his tough pose. Hopefully I can have a nice conversation with him upcoming Thursday. Nervous? Just a bit. He's a nice guy, he surely has his good side aswell, I have seen it many times. Though just that sometimes.............