Lots to do tomorrow!
I think tomorrow will be a short day off, there's lots to do, alot to arrange. On a good side my tire is still full with air, it's magic, I just don't have any other word for it. I pumped up my tire last Sunday around 3:00 pm, and it's still full with air. I pumped up my tire aswell on last Friday, but the air went almost totally out on Sunday. Magic, I'm sure, or the air in the tire has just frozen, lol. Anyway, that's all good. First thing tomorrow morning I will have to pick up my card for the psychotherapy my Doctor arranged for me last Friday.
The therapy is for my breathing, I breath trough my chest to much, and that's not good. That gives the pressure on my chest aswell. With the card I can make a appointment with the therapist, in the same building as where my Doctor is, handy! Though after I pick up 'that' card I will have to ask my Doctor for another card, cause I need that 'other' card for another appointment at 10:00. At 10:00 am I have a appointmentet with a lady from Dimence, she will be giving the training/cursus 'Mindfullness,' rememember I wrote about that a week ago? This training/cursus felt right when I red about it....
"Mindfulness is a way of paying attention to, and seeing clearly whatever
is happening in our lives. It will not eliminate life's pressures, but
it can help us respond to them in a calmer manner that benefits our
heart, head, and body. It helps us recognise and step away from
habitual, often unconscious emotional and physiological reactions to
everyday events. It provides us with a scientifically researched
approach to cultivating clarity, insight, and understanding. Practicing
mindfulness allows us to be fully present in our life and work, and
improve our quality of life"
Tomorrow as I said I will have a appointment at 10:00 with the lady who gives this training/cursus, we will talk and see if this training/cursus will be any good for me. It's kinda like a introduction session, uhm, yeah. She will give more information about mindfulness, and I will see if it's any good for me. I will have to take a few things with me to the appointmend. My passport, a so called 'agree' card from my Doctor, or how you call such card? Plus my health insurance card. My Doctor has to agree that I can join this training/cursus.
And my health insurance card is (I think/hope) to see if I can get this training/cursus for free. It depends what kinda insurance I have. I really hope I get the ppsychotherapy for free too, it all depends on my health insurance. If I have to pay, I'm gonna look for other options, cauze I bet that such things are expensive. I will see and hear it all tomorrow. So yeah, busy morning ahead, cycling from A to B, and from B to A, and in between perhaps a few groceries. I'm out of bread, I think I eat 3 loafs of bread in seven days. Alot? Naah, I like bread. Tomorrow afternoon I will take it easy and rest.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Monday, March 11, 2013
Lazy Monday.
Lazy Monday.
I woke up early, an hour earlier then my cellphone alarm. My alarm was set on 5:15am, I woke up at 4:15am. Fact, I usually wake up around this hour when I have to go to work.I wish it was different, lol. Another fact, I always set my alarm on my cellphone when I have to get up early, though I always ways wake up before it goes off, always, lol. But anyway, I always survived the long days, so that's a plus point. Though this morning was dragging, actually the whole day was. I felt sleepy and tired, I guess the last three days off were a bit to much. Specially yesterday was hectic. Talking about yesterday, I was prepared with my new bicycle pump early in the morning, devastated and ready for a perhaps flat tire.
But no, my tire from my bicycle was stone hard, I pumped it up yesterday afternoon, and it was still pumped up. Good! Let's see how long it lasts, after work the tire was still hard, good! I will check again tomorrow early in the morning. Work went well today, though three fellow workers were sick, wow, a record, three workers in a row sick. Blame the weird weather were having, last week almost 17 degrees, with lots of sunshine, now we have snow, plus minus temperatures. No wonder people get sick. I haven't been sick yet this year, and last year even, knocking on wood! I'm ready for warm weather people, I'm ready for Spring, or better, Sumner!
I woke up early, an hour earlier then my cellphone alarm. My alarm was set on 5:15am, I woke up at 4:15am. Fact, I usually wake up around this hour when I have to go to work.I wish it was different, lol. Another fact, I always set my alarm on my cellphone when I have to get up early, though I always ways wake up before it goes off, always, lol. But anyway, I always survived the long days, so that's a plus point. Though this morning was dragging, actually the whole day was. I felt sleepy and tired, I guess the last three days off were a bit to much. Specially yesterday was hectic. Talking about yesterday, I was prepared with my new bicycle pump early in the morning, devastated and ready for a perhaps flat tire.
But no, my tire from my bicycle was stone hard, I pumped it up yesterday afternoon, and it was still pumped up. Good! Let's see how long it lasts, after work the tire was still hard, good! I will check again tomorrow early in the morning. Work went well today, though three fellow workers were sick, wow, a record, three workers in a row sick. Blame the weird weather were having, last week almost 17 degrees, with lots of sunshine, now we have snow, plus minus temperatures. No wonder people get sick. I haven't been sick yet this year, and last year even, knocking on wood! I'm ready for warm weather people, I'm ready for Spring, or better, Sumner!
Sunday, March 10, 2013
The bicycle pump!
The bicycle pump!
A flat tire! And that on a Sunday, well, I noticed already something last Friday, my rear tire from my bicycle was soft, softer then usual. I was on my way to my Doctor's appointment. After the appointment I tried to figure out what to do, it was Friday so I actually had two days to let this soft tire be repaired. If I will let it repair I will loose my bicycle for one day, if I hand it in I can pick it up tomorrow. But what if my tire isn't flat, but just soft? Maybe it just needs some air? Decisions, decisions! I couldn't hand my bike in the next day (Saturday), cause then I can pick up my bicycle on Monday in the afternoon. Monday I need my bike early in the morning, for work. I decided to pump up both tires at the repairer, just fingers crossed that the air stayed in, lol.
Saturday morning, I checked my tire just before I went to my Aunt and Uncle. The tire was pretty hard still but it felt a bit awkward, did some air went out or not? I forgot to check it again later that Saturday, I wish I head. Not until Sunday around noon I checked and yeah, flat, well pretty much flat, lol. Damn, all registers open! It was Sunday, all stores are closed. Thinking, my tire was pumped up last Friday, it's Sunday now, so that means that when I pump it up again, it will last 'let's say' for one and a half day. I need as pump! I went to Facebook and asked a friend who lived near, no answer. I Googled for some stores who could be open in Almelo on this Sunday. My luck, a garden centre near my house was open, they are only open on Sunday's once a month.
