"Stop worrying!"

"Stop worrying!" 

For me sometimes worrying (read: always) seems necessary, when I worry about something it mostly always turn out well. Though worrying alot isn't healthy, and it's surely not a nice feeling. I worried yesterday about my trip to Copenhagen, it seemed  I was to late with the paying. I thought I had to pay four weeks before the trip date, though it was six weeks. I received a letter from the travel company last week with them telling me that I still had to pay for the trip, they would like that I payed within five days, or there would be a chance that the trip would bel canceled. Though I opened the letter yesterday and not last week, I was late yes, I panicked and payed the trip right away online, hoping afterwards that this trip wouldn't be canceled. In my eyes I was way to late with paying, the five days were already past...

This morning I looked on the calendar and started counting the weeks from the day that I payed for the trip until the date of the trip (29th of December) I counted six weeks and a few days, so, I was good. Though I worried cause of the received letter saying 'paying within five days,' this morning I called the travel company at work. I Asked them if my paying is confirmed, and if my trip is canceled. Well the paying is confirmed, and the trip isn't canceled. When I got back from work I even got a answer on the email I sent yesterday, the booking was complete, paying is done, I will receive in a few days the official confirming. Yay, now stop worrying! I think I will start worrying now for next week, lol. Next week I will probably get to hear if I can stay working for another half year, in other words, a extension of my working contract.

Fellow workers told me that the Boss would have given you a hint already the last day or weeks if the contract would not be extended. Hmm, I don't know, this company is aswell full of surprises I noticed. Though I can't find any reason why they won't hire me for another half year, maybe only that I can work only 3 days, they probably want someone who can work for 5 days. Further then that it's all positive with me, I do my best, never been sick, work extremely well, I have been flexible, can copy very well with the other workers, etc, etc. I should actually not even worry, though I do, it goes automatically, ans I guess it's normal aswell. So yeah, it's fine, let me worry, lol. Maybe then it will be fine. Oh, and today's work? That went very well, I did alot, I managed to finish more then I actually expected, was well happy with that. A bit sore muscles and a bit tired afterwards but oh so satisfied!

Canceled?

Canceled? 

My trip to Copenhagen with New Years is probably canceled, because I had to pay this trip at least six weeks before the actual trip date. And I thought it was four weeks! When I confirmed this trip back in June I even putted a note on my calendar saying, 'Pay trip to Copenhagen,' a month before the trip. I got a letter from the travel company telling me I still had to pay for this trip, they wanted me to pay within five days, if not then the trip will be canceled.  I usually wait until I open my mailbox, wrong, I know! I'm to stressed sometimes to open it, "It can wait," I think then. Well, this time it couldn't wait. The travel company sent the letter on the 9th of October, and probably I received it last week, maybe Wednesday, Thursday or Friday, or even Saturday. If I had checked my mail sooner, I would have been on time with my trip paying, (I think) 

And now? Well, I payed right away in the early morning online. (Always paying online) Though I thought about it, shall I pay or not? I did, and I sent the travel company a email telling them what happened, told them sorry, and that I had paid this morning. The company is closed on Sunday's, tomorrow from 8:00am until 10:00pm there open. I will call them right away tomorrow at work, I want answers, lol. I will be jumping for you if the trip is not canceled! If it's been canceled, then I will see what I do, going on a trip or not. Canceled means aswell I have to pay 75% of the confirmed trip, sigh! I will loose most of my money, and then to book another trip? I do not know. Perhaps a cheap New Years or Christmas trip somewhere in Holland. I will see. I am keeping my fingers crossed for tomorrow. Roll on Monday!

Just a Saturday.

Just a Saturday. 

Today was visiting Dad on my schedule, I went there in the late morning around 11:00. It was still pretty warm outside, unusual warm for this time of year. I switched my winter coat for a thinner one, it surely was needed. Before I took of I had a nap, and decided to have one more after Dad's visit. The visit was quit alright, I bought Dad the sippy cup, two new comfy pants and flowers. He was happy with my visit and my Aunt wasn't there, though I always check the parking lot for my Uncle's car, lol. So much better when my Aunt's not around.

After the visit I took my second nap, and then a early dinner preparing. I had plans to go out this evening but that didn't go trough. I had a coffee 'date' with one of my friends, but she went out with her Son to a football match. It would have been just a visit to a friend, chatting and drink a few coffee's, that's all. But okay, perhaps next time. Today I have been thinking of my time in Canada a few times, don't know why. Do I think alot of that time lately? No, not much, I mean surely not that much as back in the beginning of 2011.

Thinking about it today made me miss my time in Canada, just being there and do the things I did there. Shopping with Saf or just the kids, walking or cycling to the park with the two young ones, the talks, the singing, the jokes, etc, etc. Although the break up and although the 'getting used to everything,' I surely had as great time too. The loving and attention was surely worth while, but I'm here now and that is good too. If I could do it all over again, I would have done it much different, better, much better. Kinda cliche to say, but it's true though. 

I learned alot being in a first time relationship, aswell being a father, oh yes! I have been put trough a test by God, I guess, haha!  Do I wish I could do it all over again? Hmm, I don't know, if that means I have to sell everything here and give up everything here again, then it's a no! But if I could go back in time, to let's say 2009 March being on my way to Saf, yeah, then it's a yes! I never will regret my time in Canada, I had a great time there, and yes aswell though times to get used to things, it surely was a hard lesson to learn. It was a great adventure, only wish I could have stayed longer.

I have become stronger, wiser, and I'm good here. Though I wanna go back one more time, back to Mississauga on a little vacation. Meet friends, see the area, I wonder what that will do to me, it will bring back alot of memories for sure if I would go now, so I will wait a few years, whenever I'm ready. Visiting Sad aswell? No, that will bring alot of memories back, ans seeing the kids, hmm, I'm not ready for that, and I don't think I will ever be. Yeah I miss them when I wrote this post.

Almost a full weekend...

Almost a full weekend... 

Yawning alot this evening, soon I will go to bed. I worked a half day in the afternoon, and I took my rest in the morning. Just before lunch I bought quick most of my groceries for the upcoming week. Though it's been quit a full day, I'm quit tired now and ready for bed. It's been extraordinary warm aswell today, more then 20 degrees and lots of sunshine, were almost in November! The weekend will be the same, nice temperature and sunshine, I'm not complaining. 

Tomorrow I will be heading of to Dad, it's been 3 weeks since I last saw him, so yeah, it's time. The comfy pants I bought him 3 weeks ago fitted him well, he was happy with it. Dad's nurse asked me to buy one more for him, ofcource I will, I like doing things for my Dad specially when I live not near him. Dad needs a new mug aswell, he needs one with a, uhm, how you say that in English? It's actually a mug like babies have, a sippy mug. Dad doesn't have that much strength anymore in his hands or legs. 