This garden centre has sometimes these awkward sells, so I figured they sure have a bicycle pump, ofcource! I walked, it wasn't even a fifteen minute walk, though trough the snow was tough. It was pretty crowded there in the garden centre, but, but, but, yep, no pump! What the.....! I turned around and walked out of the store, I decided to walk to Ina, a friend of mine, she definitely has a pump, oh yeah! Another twenty minute walk, I thought, What am I doing? LOL! Ina had a pump, she even had two pumps. I took the small one, but not before I had a coffee with Ina, it was needed, lol. On my way home I hoped the pump would work, but it did not, damn, damn you pump! ''No worries, lol I am laughing while I write this!'' When I was with Ina she told me that there were more stores open this Sunday.
I did not even think, I went on my bicycle, with a soft but not flat tire, and went to the stores what were open. Another fifteen minute ride! I leaned a bit forward to ease the rear tire a bit while cycling, yeah, I am handy like that, lol.Cold and a hard wind didn't stop me, I was on a mission, never mind the Sunday rest! Though I longed for it, but, couldn't I fix my tire not by myself? Yes, and no, yes I can, but no, cause I know myself that at this moment I won't succeed. I went to the store where I planned to go, I saw a nice bicycle pump, for not that much money. Such a pump is always handy, I should have bought it right away when I bought my bicycle. I pumped up the soft tire and drove home, this time faster cause the tire wasn't soft anymore. Hopefully the air stays in the tire until Wednesday...
Then I will get a brand new tire. This tire has been flat already two or three times. two times in one month. Before going to bed I will check my tire again, just out of curious, to see if it went soft again. Tomorrow morning I will probably have to pump the tire up. In worst case I will take the pump with me to work, in a even worse case, 'when the tire is flat and a pump doesn't help,' I will walk to work, yikes, pretty far but it is to do. But let's not look ahead to far, lol. I trust on my pump, this pump is the best. A old classic one, but a good one. And for now, rest, my bum on the couch, legs on the couch and flat. Time for a nap, it was a pretty good Sunday, different but good.
A flat tire! And that on a Sunday, well, I noticed already something last Friday, my rear tire from my bicycle was soft, softer then usual. I was on my way to my Doctor's appointment. After the appointment I tried to figure out what to do, it was Friday so I actually had two days to let this soft tire be repaired. If I will let it repair I will loose my bicycle for one day, if I hand it in I can pick it up tomorrow. But what if my tire isn't flat, but just soft? Maybe it just needs some air? Decisions, decisions! I couldn't hand my bike in the next day (Saturday), cause then I can pick up my bicycle on Monday in the afternoon. Monday I need my bike early in the morning, for work. I decided to pump up both tires at the repairer, just fingers crossed that the air stayed in, lol.
Saturday morning, I checked my tire just before I went to my Aunt and Uncle. The tire was pretty hard still but it felt a bit awkward, did some air went out or not? I forgot to check it again later that Saturday, I wish I head. Not until Sunday around noon I checked and yeah, flat, well pretty much flat, lol. Damn, all registers open! It was Sunday, all stores are closed. Thinking, my tire was pumped up last Friday, it's Sunday now, so that means that when I pump it up again, it will last 'let's say' for one and a half day. I need as pump! I went to Facebook and asked a friend who lived near, no answer. I Googled for some stores who could be open in Almelo on this Sunday. My luck, a garden centre near my house was open, they are only open on Sunday's once a month.
This garden centre has sometimes these awkward sells, so I figured they sure have a bicycle pump, ofcource! I walked, it wasn't even a fifteen minute walk, though trough the snow was tough. It was pretty crowded there in the garden centre, but, but, but, yep, no pump! What the.....! I turned around and walked out of the store, I decided to walk to Ina, a friend of mine, she definitely has a pump, oh yeah! Another twenty minute walk, I thought, What am I doing? LOL! Ina had a pump, she even had two pumps. I took the small one, but not before I had a coffee with Ina, it was needed, lol. On my way home I hoped the pump would work, but it did not, damn, damn you pump! ''No worries, lol I am laughing while I write this!'' When I was with Ina she told me that there were more stores open this Sunday.
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| The best (classic) Dutch bicycle pump there is! |
Then I will get a brand new tire. This tire has been flat already two or three times. two times in one month. Before going to bed I will check my tire again, just out of curious, to see if it went soft again. Tomorrow morning I will probably have to pump the tire up. In worst case I will take the pump with me to work, in a even worse case, 'when the tire is flat and a pump doesn't help,' I will walk to work, yikes, pretty far but it is to do. But let's not look ahead to far, lol. I trust on my pump, this pump is the best. A old classic one, but a good one. And for now, rest, my bum on the couch, legs on the couch and flat. Time for a nap, it was a pretty good Sunday, different but good.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Spring, where art thou?
Spring, where art thou?
Got a a mail today from Humanitas, remember the 'new' volunteer job I received a week ago? This volunteer job is a job where I will be visiting people who have little social contacts, people who would like to do something but are not able to do such. These people are mostly elderly people, but aswell people who are handicapped or such. I will visit them, they can fill in their own needs of what they would like to do, that can be anything. A walk, a bicycle ride, a chat or just a coffee, etc, etc. I will be doing the visits with a group of other volunteers, everyone has their own visitor. It's now that we go to the person with the whole group, lol.
This group of people are all 'new' volunteers and aswell 'new' to these visits, just like me. In the mail I received was announced that the 'new' group (including me, ofcource) will get a few introduction lessons first before the visits begin.
Next Friday will be the first introduction lesson, the day after (Saturday) will be the second. The introduction lessons will learn us how to get along with people, how to behave, or how to act or how not to act. The introduction lessons will be long and will be held in another city. Friday's first lesson will be held from 7:00 pm until 10:00 pm. Saturday we will start at 10:00 am until 4:00 pm, nice! There will be coffee, lunch and ofcource the new volunteers. I'm not even nervous, more excited to meet the new volunteers. Although the Friday eve' will be a bit 'hmm,' I don't like it to be out on the street that late in the evening. I will have to go by train, and bus. All in all it will take me a little hour, though I will try to get a ride with someone, I already contacted the leading lady from this project. To see if she someone knows who can give me a ride. Waiting for a answer.
I just don't like to be out in the streets at midnight, lol. When I'm with someone, it's okay. Today I saw my Aunt and Uncle again, together we went to my Mom and Dad's new grave. The weather was terrible, rain and a hard cold wind. I went by train and bus, once I arrived in Nijverdal my Aunt and Uncle picked me up, from there we went straight to the new grave. The grave looks nice, plain, just like the other graves, but nice. Mostly all graves there have the same grave stones and tombs, or how you call them, all nicely in one line. The new grave stone looks the same as it was, but has only a different text. My Aunt had a bucket with plants with her what she bought and putted it on the grave, we decided to put not to many plants on the grave cause of the bad weather they forspelled week. It will be better toget a few more plants with Spring.
After the grave I went with my Aunt and Uncle for a cuppa coffee, just what I needed, darn cold weather. It was a nice morning, Aunt and Uncle were nice, I guess I just have to be firm with them and at the same time nice. In a way I kinda need them aswell, they remind me of my Dad so much, every time I see them I see my Dad aswell, or think of my Dad. Not that strange cause they took care of my Dad aswell, my uncle is my Dad's youngest brother. My Dad has more brothers and sisters, as you can see on the picture. My Uncle brought me to the centre of Nijverdal, I told him that I still needed a few groceries, so he dropped me of there. All in all it was a nice out, nice to see Dad's old town again aswell. Though it feels sometimes awkward entering this village, cause I always feel I'm going to visit Dad. In a way I still do, right?
Got a a mail today from Humanitas, remember the 'new' volunteer job I received a week ago? This volunteer job is a job where I will be visiting people who have little social contacts, people who would like to do something but are not able to do such. These people are mostly elderly people, but aswell people who are handicapped or such. I will visit them, they can fill in their own needs of what they would like to do, that can be anything. A walk, a bicycle ride, a chat or just a coffee, etc, etc. I will be doing the visits with a group of other volunteers, everyone has their own visitor. It's now that we go to the person with the whole group, lol.
This group of people are all 'new' volunteers and aswell 'new' to these visits, just like me. In the mail I received was announced that the 'new' group (including me, ofcource) will get a few introduction lessons first before the visits begin.
Next Friday will be the first introduction lesson, the day after (Saturday) will be the second. The introduction lessons will learn us how to get along with people, how to behave, or how to act or how not to act. The introduction lessons will be long and will be held in another city. Friday's first lesson will be held from 7:00 pm until 10:00 pm. Saturday we will start at 10:00 am until 4:00 pm, nice! There will be coffee, lunch and ofcource the new volunteers. I'm not even nervous, more excited to meet the new volunteers. Although the Friday eve' will be a bit 'hmm,' I don't like it to be out on the street that late in the evening. I will have to go by train, and bus. All in all it will take me a little hour, though I will try to get a ride with someone, I already contacted the leading lady from this project. To see if she someone knows who can give me a ride. Waiting for a answer.
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| Dad with his parents and his Mom and Dad, yeah big Family. My Dad is in the middle, with the tie. Now I know where I have my ears from, lol. |
After the grave I went with my Aunt and Uncle for a cuppa coffee, just what I needed, darn cold weather. It was a nice morning, Aunt and Uncle were nice, I guess I just have to be firm with them and at the same time nice. In a way I kinda need them aswell, they remind me of my Dad so much, every time I see them I see my Dad aswell, or think of my Dad. Not that strange cause they took care of my Dad aswell, my uncle is my Dad's youngest brother. My Dad has more brothers and sisters, as you can see on the picture. My Uncle brought me to the centre of Nijverdal, I told him that I still needed a few groceries, so he dropped me of there. All in all it was a nice out, nice to see Dad's old town again aswell. Though it feels sometimes awkward entering this village, cause I always feel I'm going to visit Dad. In a way I still do, right?
Friday, March 8, 2013
Planning the weekend, accomplished.
Planning the weekend, accomplished.
Yup, my weekend is planned, it's not that much but for me it's full, lol. Today first I went to see my Doctor for a appointment, though I just sat a bit to long in the waiting room. After waiting 45 minutes I went to one of the assistance and I asked when my turn was, they told me that my appointment was yesterday, sigh! I made the appointment last Wednesday and I made it pretty clear that I wanted a appointment on Friday, the assistance and I made it very clear aswell that my appointment was on Friday morning 9:40 am. She told me I could come back in the afternoon at 3:40 pm, I told her that that was okay. I bought few groceries on my way back and went home for a rest.
It wasn't that cold when I went back to the Doctor, they for spelled snow and cold upcoming weekend, strange weather. Once in the Doctor's building I sat down (once again, lol) to wait my turn. At 4:10, (20 min. to late, but oh well) a lady called me in, shook my hand and asked me where she could help her with. My Doctor has sometimes other Doctors too, to help him out. She was a nice lady, though and straight to the point, I told her my story where I came for, pressure on my chest, sometimes short breathed, and sometimes little stabs in my chest. It was a nice conversation with her, I told her about my thyroid and about my 'electrocardiography,' what I did last year.
In the end the Doctor told me why I didn't came sooner. I told her that my chest pain became worse last year December, there's where it actually started. The 'highly breathing' (breathing with my chest) has been going on for such a long time, it really comes and goes. I guess I'm paying now the consequences, lol. I already knew that my chest pain wasn't a danger, the Doctor confirmed it this afternoon. She checked my blood pressure, all good, and listened to my heart, all good. The Doctor asked me what she then can do for the chest pain, medication? Therapy perhaps? I told her that I see this visit as a start for a cure for this 'highly breathing,' what actually causes the sometimes chest pain.
Therapy is what I want! That was her idea aswell, "It sure will be good for you," she told me. The Doctor will write a card for me what I can take with me to the therapist, upcoming Wednesday I can pick up the card. I'm excited and happy with the therapy, the therapy will be held in the same building as where my Doctor is, handy! Yeah, I really see this as a new start with this therapy, I'm super looking forward to it. Imagine when or if this will help, my breathing will get easier and probably I will get a bit more energy. My thyroid looks postive according to my last results, the Doctor told me. Although my thyroid is still sick and will never get a 100%, I'm happy with the last results.
My further plans for the weekend aren't that much, only I will see my Aunt and Uncle tomorrow morning. The trains in Nijverdal have a delay the whole month of March, so, it's not that easy to travel towards my Aunt. To get to Nijverdal I wil have to use the train and the bus, once in Nijverdal my Uncle will pick me up. Probably we will go first to my Dad's new grave, I must actually say my Mom and Dad's grave.My Aunt came with the idea to buy some plants for the grave, it's all fine with me. I have lots more to tell, but let's keep it with this for now. Otherwise I will have nothing to tell this weekend, lol. Positive things are on their way!