Kinda sad to see him like that though, he used to be such a hard worker, and now on his old age.... I will buy some new flowers aswell, he likes that. Kinda weird that I didn't hear from my Aunt lately, she use to call daily or weekly, but since that 'argue' she called much more less. Last time she called was 3 weeks ago, thumbs up, I'm pretty fine with it. It saves me alot of nerves and stress for sure.

I will be going to my Dad late in the morning, fist I wanna sleep in, it's needed. Probably I will visit a friend aswell Saturday eve,' I promised her a few times but I refused a few times. I know her from the free dinners, and from mutual friends from Humanitas. I like it to have (new) friends, though I'm pretty aware of what kinda people I choose as friends, I always keep an eye open, specially people from Humanitas. (Most of them you can't trust)

It ofcource takes time to get to know people, the person where I'm going to tomorrow seems nice and fun to be around, so far so good. Though I should keep more distance aswell, I noticed from myself that I get to much carried away when it comes to socializing, I don't have to see everyone who gives me attention as a friend. I noticed that I'm in need of some good friends, in 'that' I get a bit to much carried away sometimes. And that can be not always good.

Exhausted after work...

Exhausted after work... 

After a day of rest I went to work this morning, I was quit on time on my way, so, no hasting this time. At work there was enough to do, my second Boss was still feeling ill but was present. I could tell he was ill by the way he looked and the way he acted, he was quiet and took it easy. I worked normal like I always do, steady on but aswell easy. It was warm outside, and I could feel that too inside the factory, even worse while working. I felt a bit short breathed, that wasn't a nice feeling when you have to lift many times. Though in the afternoon when the lifting was almost done I felt a bit better, I slightly had the same feeling last night. It started with cramps in my stomach... weird! It can be anything, perhaps hidden nerves, lol. With such feelings I always take it easy or slow down my work a bit. The lunch break at 12:30 came right on time, I nearly finished the heavy lifting. 

The break was needed, oh yes! Though I finished what I wanted to finish, nice feeling. Health goes first, I know, but sometimes my little pains are just little nerves, nerves mostly attacks the weakest parts of my body. Remember my hurting thumb? I was thinking the worst, but in the end I just think I pulled a little muscle, cause the pain is gone now. Though I always keep an eye open, cause it doesn't always have to be little nerves what's causing the pain. Tomorrow I will work too, but only a half day, I surely couldn't do another whole day. Busy days ahead, Saturday visiting my Dad, in the evening probably a coffee at a friends house. Groceries have to be bought aswell, and ofcource the needed rest has to be planned aswell. Thinking of making a little schedule. It will make things alot easier, plan things, write the cords down and separate them on the days off. Easy!

"Buddy wanted."

"Buddy wanted."

Today was the day my new counselor visited me for the first time, though it's not a usual counselor, this counselor will help me with finding new social contacts or help me to find a sport or a club, I need something to do, specially in the weekend. I need new contacts, people where I can go out with perhaps, or just visit so now and then. And who knows maybe become friends. But the 'friends' thing is not the most important, finding new contacts is.

I was a bit nervous and at the same time excited. I shouldn't be nervous, lol, this is just going to be fun. The new counselor and his Boss (The lady who leads the project 'Buddy wanted.') came right on time, 2:00 pm. The lady was friendly and the new counselor was a tiny bit nervous I saw, they both shook my hand and sat down. My new counselor looks a bit hmm, uhm, scary? Can I say that? When we all talked about ourselves the 'scary' feeling vanished slowly away...

Took some pictures at a little park, then I saw this black swan with the two young swans...

 I could not get closer, otherwise the male swan would attack me for sure. 

He has a bit of a weird 'tick,' when he starts to speak he closes his eyes for 5 or 6 seconds and then looks at me or who he's talking to. My new counselor's name is Johan, so I will say Johan when I write about my new counselor, it's alot easier to type aswell, lol. I have a good feeling about him, I think it will be good. Johan asked me what he actually wants from him, I told him that I would like that we both/together are going to look for something where I can get (perhaps) social contacts, that can be a sport, a club, volunteers work, etc, etc. 

Johan wanted to know this cause then he knows what he has to do. Friday the 26th of October Johan will come and then we start the whole 'finding social contacts' project. This project will last for 8 months, wow! And it's all free, this project is sponsored by Humanitas. Humanitas offered me this project before, but I rejected it, I thought I could do this easy on my own, yeah, not. I tried hard but without success. Cheers on the upcoming 8 months!

732th post!

732th post! 

One day I'm gonna hit the 1000th post, oh my, oh my. Just that sometimes I I think, 'What on earth am I thinking to write every day a post.' Sometimes I think I write to much of my personal life aswell, like, why should I write about my financial problems? Or, why should I write about what I did the whole day? Though it's fun to read it back sometimes, it's not always fun to write, everyday writing a post is sometimes quit a job. Sometimes I don't even feel to write, but then again, I can't skip a post anymore. I wrote already 731 posts, lol. If I would skip a day then it would feel awkward, or not right.

Today I was a  bit nervous before going to work, cause yesterday I worked on my own section with another fellow worker, my second Boss was sick. This morning I thought that he might be feeling well again and come to work, but where would I be placed then? On the schedule (at work) it said I'm placed on another section, but I rather work at my own section. Maybe I could have switched with the other fellow worker, but no. It's pretty busy at our section, but the other section needed another worker aswell. (me) Arrived at work my second Boss was still sick, so I thought I would be placed on my own section, but no. 

The other fellow worker where I worked with yesterday worked alone in my own section. And my second Boss showed up in the early afternoon, he wanted to try to work again, with success. I worked at the other section, it's nice working there but I rather work at my own comfy section. I'm good there, I feel great there, I want to learn more there and grow. I know I can grow more there, I have it in me, I'm doing already such a good job there. That gives a awesome feeling, like, I want more and more. And then they sent me to another section sometimes, ugh! Thursday I will be on my own section again, says the schedule, but first a day rest.

The hearing was short...

The hearing was short... 

What a full day it was, my second Boss was again sick. Surprised cause last Friday he was there, only the day before he was sick. What's going on? Probably he will be back tomorrow, I will see. The working day without my second Boss was good though, just like usual when he's not there. I'm fine without him, though I miss him saying that missing word when I finish a mat or when I'm not that really sure about the lenght or wide from a mat. When I'm sure that the mat is done, I want to be sure that the mat is really, really  done, then my second Boss will say if it's done or not, I miss that. But further I'm fine.