Yup, my weekend is planned, it's not that much but for me it's full, lol. Today first I went to see my Doctor for a appointment, though I just sat a bit to long in the waiting room. After waiting 45 minutes I went to one of the assistance and I asked when my turn was, they told me that my appointment was yesterday, sigh! I made the appointment last Wednesday and I made it pretty clear that I wanted a appointment on Friday, the assistance and I made it very clear aswell that my appointment was on Friday morning 9:40 am. She told me I could come back in the afternoon at 3:40 pm, I told her that that was okay. I bought few groceries on my way back and went home for a rest.
It wasn't that cold when I went back to the Doctor, they for spelled snow and cold upcoming weekend, strange weather. Once in the Doctor's building I sat down (once again, lol) to wait my turn. At 4:10, (20 min. to late, but oh well) a lady called me in, shook my hand and asked me where she could help her with. My Doctor has sometimes other Doctors too, to help him out. She was a nice lady, though and straight to the point, I told her my story where I came for, pressure on my chest, sometimes short breathed, and sometimes little stabs in my chest. It was a nice conversation with her, I told her about my thyroid and about my 'electrocardiography,' what I did last year.
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| I bought a few photo frames this afternoon, I think they are nice. They have these little doors what I can close and open. |
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| I'm not that happy with the pictures though, Mom is in black and white and my Dad is in color, maybe I can change the color of Dad's picture, (black and white) somewhere in a photo shop. Further then that, I like the frames and the little doors attached to it. |
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Time flies, here's the weekend!
Time flies, here's the weekend!
Exhausted day at work, I worked again on another section. It wasn't such heavy work, but just alot. It was okay though. Tomorrow everyone at work had a day off, blame the amount of work. The new orders are still coming but not as much as last year, I wish they would. It gives a relieved feeling, the feeling that we all have enough work to survive. I didn't slept so well last night, the weather was warm yesterday, so warm that the heart filled my sleeping room. Knowing that we only had a few days of warm weather I left the warm blankets on the bed, though it was just a bit to warm I guess last night. The heat made me toss and turn in bed, but oh well. Just a bit troubles waking up during the day, later in the afternoon I felt better.
Plans for the weekend? Yes and no, lol. First tomorrow there is the Doctor's appointment at 10:40 in the morning. Looking forward to it, probably I will get a few answers on the pressure on my chest, it's actually oblivious for me where the pressure comes from, but okay. The Doctor's appointment I see aswell as a start to get this chest pressure and highly breathing finally over. I'm sure it will be good with a positive ending. Let's do this, I'm ready! I promised my Aunt last week that I will come over this weekend for a short visit. "If the weather is good I will come on my bike," I told her, but the weather won't be good. Rain is coming up and the temperature is going way down. Would you believe we get snow again on Sunday?
I will probably go by train and perhaps the bus, it's quit a struggle to get to my Aunt. I will just see how to get there. Dad's grave will be done aswell, I will have a look Saturday, probably my Aunt comes with me. I'm still relaxed and feeling okay about Dad's passing away, though there's something that... I don't know how to explain it. There's still something stuck in my body, I think. Still a mourning and grieving part, ofcource there is, I know. the feeling that something is stuck, I continued my daily things right awayafter Dad funeral. With all the distractions I might have sometimes forgot about his passing, I don't know.
Talking about it or just thinking about it is good, part of the process as that say. And I do that so now and then. Thinking about what happened to Dad makes me think aswell that it all went pretty fast, it was just a week and Dad was gone. I have my so now and then 'moments,' moments when I think of Dad, though they get less. Ofcource life is continuing with all the distractions it's easy to forget what actually happened. But there's some positive things ahead for me, although it will be some work, I'm ready. with Mom and Dad watching from above I surely have nothing to worry about.
Exhausted day at work, I worked again on another section. It wasn't such heavy work, but just alot. It was okay though. Tomorrow everyone at work had a day off, blame the amount of work. The new orders are still coming but not as much as last year, I wish they would. It gives a relieved feeling, the feeling that we all have enough work to survive. I didn't slept so well last night, the weather was warm yesterday, so warm that the heart filled my sleeping room. Knowing that we only had a few days of warm weather I left the warm blankets on the bed, though it was just a bit to warm I guess last night. The heat made me toss and turn in bed, but oh well. Just a bit troubles waking up during the day, later in the afternoon I felt better.
Plans for the weekend? Yes and no, lol. First tomorrow there is the Doctor's appointment at 10:40 in the morning. Looking forward to it, probably I will get a few answers on the pressure on my chest, it's actually oblivious for me where the pressure comes from, but okay. The Doctor's appointment I see aswell as a start to get this chest pressure and highly breathing finally over. I'm sure it will be good with a positive ending. Let's do this, I'm ready! I promised my Aunt last week that I will come over this weekend for a short visit. "If the weather is good I will come on my bike," I told her, but the weather won't be good. Rain is coming up and the temperature is going way down. Would you believe we get snow again on Sunday?
I will probably go by train and perhaps the bus, it's quit a struggle to get to my Aunt. I will just see how to get there. Dad's grave will be done aswell, I will have a look Saturday, probably my Aunt comes with me. I'm still relaxed and feeling okay about Dad's passing away, though there's something that... I don't know how to explain it. There's still something stuck in my body, I think. Still a mourning and grieving part, ofcource there is, I know. the feeling that something is stuck, I continued my daily things right awayafter Dad funeral. With all the distractions I might have sometimes forgot about his passing, I don't know.
Talking about it or just thinking about it is good, part of the process as that say. And I do that so now and then. Thinking about what happened to Dad makes me think aswell that it all went pretty fast, it was just a week and Dad was gone. I have my so now and then 'moments,' moments when I think of Dad, though they get less. Ofcource life is continuing with all the distractions it's easy to forget what actually happened. But there's some positive things ahead for me, although it will be some work, I'm ready. with Mom and Dad watching from above I surely have nothing to worry about.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Productive but relaxed day.
Productive but relaxed day.
I had a nice day off, I did the things I wanted to do and rested. Resting I did in the morning, in the afternoon I went out and did a few things. I can't believe this crazy weather, though I am not going to complain. It was 17 degrees today, that's 62.6 degrees Fahrenheit, and sunshine only. Tomorrow the temperature will go down a bit, and we get rain for a few days. After the weekend we get much colder weather and snow, snow!! Kidding me, right? I just buried away my snow boats! Like I said, crazy weather!