One fellow worker helped me out today, that went, okay. When I have to work alone I automatically make a little program in my head how I go to work the following hours, when someone is going to help me it would be nice for me to (if he wants) follow my program aswell. I'm not that good in giving orders to someone who has worked longer then me here in this factory, lol. But today went well as I said, we both did alot. After my working day I made a quick dinner, I warmed up tomato soup and finished it with some crackers, yum! Then clean clothes on and on my way to the city hall for the hearing.

I wasn't nervous, the last few days after that I heared that I have a hearing I became calmer and calmer. I thought, 'I will let it all come over me, their not gonna kill me, lol' Arrived there I had to sit down and wait for someone who's gonna pick me up, I was a bit to much on time. I was friendly and calm. A man came and brought me to a little hall where five people had gathered around a table, wow that felt a bit awkward. I felt like I was a criminal and that I had murdered or robbed someone, lol. Ofcource it felt weird, it was my first hearing. The hearing was short, very short, it only take 15 minutes. 

I had to say what my 'objection'was one more time, that went well, I spoke clearly and loud. That gave a good feeling, There was a woman from Social Services aswell, she did her saying aswell. One thing what I didn't quit understood or where I didn't actually agreed with was that she told the 'jury' that I called on the last week from May that I had a payed job now, cause I never called, and I was clearly on time, like social services anounced in the mail. But oh well. I will see what the outcome is, I will have to wait 6 days the jury told me. If I noy have to pay back the amount of money I will be happy, if I have to pay then it's understandable aswell.

A hearing tomorrow...

A hearing tomorrow...

... And I'm not looking forward to it, it kinda worries me aswell. The hearing in short is about a payment that I have to pay back to Social Services. On the 1st of May Social Services had to stop paying me monthly cause I had a payed job, but they were a month to late. That was not my mistake, but their mistake. I had the option to do a 'objection,' I had to fill in a paper with the reason why I objected, why I was against the paying back. First I had doubts about the whole 'objection' thing, but someone from Social Services almost insisted.

I filled in the paper, and the government plus Social Services looked trough the papers and they sent me the papers with the appointment for the hearing, that's a normal procedure. So, tomorrow evening at 6:00 pm I will be at the City Hall for the hearing, the hearing will only take 20 minutes. After the hearing I will have to wait 12 weeks for the results, lol. In the meanwhile the 'paying back' still remains, though I haven't heard from them yet, no letter, no mail, no information of how to pay back.

Things like that makes me nervous and kinda worried, if I think about it I worry about more things, for example my job, 'can I stay at my job after 1 November?' My half year contract will be over after 1 November I hope I will get a extension, I can't think of a reason why not, but still, the worries. Anyway, first the hearing tomorrow, chances of winning the hearing? Hmm, naah, it's there word against mine. Let's face it, they payed me to much money, (their fault) I will have to pay that back. Sounds normal, right? We'll see.

A okay day!

A okay day! 

The lonely feeling from yesterday slowly disappeared this morning, I had plans today. Today I went to Ikea, it was actually needed, cause I needed something for my window sill. Plants have died again in the fully sun on my sill, for the second time. So, no more plants on my sill. A friend of mine offered me to join me to Ikea, she offered me already last week. But she went sick just a few days before our trip, and today she didn't feel any better. I went alone, I was actually looking forward to go to Ikea with someone, it's so much more fun. But okay, with a slightly disappointed face I took off. This friend I know from the free dinners, she's actually a friend of someone I know from Humanitas, she's nice, and has two kids.

Off I went, I bought my last groceries already just before I took off to the train station towards Ikea. It wasn't cold and the expected rain didn't show up. The trip with the train wasn't that long either, not even 15 minutes. Arrived in Hengelo (the City where Ikea is placed) I took the bus to Ikea. But I forgot to have any change on me, 3 Euro and 30 Euro cents was pretty much for a 10 minutes bus drive, sigh. The bus driver told me to go to the nearest bank and try to get a bank machine, there was one near the bus station. I still had 3 minutes before the bus left. I ran to the nearest bank and putted my card into the bank machine, but it didn't work, the second attempt neither. 

I ran back to the bus and told the bus driver that I will take the second bus, I needed to find another bank machine for change.  The bus took off and I went searching, after a few machines I found one what actually worked, sigh! I walked back to the bus stop and waited for the second bus, Bus 51 to Ikea showed up within 10 minutes, good! I thought to myself, why should I stress about the time, I got plenty of time on my own, enjoy!! I don't have to be back on a certain time, right? It's a Saturday afternoon and it was busy at Ikea, but that was okay, I took my time and enjoyed myself. Ikea is nice to visit, it's cheap aswell, and just watching the items they sell is nice aswell. 

I bought a few things I needed,  I saw a few things where I thought, 'Shall I? Or shall I not?" I saw a nice painting but had doubts of buying it, it was pretty big aswell. Then the cooking pan I saw, hmm, it was not actually what I'm here fore, lol. I bought a few fake plants, two little lamps and a few vases. I was satisfied, it was all good. Even though I had to carry it all what I bought, it was good to do. I packed it all in a few plastic bags, and packed it then all together in one big plastic bag, I'm pretty good in that, lol. I had a nice afternoon, I took the bus and train towards home, I thought the 3 Euro and 30 Euro cents was a one way, but it was not, just my luck. I prepaired dinner when I got home and took my rest. The things I bought looks nice in the window sill, I will place pictures from it in the next post.

P.s. the friend who wanted to join me to Ikea told me that she will make up with me, the nicer days are coming (Autumn, Christmas, New Year) she wants me to join her with her Family to go out a day or perhaps a dinner. Sounds good!

That lonely feeling...

That lonely feeling...

The three days off in the weekend can have many different sides, sometimes I feel like I want to do just nothing and I'm pretty fine with it, sometimes I want to go out and I'm feeling pretty excited about it. But sometimes that lonely feeling during these days can hit me aswell, today was a day like that. I didn't do much today, I felt a bit left out and I don't know why. Sometimes a uplifting word or a talk from a friend can get me going again, though nothing has changed in the situation where I'm in, I'm still alone. Most of the time I'm good and fine with that, but just that sometimes.... ugh! 

It rained pretty hard when I went to the dentist this morning, kinda nerves I cycled trough the rain. Though it was just a check up. The female dentist I have is a very nice lady, she treats me well during her job, no pain. The check up went good, there was nothing broke, everything was okay. Yeah, I don't have the perfect teeth but the fillings were all good, and there was no hole to find. I told her that I bought a electric toot brush a month ago, that was a plus point. Wish I bought that much earlier. My teeth were clean the dentist told me, (insert smile) it's all good! My next dentist check up will be next year.