What made this day so productive? Well, I made a appointment for the 'mindfulness cursus/training. I'm looking forward to it, I visited the location where the training will be held, it's near the train station. A nice lady helped me out, she told me that the lady who gives the training wasn't in the building anymore, but I could just send her a email. So, I did that just a while ago, I'm waiting for her answer. Next thing I did was making a appointment with my Doctor, cause of the pressure on my chest. Upcoming Friday is my appointment, 9:40 am.
Though the chest pain didn't bother me today, it's difficult to explain what kinda pain it is actually. It's not really pain but yet it is, it's like a nagging or teasing pain. I hope my Doctor will send me to a breathing therapy, I will even ask for it aswell. No medication, cause they will only help for a short while. Again, the chest pain doesn't bother me, though I want to do something about it, it's annoying. Maybe it will make my breathing easier, maybe I will get a bit more energy, who knows? Or not, in both ways I don't mind, it's all good.
When I feel better after the Friday's Doctor appointment or after the breathing therapy it's good, if not, it's also good. I will eventually get information about it, so that's a good thing too, a positive thing. I had a nice day today, I even washed a few windows again. I only need to do the hallway and then I'm done! The few windows outside I want to let them done by someone else, someone with a ladder, lol. Or a cheap company who does it for me. I think they are not that expensive, I will see if Google knows a few in my city.
I had a nice day off, I did the things I wanted to do and rested. Resting I did in the morning, in the afternoon I went out and did a few things. I can't believe this crazy weather, though I am not going to complain. It was 17 degrees today, that's 62.6 degrees Fahrenheit, and sunshine only. Tomorrow the temperature will go down a bit, and we get rain for a few days. After the weekend we get much colder weather and snow, snow!! Kidding me, right? I just buried away my snow boats! Like I said, crazy weather!
What made this day so productive? Well, I made a appointment for the 'mindfulness cursus/training. I'm looking forward to it, I visited the location where the training will be held, it's near the train station. A nice lady helped me out, she told me that the lady who gives the training wasn't in the building anymore, but I could just send her a email. So, I did that just a while ago, I'm waiting for her answer. Next thing I did was making a appointment with my Doctor, cause of the pressure on my chest. Upcoming Friday is my appointment, 9:40 am.
Though the chest pain didn't bother me today, it's difficult to explain what kinda pain it is actually. It's not really pain but yet it is, it's like a nagging or teasing pain. I hope my Doctor will send me to a breathing therapy, I will even ask for it aswell. No medication, cause they will only help for a short while. Again, the chest pain doesn't bother me, though I want to do something about it, it's annoying. Maybe it will make my breathing easier, maybe I will get a bit more energy, who knows? Or not, in both ways I don't mind, it's all good.
When I feel better after the Friday's Doctor appointment or after the breathing therapy it's good, if not, it's also good. I will eventually get information about it, so that's a good thing too, a positive thing. I had a nice day today, I even washed a few windows again. I only need to do the hallway and then I'm done! The few windows outside I want to let them done by someone else, someone with a ladder, lol. Or a cheap company who does it for me. I think they are not that expensive, I will see if Google knows a few in my city.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
"New lay outs."
"New lay outs."
Over the last half year I have been using Blogger's new dashboard, I had to get used to it first, but that's passed now. With the old dashboard I could see right away who commented on my posts, with this new dashboard not. Today I was curious and tried to find the comments 'button' on this new dashboard, and "Found it!" Oh, oh, oh, I saw a few comments where I didn't even comment back on, I apologize Ja.' I answered on the comments right away, glad I found the comments, lol. Now back to this day, uhm, wait, sunny day I must say. It was such a gorgeous weather on this Tuesday, 17 degrees and lots of sunshine. And yeah, last week we still had a amount of snow, and now. Welcome to Holland and his crazy weather.
Productive day at work today, done alot and it went fine. Though the day off tomorrow will be needed, I really couldn't work a whole full week. I'm really not ashamed of it, it's just is as it is. The pressure on my chest was still there, though just a bit less then yesterday. You know, the pressure on my chest can also be from the recently passing away from my Dad. Although I'm okay with it and feel relaxed in my head the chest pressure is there, it could be a sign without even knowing it. I had that before, but then I had the pain in my arm and neck. They told me it was pressure or stress leaving my body, I thought, "Yeah, right!" But they were right. So yeah, this pressure on my chest, who knows.
A few tips I recently heared is that's it's wise not to think to much of it, my breathing I mean. My breathing is to high. When I will join or follow a breathing training, I will probably take to much attention on the breathing. And to much is never good. Best way is to find distraction and relax, perhaps yoga or meditation is good aswell. But again, I'm not suffering, I'm not in a terrible pain, it's just so now and then annoying, but it's good and relieving to know aswell what I have. Though I will see my Doctor probably tomorrow or Friday, hopefully he will send me to a breathing training, even though it might not help me, I will learn from it, and it's fun, I'm actually looking forward to it.
Over the last half year I have been using Blogger's new dashboard, I had to get used to it first, but that's passed now. With the old dashboard I could see right away who commented on my posts, with this new dashboard not. Today I was curious and tried to find the comments 'button' on this new dashboard, and "Found it!" Oh, oh, oh, I saw a few comments where I didn't even comment back on, I apologize Ja.' I answered on the comments right away, glad I found the comments, lol. Now back to this day, uhm, wait, sunny day I must say. It was such a gorgeous weather on this Tuesday, 17 degrees and lots of sunshine. And yeah, last week we still had a amount of snow, and now. Welcome to Holland and his crazy weather.
Productive day at work today, done alot and it went fine. Though the day off tomorrow will be needed, I really couldn't work a whole full week. I'm really not ashamed of it, it's just is as it is. The pressure on my chest was still there, though just a bit less then yesterday. You know, the pressure on my chest can also be from the recently passing away from my Dad. Although I'm okay with it and feel relaxed in my head the chest pressure is there, it could be a sign without even knowing it. I had that before, but then I had the pain in my arm and neck. They told me it was pressure or stress leaving my body, I thought, "Yeah, right!" But they were right. So yeah, this pressure on my chest, who knows.
A few tips I recently heared is that's it's wise not to think to much of it, my breathing I mean. My breathing is to high. When I will join or follow a breathing training, I will probably take to much attention on the breathing. And to much is never good. Best way is to find distraction and relax, perhaps yoga or meditation is good aswell. But again, I'm not suffering, I'm not in a terrible pain, it's just so now and then annoying, but it's good and relieving to know aswell what I have. Though I will see my Doctor probably tomorrow or Friday, hopefully he will send me to a breathing training, even though it might not help me, I will learn from it, and it's fun, I'm actually looking forward to it.
Monday, March 4, 2013
Monday, sunny day!
Monday, sunny day!
While I was on my way to work there was ice on the roads, though just a bit. Yes, it has frozen a bit, just two degrees. But the temperature went way up during the day, in the early afternoon the sun almost bursted in the sky. Extraordinary warm today, though I wasn't complaining. Tomorrow will be even warmer, with such days it's sometimes difficult to choose what to wear. At work I didn't wear my usual fleece vest, I wored a working shirt instead. I have several work shirts with a logo from our work on it, it has several holes already from work. The quality from the shirts isn't that good, but okay, the'll do the job.
My breathing today went so, so. (Recently I discovered that I might have a chronic hyperventilation) I think the suddenly warm weather hitted me, it's sometimes all or nothing in Holland with the weather. From warm to cold, and from cold to warm in just one week is normal, lol. I wrote down a few things of what I can do about the CHV, (chronic hyperventilation) here are the options, seeing my doctor, the mindfulness cursus, breathing therapy and counseling. Ofcource I'm planning not to do all of this all at once, I think it's a good idea to see my Doctor first. He can give me advice or send me perhaps to a breathing therapy or maybe counseling.
Second I would like to start with the cursus mind fullness, I tried to sign in three weeks ago but 'they' thought it was not a good idea to start already, cause at that time my Dad just passed away. It was better to start with the cursus when I'm not mourning and grieving. The mindfullness cursus helps adults cope with difficult emotions such as stress, inferiority, self-criticism and worry. You learn for example more consciously react to difficult thoughts, I'm actually looking forward to this, though I get a meeting first with the person who gives this cursus. After the meeting she can tell me if I'm suitable for all this. Pretty excited here!
While I was on my way to work there was ice on the roads, though just a bit. Yes, it has frozen a bit, just two degrees. But the temperature went way up during the day, in the early afternoon the sun almost bursted in the sky. Extraordinary warm today, though I wasn't complaining. Tomorrow will be even warmer, with such days it's sometimes difficult to choose what to wear. At work I didn't wear my usual fleece vest, I wored a working shirt instead. I have several work shirts with a logo from our work on it, it has several holes already from work. The quality from the shirts isn't that good, but okay, the'll do the job.
My breathing today went so, so. (Recently I discovered that I might have a chronic hyperventilation) I think the suddenly warm weather hitted me, it's sometimes all or nothing in Holland with the weather. From warm to cold, and from cold to warm in just one week is normal, lol. I wrote down a few things of what I can do about the CHV, (chronic hyperventilation) here are the options, seeing my doctor, the mindfulness cursus, breathing therapy and counseling. Ofcource I'm planning not to do all of this all at once, I think it's a good idea to see my Doctor first. He can give me advice or send me perhaps to a breathing therapy or maybe counseling.
Second I would like to start with the cursus mind fullness, I tried to sign in three weeks ago but 'they' thought it was not a good idea to start already, cause at that time my Dad just passed away. It was better to start with the cursus when I'm not mourning and grieving. The mindfullness cursus helps adults cope with difficult emotions such as stress, inferiority, self-criticism and worry. You learn for example more consciously react to difficult thoughts, I'm actually looking forward to this, though I get a meeting first with the person who gives this cursus. After the meeting she can tell me if I'm suitable for all this. Pretty excited here!
Sunday, March 3, 2013
"Hyperventilation."
"Hyperventilation."
I think I know now what has been bothering me the last several years, 'Cronice Hyperventilation.' Since I struggled with my sick thyroid in 2003 I have been producing these little worries, it's aswell a symptom of a sick thyroid, together with a huge wash list of other symptoms. I have been trough alot aswell the last thirteen years, Mom passed away, took care of my Dad, struggling to find work, the relationship with Saf, moving to Canada, a break up, homeless, building up my life, and recently Dad passed away. And here I am now, doing better, lots wiser, stronger, I feel like I'm living now, much more then before I went to Canada. Though these adventures and memories I went trough left marks into my body aswell, the marks slowly crawled in. I always thought that this little pressure on my chest, the sometimes stabs plus the tiredness was a symptom of my sick thyroid. Now ofcource a sick thyroid gives less energy, I knew that from the beginning. I learned to live with it, and with success! My Doctor always said to me, "Do what you can, and listen to your body." Nothing more and nothing less, a simple but good advice.
I'm not worried about the pressure on my chest, even the little stabs doesn't bother me that much. Knowing it's cronice hyperventilation it gives a kind of relief, though it's bloody annoying sometimes. When I'm at work I feel not that much, work distracts me, though again as always, I will, "Listen to my body and do what I can," always did and always will. I actually never thought about hyperventilation, when someone is mentioning it I see a person breathing heavily, or breathing heavily into a bag. I don't have that! Let's say I have been concerned and worried to long over the last several years, that it became this far, as a cronice hyperventilation. Hyperventilation can give alot more symptoms, but this is what I have, frequent sighing or yawning, chest pains, sometimes dizziness when I bend over to long, tiredness, yeah, that's about it. There are several therapies I can follow, for example breathing therapies.
Though, like I said, I'm not concerned or worried, I have been thinking about that I could have this cronice hyperventilation a week or two ago. I thought I'm gonna look it up online two weeks ago aswell, but I wasn't bothered, like I said, the pain isn't that much only sometimes bloody annoying. So I looked it up yesterday and it opened my eyes and felt relieved looking up some sites. Though it's not always wise to look up diseases or something like that on the net, don't search to deep, or, don't dig to much some say, lol. I probably will visit my Doctor maybe this week, to see what he has to say about it. I'm surely not taking medications, cause they won't cure the hyperventilation, they only give calmness perhaps for a short time. I have several other ideas and options what I can do, a breathing therapy sounds great. When I pay attention on my breathing I 'now' can see and feel that my breathing is somtimes to high. Im sometimes breathing trough my chest, the best way to breath is trough the stomach, yeah, I had lessons in that before, lol. Other options are the mindfulness cursus where I wrote about before, and perhaps counseling.