Now, the mail what I waited for so long has finally arrived, social services wants me to pay a sum of money back what I received back in May. On May 1st I signed my working contract at work, in that same week I went to social services to tell them that I have a job now. They gave me a form (paper) where I had to fill in where I work and when I started working there and what I earn, etc, etc. I filled in the form and sent it to social services. A month later I received a mail back from social services telling me that I have to pay back a sum of money from the month May from this year.

Since I signed my working contract I'm not receiving any monthly money anymore from social services, that normal cause if they would pay me monthly I would earn above the minum wage. I was nicely on time with me informing them about my new job. But, social services weren't able to look trough my 'informing' on time, and getting it 'done' one time. And because of  that I will have to pay back my monthly money from the month May. Just because 'they' weren't getting it done on time. Now, social services advised me to do a 'objection,' I can't find the right English word for it. A 'objection' gives me the opportunity to prove that social services were wrong or actually 'not on time.' 

And because of that I have to pay a month loan back. I did the 'objection,' I had to write a letter with a story why I want to make a 'objection' and why I'm against the paying back . So, I wrote the letter and waited for a message back from social services. A mail came back today with social services saying that they received the letter and that there will be a 'hearing,' sigh. What did I start?! Though it will be a small 'hearing.' I'm surely not looking forward to it, lots of reasons, reason one, I'm nervous cause I'm not a speaker, and reason two, in my eyes the whole 'hearing' won't help, Ill have to pay anyway. 

I know that are not positive thoughts, but okay. Upcoming Monday is the 'hearing' at 6:00 pm, I can bring someone with me to support me, but I don't have a clue who. I will be fine on my own. I'm expecting a no, but hey in the same way I will have a yes, a yes, I don't have to pay the monthly money back. Oh my I will be in court! Haha, it sounds so weird, but it's actually not that big. Hope I will get a yes.

Sleepy!

Sleepy!

This won't be a long post, I'm feeling sleepy. I already fell asleep while being on Facebook. It's been along day working on my own in the section where I always work. My second Boss was elsewhere today, he gave me a few orders trough Facebook last night, so I knew what to do first today. Today went well, I finished the orders nearly what had to be done this Thursday. The working alone felt good, I love showing that I can do it. Almost a year ago I came working in this factory for the first time, for a test period for 3 months. Well, it became actually 6 months. And look at me now, I know what to do, I know how to handle things, etc, etc. 

I learned many things during the 6 months, I enjoyed it and still do. I finished a huge mat what came in two parts, and almost finished a order of 100 little mats. Tomorrow I'm off (as usual) tomorrow my second Boss will finnish the order of 100 mats. Today he told me he was proud of me on the Facebook chat. Kinda awkward to have 'a Boss' as a friend on Facebook, lol. But he's a cool guy and I see him as just as one of the fellow workers, only he gives the orders, tells me what to do, he knows what goes first and what goes last. Tomorrow I will have my rest, like I said it's been a long day today. For now I will say, good night!

"At your service!"

"At your service!" 

I love getting advice and orders trough my Facebook chat from my fellow workers, LOL! Naah, just kidding, one fellow worker, (my second Boss) told me what to do first when I start with my work tomorrow, cause he won't be there. I knew this already cause he told me last Tuesday. It's the first time ever he messaged me trough Facebook, or any kind of network. It's sometimes crazy at work, today my second Boss worked alone and tried to do as many as possible. Otherwise we will have a delay on our orders this week. Tomorrow I will take it over from him, cause he has to go for a appointment. Usually we work together. 

Two pictures I took this afternoon, the tree's are still green. But soon they will change color. Higlander cattle's you see in the picture, so pretty!

Tomorrow I will be on my own, just like last week, then I also had a day 'on my own.' Maybe it's weird but... I love it!! I'm NOT complaining! I don't know what it is, and I can't explain it, I just love this work so much, I think I never had work that I love so much as this. Hmm, maybe the wooden furniture I made at my last job, but this job I have now is different. I can call this a 'real' job, I earn money with it, the fellow workers are hard workers and kind. It feels like I'm working in a real factory, I love the work I do, I never complained about the amount of work. Lol, I jump for joy when we almost drown in new orders. Am I ill!?

Busy, busier, busiest!

Busy, busier, busiest! 

It's busy at work, we sure need more workers. But the Boss doesn't wanna hear it it seems, pity. Today I had to leave my section to work on another section, though I was on both sections needed. If I had to choose I would have chosen my own section ofcource, I know how it goes there, I know what to do, what goes first and last. It will even get busier in the end of the week at our section, but today I was some where else. The work there is a bit lighter, and just okay. It was fun working with the other worker, nice guy. I always try to do my best and alot, I like it, it gives me a good feeling.

The guy where I worked with said aswell that we need more workers, the guy is usually alone making the mats, that's almost impossible, but he has too. Today he needed one worker more, me! Work went well today, even with my thumb, I really can't explain where the pain came from or why it happened. I'm just relieved that the pain is gone, though I will keep a eye open for my thumb. No Doctor's appointment this week. Thursday I will be on my own section again, alone! I feel that boosting' feeling again, that 'dare me' feeling, lol. It's busy, and I want to help out, though I keep a eye on my health ofcource, always.

It's cold!

It's cold! 

It's cold out, the temperature today was so so. Almost freezing in the morning but the sun shined and warmed up the day, though I'm thinking of putting a Winter coat on tomorrow. And maybe even my long john's, lol. When I got back from work, the Autumn coat I had on felt cold, but I refused the put on a thicker coat, it's only October, what to wear when it's really freezing!? When I got back from the 'free dinner' I was even colder, I putted on a warm sweater and the heater a degree higher. Plus warm socks and a cuppa tea, that made me warm, nice! I think it will be Winter soon,  Autumn will be short. Winter will be rough, I tell ya!

Work went well today, all the nerves before this day were vanished, and surprisingly the pain in my thumb was less. So weird, I woke up this morning and the pain was almost gone. There were moments I could feel a bit of pain in my thumb, but that was almost nothing. Still I might see my Doctor on Wednesday, just to be sure. The fellow workers told me aswell that it's common here with other workers, many have the same problem, hurting hands and fingers. We do make sometimes the same movements while working, though we have lots of different work aswell. But it's the long and same movements after another.

I will go to bed early I think, although the heater is on, I'm still a bit chilly. A thicker blanket I have putted on the bed, let's see if that warms me up tonight. Night ya'll!

Osteoarthritis?

Osteoarthritis?

Not in a pleasant mood today, still the thumb is bugging me, I wish I knew what it is. Ofcource I try not search on the internet for symptoms but the trying failed. The pain and symptoms in my thumbs might be osteoarthritis, it's actually quit oblivious. When I wake up the pain is on his worst when I use my thumb, starting stiffness, later on the pain slowly goes away when I do activities, but comes back in the evening. The most pain is on the top of my thumb, when I push there the pain floats trough my whole thumb. The last three days I have been resting, aswell the hurting thumb has rest then. Though the rest brings aswell stiffness, pain. It worries me, and worrying makes the pain ofcource worse. 

This morning I felt bad, I worried alot cause of my thumb. Bad scenarios came up, 'maybe I need a operation, can I still do my work? Do I have to give up work? Will I be handicapped with this thumb?' I know I shouldn't think this way................But I do. Sometimes when the pain goes away, I feel a relief, and just think, "I will just see what happens this week." Maybe it's not even Osteoarthritis, maybe I just pulled a muscle, or, I don't know. What I do know is that I have to see my Doctor this week. Tomorrow with work I will see if I can handle the work, if I can't I will be off. And go straight to my Doctor. If I can handle the work then I will wait until Wednesday (day off) to see my Doctor.

Autumn sun!

Autumn sun!

A nice Saturday, it just felt a bit different then other Saturdays. Feeling not so well puts me in a 'blah' mood. Still the thumb is hurting me, I went to a few pharmacy's to look for.... yeah, for what actually. Bandage, a cold compress, or perhaps cream for the hurting thumb. Cold feels good on the thumb, but I'm not a Doctor, so I don't really know what's good or right. I didn't succeed with the first two pharmacy's but the last pharmacy gave me some advice, I explained what was wrong with my thumb and where the pain was. I could tape my thumb to give it a rest, said the lady from the pharmacy.So, yeah, I bough the bandage/tape and tried it on my thumb. It gives a stiff feeling, I don't know if it's gonna help, I will see. I also still have some painkillers from Ibuprofen 600mg, I'm not really a medicine taker, so I will be carefull with those 600mg. 

Maybe I will take one 600mg on Monday and Tuesday one,while at work, but first I will see how the thumb feels on Monday. If the pain still continues on Wednesday I will see my Doctor. So much rain this morning, I was thinking this rain will last the whole day. But the sunshine apeared when I went out to do the rest of my groceries, Sjon-shine! After my groceries and the pharmacy's I took of to the garden centre, I need new decoration infront of my livingroom main window. Plants are dying infront of that window cause of the full sun. I looked for fake plants, tiny little lamps 0r candeliers with candles...But after a few hours shopping I still had nothing. I decided to leave and give it a rest. I will look next weekend or perhaps this coming week, Ikea or another store I will see. I think it will be Ikea. No, wait, it will be Ikea, it's been a while since I have been there.

Stormy weather!

Stormy weather! 

The wind blew hard today, but it wasn't that cold, though they forspelled it. Nothing changes more then the weather, lol. It was a bit a bleh day today, I rested well in the morning, took a nice nap. The rain was streaminmg down this morning, lucky it was dry in the afternoon. I needed some groceries, otherwise I won't had something to eat for dinner. I went to the closest store here in the neighborhood. I went to the taxes office aswell just before I did my groceries. Taxes keeps sending me money that they own me, I don't mind though, but if or when I don't trust it I'm going to their office to ask for information.

The sum of money I was about to get from taxes this morning was quit alot, I had to fill in the paper they sent me and everything will be taken care off. But I remembered that 'that' sum of money was already sent to me, to be sure I looked on my bank account, and yes! It was there, taxes office told me that sometimes the mail they sent passes each other. It's confussing! I felt not so well today, the coughing doesn't bug me that much, but I have a pain in my thumb what I can't really describe. Probably pulled a muscle, I don't know. It started last Monday at work, my thumb felt a bit numb after some work I did.

The following days the pain felt okay, but recently the pain came back. It's annoying. When I squeeze my thumb I feel no pain, but when I push on the top of my thumb it hurts and I feel the pain going trough my whole thumb. I wish I was a Doctor, so I know what it is. I don't go to my Doctor that much, but recently I do, I don't wanna visit my Doctor for every small kinda thing. ( I have a bad experience with that) Though if the pain continues, I will go. Kinda worried here, I'm already thinking of osteoarthritis. Wednesday I will visit my Doctor if it gets worse, in the meanwhile rest, and perhaps painkillers.

Master of the mats!

Master of the mats!

Had a bit of a rough night last night, I didn't sleep that well. The little cold I have starts to develop, it's mostly the coughing in the evening and a little bit during the night what bugs me. It's the same cough I always have with a cold, I will have to cough up slime but it's thick, the tickle in my troath makes me wanna cough more, and once I cough I cough more and more. So today after work I bought a syrup specially for coughing up slime. To much information I know, lol. The coughing made me fell asleep late last night, in the very early morning a broken light bulb kept me awake aswell. This light bulb was placed in the flat hallway, just across my room. This light bulb went of and on, I could clearly see it from out of my sleeping room. Around 4:30 I got up, and fixed this annoying light bulb. I grabbed a chair and a screwdriver and took the light bulb out of the lamp. 

Fellow workers at work, a worker made this nice Instagram picture! Nice right?

I putted the broken light bulb somewhere aside on the hall way ground with a note, lol. Funny that the note plus the light bulb was still there when I got back from work, broken. But anyway, I had a good day at work. This morning when I took of my rain coat plus rain poncho and sat down in the cantine, (It pored this morning) a fellow worker told me that my second Boss wasn't coming today, he's sick. My second Boss does the orders in our section and I have to help him, very nice guy. But today he wasn't around. So, I had to do the orders and work on my own, and that went pretty good. I felt proud, I felt a boost too, like, "I will show them what I have in store." In the afternoon another fellow worker helped me out, nice. It gives a good feeling that I know what I have to do, I learned alot the last 11  months at work. First the orders with the most rush, and then the rest. 

I wanted to do my work good and I succeeded, though it was hard work. This weekend I will take it easy, were expecting alot of rain, and the warmth I will have to find in my house. I will be sitting out this little cold, with grocerie shopping I will get some extra fruit and veggies. Rest and relax is on my schedule this weekend.

Rain, rain, loving it, and I'm not complaining, rain, rain!

Rain, rain, loving it, and I'm not complaining, rain, rain. 

Suppose to be a rainy day today, but most of the rain fell in the morning. Just my luck cause I had plans in the afternoon. In the morning I did absolutely nothing, I had a power nap and that felt good. I think I slept more then a hour. I woke up a few times, and fell back asleep. Just before my lunch I turned on the washing machine, the white wash had to be done, sheets and t-shirts. I mostly wear white t-shirts under my weather or shirt. After lunch I tried one more little nap but that didn't happen, the power nap from this morning was enough. Around three 'o' clock I took of to visit a friend.. 