I'm taking this all not to serious, I'm not gonna bury or dig myself into this to deep aswell. This cronice hyperventilation is surely not dangerous, that's a relief. I'm gonna work on this with a smile, I'm actually looking forward to it, silly right? Though, I think it's the best way to go and do this with a positive vibe. I'm looking forward to do the cursus and the breathing therapy. I have a few other things infront of me, there's the "Visists" where I signed in for recently. Probably next week I will hear from them, then there's the trip to Atlanta in a few months, I'm well excited. And last but not least, Spring is on his was, I can feel it, there I'm looking forward to aswell. Enough with the snow and coldness, this coming week they forspelled fifteen degrees above zero, and lots of sunshine. Today I rested and took it easy, lol, as always on a Sunday. Cooking went well the last two days, veggies with potatoes. Tonight it's pasta with zucchini and mozzarella, it will be my first time with the mozzarella, fingers crossed. It will be good, I love cheese.
I think I know now what has been bothering me the last several years, 'Cronice Hyperventilation.' Since I struggled with my sick thyroid in 2003 I have been producing these little worries, it's aswell a symptom of a sick thyroid, together with a huge wash list of other symptoms. I have been trough alot aswell the last thirteen years, Mom passed away, took care of my Dad, struggling to find work, the relationship with Saf, moving to Canada, a break up, homeless, building up my life, and recently Dad passed away. And here I am now, doing better, lots wiser, stronger, I feel like I'm living now, much more then before I went to Canada. Though these adventures and memories I went trough left marks into my body aswell, the marks slowly crawled in. I always thought that this little pressure on my chest, the sometimes stabs plus the tiredness was a symptom of my sick thyroid. Now ofcource a sick thyroid gives less energy, I knew that from the beginning. I learned to live with it, and with success! My Doctor always said to me, "Do what you can, and listen to your body." Nothing more and nothing less, a simple but good advice.
I'm not worried about the pressure on my chest, even the little stabs doesn't bother me that much. Knowing it's cronice hyperventilation it gives a kind of relief, though it's bloody annoying sometimes. When I'm at work I feel not that much, work distracts me, though again as always, I will, "Listen to my body and do what I can," always did and always will. I actually never thought about hyperventilation, when someone is mentioning it I see a person breathing heavily, or breathing heavily into a bag. I don't have that! Let's say I have been concerned and worried to long over the last several years, that it became this far, as a cronice hyperventilation. Hyperventilation can give alot more symptoms, but this is what I have, frequent sighing or yawning, chest pains, sometimes dizziness when I bend over to long, tiredness, yeah, that's about it. There are several therapies I can follow, for example breathing therapies.
Though, like I said, I'm not concerned or worried, I have been thinking about that I could have this cronice hyperventilation a week or two ago. I thought I'm gonna look it up online two weeks ago aswell, but I wasn't bothered, like I said, the pain isn't that much only sometimes bloody annoying. So I looked it up yesterday and it opened my eyes and felt relieved looking up some sites. Though it's not always wise to look up diseases or something like that on the net, don't search to deep, or, don't dig to much some say, lol. I probably will visit my Doctor maybe this week, to see what he has to say about it. I'm surely not taking medications, cause they won't cure the hyperventilation, they only give calmness perhaps for a short time. I have several other ideas and options what I can do, a breathing therapy sounds great. When I pay attention on my breathing I 'now' can see and feel that my breathing is somtimes to high. Im sometimes breathing trough my chest, the best way to breath is trough the stomach, yeah, I had lessons in that before, lol. Other options are the mindfulness cursus where I wrote about before, and perhaps counseling.
I'm taking this all not to serious, I'm not gonna bury or dig myself into this to deep aswell. This cronice hyperventilation is surely not dangerous, that's a relief. I'm gonna work on this with a smile, I'm actually looking forward to it, silly right? Though, I think it's the best way to go and do this with a positive vibe. I'm looking forward to do the cursus and the breathing therapy. I have a few other things infront of me, there's the "Visists" where I signed in for recently. Probably next week I will hear from them, then there's the trip to Atlanta in a few months, I'm well excited. And last but not least, Spring is on his was, I can feel it, there I'm looking forward to aswell. Enough with the snow and coldness, this coming week they forspelled fifteen degrees above zero, and lots of sunshine. Today I rested and took it easy, lol, as always on a Sunday. Cooking went well the last two days, veggies with potatoes. Tonight it's pasta with zucchini and mozzarella, it will be my first time with the mozzarella, fingers crossed. It will be good, I love cheese.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
House duties.
House duties.
Next week I will finish the many windows in my villa, woohoow, I really have alot of windows. Today I washed more windows then yesterday, I figured, it's now or never, lol! I finished the livingroom and did the windows in the kitchen plus the shower. In total I finished 29 windows, still have 20 windows to go. It felt good though to have them clean, it just has to be done. I can remember when I still lived in Nijverdal, the house where I lived before I went to Canada. That house had three floors, that was much more work to clean. The appartment where I live now is much smaller and is just one floor. It's cozy and comfy, though small but I don't mind. I see it as a challenge to make such small appartment cozy and comfy.
Last week I went out to another city, Zwolle, I really had a good time exploring the place and searching for sightseeings. I do such things so now and then, exploring another city or village. Would love to go every weekend to visit a city in Holland, though it's sometimes quit expensive aswell. The train trip has to be payed aswell ofcource. I'm cheap when I go on such trips, taking food with me, and I really can look at things without buying it. I enjoy myself anyway with the things I see around me. This weekend I had other (house) duties, next week my Aunt is expecting me, I promised her. And probably then the next week I will go out and explore again. Looking forward to it.
Next week I will finish the many windows in my villa, woohoow, I really have alot of windows. Today I washed more windows then yesterday, I figured, it's now or never, lol! I finished the livingroom and did the windows in the kitchen plus the shower. In total I finished 29 windows, still have 20 windows to go. It felt good though to have them clean, it just has to be done. I can remember when I still lived in Nijverdal, the house where I lived before I went to Canada. That house had three floors, that was much more work to clean. The appartment where I live now is much smaller and is just one floor. It's cozy and comfy, though small but I don't mind. I see it as a challenge to make such small appartment cozy and comfy.