Her house has been renovated, and I promised to visit her a few times, but I skipped it. I know her from the free dinners where I go to, and where she recently goes to aswell, and I know her from a a few mutual friends from Humanitas. She has a 13 year old Daughter and a 9 year old Son. Some of my friends asked me today and there will probably be some talks behind my back about me liking this new female friend, well I like her but just as a friend. I even asked myself what it is actually why I like to visit her today, for sure I'm not in love with her, and it won't happen either. She's totally NOT my type! 

I found out today that I like having friends around me, real friends that I can trust (trust is important) and where I can go to for a visit, or whatever. I need that, it gives me a good feeling. Sure I see often friends from Humanitas, but they aren't really friends, it's just sometimes fun to be around them. But the trust in them is far to find, pity. More friends who I can trust please.... where it's fun to go to...

A guy...

A guy.... 

 I have not much to write or say today, work went well just like yesterday. After two hard working days I really need a day off, and that will be tomorrow. Resting in the morning and probably in the afternoon doing some groceries or cleaning, or both. I got a email back from 'Buddy wanted,' they found me a so called partner, this partner will help me find something to do in the weekend, perhaps he will help me to find a group of people where I can socialize with or better be friends with. 

I'm thinking of volunteers work, join a club, a team or a sport. This partner will help me for eight long months. That's great! But this partner is a guy, ugh, I rather had a woman, I even asked for it last week. But no! My last counselor (Sahajo) was also a guy. I talk better and clear my hear out more with women then with men, I don't know why. Maybe it's because men don't use much words. But okay, finding something is more important. 

6 months are really 6 months... and not 5!

6 months are really 6 months... and not 5!

I miss counted one month, lol. Not today I got to hear if I can stay at my work, but on 1 November. Cause from 1 May until 1 November are exactly 6 months. From 1 May untill I October are 5 months. So all the nerves from last week and the last 3 days were for nohting, lol. I will have to wait another month, another 4 weeks of nerves? Hmm, maybe just a bit. I really hope the work continues like the last 5 months, we had lots to do, lots of orders. Much work is good for my staying, I think. 

Work went well today, actually it was a nice day at work, fellow workers were goofy, work went good, without mistakes. I dislike making mistakes, when I make a mistake, I want to solve it, and I promise myself that I never make that mistake again. Making mistakes gives me a rotten feeling, though I learn from it aswell. That's positive, right? This evening I didn't went to the free dinner, I had left overs from last Saturday, and I didn't wanna throw it out. Just a calm evening for a change, though it felt weird not going, I kinda missed it aswell, next week again for sure.

Nerves this week!

Nerves this week! 

I hope tomorrow will be the day when my Boss comes to me while working, and takes me with her to her office. Then I hope she will say, "Okay Sjon, you can stay for another half year, your half year working contract gets a extension." I guess I'm dreaming ahead, though I hope and actually pray this comes trough. I will be so happy and suppa duppa motivated for the next half year. After the next half year my Boss has to hire me for good. It's the law. Oh, the nerves. I will have to wait, the waiting is so long though, lol. Today has just been a lazy day, nothing new, just resting, cooking and getting things ready for work. 

It was a gorgeous day outside, I should actually have gone outside for a walk. But I didn't, Sunday is usually a 'stay inside' day, lol. This coming week I will do extra my best at work, no mistakes. If I make mistakes it's just because I forget to ask sometimes, asking what the measures are or, how many parts this mat is, etc, etc. it's all about being assertive. I need to speak up more. I'm not that a talker at work, I don't know what it is with me. I need time to get used to people, and then slowly I start to speak up more, I will speak up with a louder voice then I do now, lol. Oh well, not everyone is the same right?

Easy Saturday.

Easy Saturday. 

This Saturday was a bit different then the normal Saturdays I have, at least if felt different. I had to wait for a message or a phone call from a friend of mine, she needed help with moving some furniture. Painters and fixers were busy for almost three weeks with renovating her house. This friend I know from the 'free dinners' and from a mutual friend from Humanitas, she's a nice lady, she has two kids. (No, I don't have a crush on her, haha! Just a certain friend.) The waiting for the phone call and message took long cause the painters didn't show up in the early morning, the came much later in the morning. So the painting took longer then was expected, not until six or seven in the evening with help from others they were finished.

Sun and dark clouds today, but not cold, perfect Autumn weather.

That was just to late for me to help them, I felt sorry.This friend of mine lives in the same city as I do, but she lives all up north, and that's a long bike ride. I promised them I would drop by for a coffee soon, probably this week. I earned some money today aswell, I sold my old TV cabinet, that went fast, right? The buyer picked it up, payed me and went off. That's the way we do it. My Aunt sent me a message aswell today, asking me if I was going to my Dad today, Dad needed a raisin bread again, and the store where my Aunt buys the raisin bread was closed. She had to go to another village for the raisin bread, good Lord, there are several other bakery stores where my Dad lives! Anyway, I told my Aunt shortly and firm that I went yesterday and that I had a full schedule today, sorry!

Best Dad visit ever!

Best Dad visit ever! 

A nice Autumn day, a hard breeze, here and there a dark cloud but most of all sunshine. Today on my schedule was to visit my Dad, just before the visit I had my rest and a little nap. Just before noon I took off, when I go earlier to my Dad I might bump into someone who I rather not bump into, yup, my Aunt. When I arrived at Dad's village I first went shopping, there were a few things what Dad really needs according to my Dad's nurse. The universal remote control for the TV I had already, it's a handy remote with big buttons, and the buttons are less then a normal TV remote control. 

 I went for a short walk in the forest after Dad's visit, I got lost cause I took the wrong turn, lol. The path I followed took me right where I wanted to be. 

The first sign of Autumn? I saw typical Autumn mushrooms in the forest.

First of to a (sport) clothing store, Dad needed a kind of a comfy jogging pants,(one without a zipper, lol) and I found one. I had to guess his size, but that was kinda easy. Size XL was way to big for him, size M, was to small, so size L, it was. Next store was a gift shop, I needed a vase, cause the last store I visit before heading to Dad was a flower shop. Withing 20 minutes I had everything I wanted, jogging pants, a vase, and nice flowers. Gosh the weather was nice, when I nearly arrived I looked at the parking lot, searching for my Uncle and Aunt's car. I was safe, I can go in, sigh! 

 Always these horse pictures Sjon, lol! I'm not even a horse fan, I wanted the horse to come closer so I made a few noises, and then it came closer. While I had taken this photo I putted the camera away and could actaullu see how close it was standing in front of me. Yikes!!

The path leading to the forest, it's not even a 5 minute walk from my Dad's place. Once your in the forest you can walk there for weeks.

A shame that it has to be this way, hiding or avoiding family members to visit my own Dad. But I had a great visit, when I entered his room he called me said, "Hey Sonnie boy." He was glad to see me, oh yes, he was. That's how I want it to be, not as a must to go, but just whenever I want, unexpected as a surprise. Dad was happy with the gifts I gave him, some nurses came in for Dad's lunch, and Dad told them about my gifts. I stayed for a little hour, then I took off. It's sometimes sad to see that Dad doesn't get much visitors, and I bet that having my Aunt two or three times a week as a visit isn't a pleasure either. 

This little creature could easily fit in a large shopping bag, so tiny and cute.

This horse was hiding behind the other's horse bum, I wanted the horse to look up and so it did. Nice picture as a result.

I have been thinking of volunteers who can visit my Dad once a week, there is a volunteers agency in Dad's village. All though the volunteer will be a stranger, if he or she comes once a week they won't be strangers anymore. It's just a thought. I will have to place a advert on the site of the volunteer's agency, if I want to get this trough. Though I think it's better to discus this with my Dad's nurse first. When I left Dad's place I was thinking of what he's gonna do the rest of the day, I mean how does he gets trough his days. I know the place where he lives organizes sometimes little events for the residents and Dad enjoys them, but still. A few visitors more would be nice.

Feeling sleepy and writing a post.

Feeling sleepy and writing a post. 

I'm excited about the weekend, though I have not much planned, just excited about a few little things and the rest and sleep. I can see that the days are getting shorter, in the morning it's still dark when I have to go to work. A few months ago it was the opposite, aswell in the evening it's getting darker sooner then normal. My Dad use to call such days, "The dark days before Christmas." Today I worked well, though in the morning I made a few little mistakes, I know I learn from it but I hate it, I so dislike it. A few mats were to short or to wide, it's easy to repair, but my second Boss calls me then and points me to the mistake, ugh! I know he has to do it, and it's good he does it, I learn from it, but still, ugh! Specially now when I'm in the so called 'Danger zone,' lol!

Upcoming Monday I will probably get to hear if I'm hired again for another half year, nerves? Hmm yes and no. I'm give it a  90% that I can stay, the other 10%, yeah, doubts. But anyway, I will hear it Monday or the days after. Tomorrow my day off, I want to visit my Dad for sure. I got him the universal remote control that he wanted and needed. Dad can't use his hands properly anymore, he needs a remote control with only a few buttons, and then buttons has to be less. I will bring him some flowers too, and a vase for the flowers. (Including raisin bread what he loves) The day after Friday I will help a friend of mine getting a huge couch out of a container into her house. Plus I sold my TV-cabinet just 10 minutes before I started to write this post.

Enough to do I guess in the weekend, though I'm not going shopping or go out visiting other cities or markets. I need my rest aswell. And I'm sure I will take care of that. Good news is that my stomach ache is much, much less then a few days ago. Good and relieved feeling.

Excited much!

Excited much! 

The lady from 'Buddy wanted,' has been, and it was all I expected. It's good to have such projects, the visit this afternoon went fine. Sahajo my old counselor was with the visit, he filled me on when the lady asked about me. I'm excited that this 'project' is gonna help me out, though a little bit nerves aswell. The lady leads this whole project, but she's not the one who's gonna guide me with searching for volunteer work for example or perhaps finding a sport I can join, or whatever is possible to get me out of the house during my days off. Within two weeks the lady will come back with a person who has been chosen for me, that person will visit me weekly or once in two weeks.  Together we will try to find 'something' for me. Yeah, I need this, I need to join something, get out more, get out to find people where I can socialize with. Been to long alone.

The lady could tell I was excited, that made her excited aswell. The normal procedure is that I get a guy who will guide me, cause I'm a guy too. If I was a woman I would have had a woman as a guide, why? Well, the lady told me that there "could" be a chance that relationships could follow when a guy guides a girl , or vice verca. Pity, I rather would have had a woman who will guide me, and I told the lady that aswell. She answered me with that she will do her best to get the best guide for you who suits me, a woman or a guy. We will see. Why a woman? I don't know, I talk easier with a woman then a man, lol. In my eyes women or better listeners then man. Period? ...................yes!

A little stomach ache.

A little stomach ache. 

I guess I ated a bit to much today, after the evening dinner I had lots of cramps and went to the bathroom. Afterwards my stomach felt like it's in a knot, I have a weak stomach. I guess it was the cake from work this morning, we all had a reason to celebrate something, Our work is going well, the huge order for the US from a few months ago was a success, we managed. Still we have lots of work, our Boss told us in the cantine this morning, that we can fold our hands and be blessed, cause there's not many factory's in our area with so many orders. The cake was nice but had just a little bit to much cream, lol. I think I never have to buy cake, cause there's always something to celebrate at our work. Birthdays from fellow workers, a deliverance of a baby from a female worker, etc, etc.

Busy week ahead at work, I probably work Friday aswell. Though I hope not, cause Dad is waiting for me too. It's about time I visit him, my Aunt still didn't call since my last email. I'm not worried, it's a nice and a calm feeling without phone calls and emails from her. Tomorrow I'm getting visitors, my old counselor (Sahajo) comes and a woman from "Buddy wanted." Buddy wanted has everything to do with searching for 'something to do, 'socializing' finding perhaps new friends, going out, you name it. Buddy wanted is a project that will help me find for 'something to do.' Perhaps join a sport or go to a club or find volunteers work. I tried to find all that by myself, I did my best but didn't succeed. I have work but further then that I'm still searching for more company, something to do, specially in the weekend.

My counselor will help me to give the woman from 'Buddy wanted' as much as possible information about me, ofcource I can talk too, lol. but I like it when my counselor helps me with this, he asked me aswell. The woman will guide and help me around for eight months with finding 'something to do,' supports me and looks around aswell for something to do. I'm excited about this project, I'm actually on a point that I almost wanted to give up with searching, lol. There is just not much to do and the volunteers agency here is slow. I don't want either to fall back in my old pattern, that 'einzelganger'patern. Not wanting that is a good sign. In Canada I had lots of people around me, I had to get used to that, after Canada I didn't want anything else then people around me.

Windy, rainy day today...

Windy, rainy day today...

This morning just before I went to work it rained pretty rough, actually the whole night it rained pretty rough and I heared thunder. Awkward and relieved I felt that when I had to go to work the rain stopped, lol. Just my luck, thought I had my rain poncho with me. It wasn't cold but the wind blew hard the whole day, specially in the evening. 

Work went well today, it wasn't so busy. Though I hope it gets busier, cause of my working contract. 1 October is on his way, lol. Further on this Monday.... well not that much really, just a manic Monday, lol. I can tell that alot of my friends on Facebook are looking forward to this season, that makes me excited too, lol. Yep, I'm not gonna complain when it rains and I have to get trough it, and when I'm cold I will wear my favorite sweater and fully enjoy it. I'm ready for the colder days.

Sunday's alright!

Sunday's alright! 

I think you can guess what I did today.... It's Sunday! Resting, getting things ready for tomorrow's work and cooking. Normally I don't go out on Sunday's, so today neither. Calm and relaxing on the couch, with a cuppa and my laptop. Catching up with friends, news, music and funny video's. This Sunday went pretty fast. 

And yes today aswell it dashed trough my mind aswell about my 'half year working contract,' one more week and then I get to hear if I can stay for another half year or not. When I think of it it's obliviously that I can stay, I did my job well the last 6 months, so. But yeah, you never know. It nerves and worries me.

Lots of rain is for spelled for tomorrow, I layed my rain poncho ready for just in case. Well there's not much more to say actually about this day, it was a nice, calm and a relaxing day. What can I wish more for. Perhaps a ton of money, LOL! That would be nice.

First Autumn day, and it sure was a pretty one.

First Autumn day, and it sure was a pretty one. 

This afternoon I spent my time in Arnhem, just like I planned it yesterday. This morning I took it easy, so I could calm and rested out go start my travel. The travel to Arnhem took only a hour with the train, it ain't that far.Before I went I felt a bit down, like I sometimes do in the long weekends, being alone isn't always a pleasure. Add the nerves for the upcoming weeks and I'm done. The upcoming weeks I will probably get to hear if I will be hired again for another half year. Fingers crossed, oh yeah! 

Rain and sunshine in Arnhem!

In the month May from this year I got to hear that I can stay for a half year, I signed for it. The half year is a common thing, it's a normal procedure. After the half year, they can hire you again for another half year. But after that they must hire you for good,  (or fire you) they can't hire you for another half year for a third time. I really, really, really hope they hire me again for a second half year, the nerves were getting to me this morning. Thinking of what's gonna happen if I will be not hired for another half year, gosh horror scenes! 

The river Rhine floods beside Arnhem.

Anyway I went out today and I had a pleasant time, I had a few rain showers but further then that, it was a beautiful first Autumn day. Arnhem was great, lots of shops and lots of people. I nearly bought a new 'Autumn' jacket (as I called it, lol) not to thick and not to thin. I nearly found one, but it was just a bit to tight. Glad I didn't bought it though, I figured the Winter is nearly on his way too, and I need a new Winter coat aswell. So better to search for a Winter coat. It was a nice Sunny Autumn day, I will do this more often, if or when the money lets me, lol.

Da weekend has started!

Da weekend has started! 

I'm going out tomorrow afternoon, I will leave around 11:00 and arrive around 1:00. I'm going to Arnhem, Arnhem is a nice city to visit. Arnhem is not as far a s Amsterdam and doesn't have the crowded tourists as in Amsterdam. Arnhem has aswell a historic story, In World War II, during Operation Market Garden (September 1944), the British 1st Airborne Division and the Polish 1st Independent Parachute Brigade were given the task of securing the bridge at Arnhem. The units were parachuted and glider-landed into the area on 17 September and later. These events were dramatized in the 1977 movie A Bridge Too Far. (Wikipedia) But most of all Arnhem is a nice place to fill my afternoon, ofcource I take pictures!! 

New curtains in the sleeping room.

As you can see they hang a bit over the central heatinmg, shorten them is a must.

The color is hard to describe, it's light brownish with a bit brownish green. Uhm, yeah!

Today was a pretty calm day, I rested but did also a few house holdings. As usual I did my weekly groceries, funny is that I mostly know where everything lays in the store, mostly I always take the same route, lol. It wasn't that cold today, the sun made it nicely warm. I bough a little bunch of callion, it was needed in a recipe I want to try Sunday. Sunday's is my special cooking day. On Sunday I have plenty of time for that. Today I made a start with hanging my curtains, that went quit easy I must say. The rail was hanging in, let's say 20 minutes. (pictures above) I had to iron the curtains first, cause they stayed in the package way to long. 

Although the curtains are hanging, there still not done yet. They have to be shorten, cause they hang over the central heating, that can cause a burn. And they have to hang for a long while, maybe then the wrinkles come out. Everything on time.

The nerves can begin now...

The nerves can begin now... 

Yep, almost 1 October, one 1 October my working contract will be over. Though I actually do not have to worry cause my Boss will (probably) enlarge my contract for another half year. Just like my Boss mentioned when I signed my working contract in May, "When you continue the way you work now, there's nothing to worry about." Easier said then done, lol. One more week then I will probably know it if or when they enlarge my contract. And the nerve began... I can think of a few reasons why they don't want to enlarge my contract, 1) The three days that I work in the week is just not enough...

They want more days. 2) It will be not that busy next week, so yeah, that's an option to fire someone aswell. Aaah, I'm thinking ahead then, filling in thoughts. I will do my best, just like I did today. Today work went well too, I nearly managed to finnish a order. I was thinking aswell that the fellow workers in my section would ask me to work tomorrow a half day. First it was a yes, later on it went a no. Silly maybe that I am, I didn't like it, I would love to work a half day more. Lol, here I am that other fellow workers are happy with a day off, and me dislike it when I can't work a half day more.

Rain...sunshine...rain...shunshine.

Rain...sunshine...rain...sunshine.

Gotta love Autumn, hey let me get used to the cold first, lol ! I was looking this morning what kinda sweater I will wear today, not to thick, not to thin, I found a nice warm one. It was cold in the morning when I went out to do groceries, I couldn't believe I saw a few people walking in t-shirts. All though the sun shined trough some rain clouds, there was still a cold wind. After the groceries I picked up my ready made ordered curtains from the store, that went easy. Saturday I will hang them. Yeah, it was a bit a full day. When I got back I took my lunch and rested, after my rest I waited for my  second hand TV- cabinet. I saw a nice second hand TV-cabinet on a selling site, today was the day the sellers brought me the cabinet. 

The new cabinetis 35cm's high and 1 meter 50 wide.

The TV-cabinet is very wide and much shorter then the old one I had, I will have to get used to it. I think the cabinet needs some decorations, for example a little rug or a plant on top of the cabinet, and hide the long wires. It will be good in the end. Hard rain today, on my way to the free dinner I got soaked. When I got there (soaked) the sun shined again, lol. While writing this post I wearing a thicker sweater, it's gonna be a cold night, five degrees only. My heater is still out, I will see how cold it feels in the morning, maybe then I'll put it on for a little while. I haven't checked my Hotmail today to see if my Aunt responded on my mail, I will check it in the morning. If I check it now and my Aunt responded nasty I will probably lay awake whole night, so no.