Last week I went out to another city, Zwolle, I really had a good time exploring the place and searching for sightseeings. I do such things so now and then, exploring another city or village. Would love to go every weekend to visit a city in Holland, though it's sometimes quit expensive aswell. The train trip has to be payed aswell ofcource. I'm cheap when I go on such trips, taking food with me, and I really can look at things without buying it. I enjoy myself anyway with the things I see around me. This weekend I had other (house) duties, next week my Aunt is expecting me, I promised her. And probably then the next week I will go out and explore again. Looking forward to it.
Friday, March 1, 2013
The weekend!
The weekend!
I'm just liking more and more the days of that I have, usually I said that I rather work then having these days off. I guess I found my certain day rhythm, or week rhythm. It's nice like this, I love my job and I love my days off. I hope the amount of work continues, we need more customers, more orders. It's crisis in Holland, mostly everyone is suffering from the less earnings here. But anyway, life continues, even when your poor or rich. Today I did half of the windows in the living room, oh the amount of windows I have. The soap water was half dark, so, I guess it was needed. Tomorrow the last part of the windows in the living room. Next week I want to be done with these windows, that's my goal.
In the afternoon I did the first part of the groceries, some major cooking is on my list today for the weekend. Tonight I made roti, with green beans, sausage and potatoes, some herbs were included aswell, tasted great! Tomorrow zucchini is on my list, with potatoes and herbs. My Aunt called today, it's been a while since we spoke to each other, atleast two weeks it was. She told me that Dad's grave is half done, the cross is there, the new stone with the new text will be placed next week. Ofcource I will have a look next week. Time is passing by so fast. Aunt told me aswell that I have to pay a amount of money once a year for 'grave-rights,'
You can see it it as a certain kind of hiring, hiring the grave or the spot where, (in this case), my Mom and Dad are laying. It's the law, and it is as it is. Though it's all new to me, I never heard of it, but okay. After my Mom and Dad's grave is done the bills will come aswell, paying for the grave, the funeral, etc, etc. My Dad had a life insurance, only, I hope Dad had a 'good' life insurance. Funerals are expensive, I'm just a bit concerned about who and how much there has to be payed. Next week I will visit my Aunt, probably then I will get to hear it. How do I feel at the moment after my Dad has passed away? I'm actually calm about it, and it really surprises me. Kinda a awkwardd feeling aswell.
I thought I would be teared apart, having a break down, lost and sad. But I'm okay and feel calm, is it a gift from above? A gift from my Dad? Who knows, I have this kinda bad feeling aswell when I write or talk about it, should I not feel sad? Or shoud I not feel bittered now my Dad has passed away? Ofcource I miss him and ofcource I still miss him, I still have sometimes that feeling that I have to visit him, when I think of my Dad it feels weird. Everything went so fast since Dad got sick, within two weeks he was gone. And here I am now, continuing my life, I'm calm, I'm relaxed, though sometimes thinking of him. I will never forget him, Dad will be always with me, where ever I go.
I'm just liking more and more the days of that I have, usually I said that I rather work then having these days off. I guess I found my certain day rhythm, or week rhythm. It's nice like this, I love my job and I love my days off. I hope the amount of work continues, we need more customers, more orders. It's crisis in Holland, mostly everyone is suffering from the less earnings here. But anyway, life continues, even when your poor or rich. Today I did half of the windows in the living room, oh the amount of windows I have. The soap water was half dark, so, I guess it was needed. Tomorrow the last part of the windows in the living room. Next week I want to be done with these windows, that's my goal.
In the afternoon I did the first part of the groceries, some major cooking is on my list today for the weekend. Tonight I made roti, with green beans, sausage and potatoes, some herbs were included aswell, tasted great! Tomorrow zucchini is on my list, with potatoes and herbs. My Aunt called today, it's been a while since we spoke to each other, atleast two weeks it was. She told me that Dad's grave is half done, the cross is there, the new stone with the new text will be placed next week. Ofcource I will have a look next week. Time is passing by so fast. Aunt told me aswell that I have to pay a amount of money once a year for 'grave-rights,'
You can see it it as a certain kind of hiring, hiring the grave or the spot where, (in this case), my Mom and Dad are laying. It's the law, and it is as it is. Though it's all new to me, I never heard of it, but okay. After my Mom and Dad's grave is done the bills will come aswell, paying for the grave, the funeral, etc, etc. My Dad had a life insurance, only, I hope Dad had a 'good' life insurance. Funerals are expensive, I'm just a bit concerned about who and how much there has to be payed. Next week I will visit my Aunt, probably then I will get to hear it. How do I feel at the moment after my Dad has passed away? I'm actually calm about it, and it really surprises me. Kinda a awkwardd feeling aswell.
I thought I would be teared apart, having a break down, lost and sad. But I'm okay and feel calm, is it a gift from above? A gift from my Dad? Who knows, I have this kinda bad feeling aswell when I write or talk about it, should I not feel sad? Or shoud I not feel bittered now my Dad has passed away? Ofcource I miss him and ofcource I still miss him, I still have sometimes that feeling that I have to visit him, when I think of my Dad it feels weird. Everything went so fast since Dad got sick, within two weeks he was gone. And here I am now, continuing my life, I'm calm, I'm relaxed, though sometimes thinking of him. I will never forget him, Dad will be always with me, where ever I go.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
A little cold...
A little cold...
A sore troath isn't fun, though I stood up with it this morning. As the day went on the sore troath went a bit less. I was a fresh day aswell, a few doors were open too at work. After the weekend we get higher temperatures and more sunshine, they forspelled 8 or more degrees, above zero ofcource. Work was fun, but aswell exhausting. It's still not that busy at work, though we should not complain. I have seen factories who have it worse then us. We still have something to do, but please let more orders come.
This weekend I won't go out that much, I'm planning to some house holdings, washing some windows is on the schedule. Many windows in my house, I won't do them all at once. Tomorrow and Saturday the first half of the house, next week the other half. And ofcource cooking is on my schedule, I'm still searching for some nice recipes. It's fun to search them, then buy the ingredients, and then the cooking. Ofcource hoping for a good and tasty result.
A sore troath isn't fun, though I stood up with it this morning. As the day went on the sore troath went a bit less. I was a fresh day aswell, a few doors were open too at work. After the weekend we get higher temperatures and more sunshine, they forspelled 8 or more degrees, above zero ofcource. Work was fun, but aswell exhausting. It's still not that busy at work, though we should not complain. I have seen factories who have it worse then us. We still have something to do, but please let more orders come.
This weekend I won't go out that much, I'm planning to some house holdings, washing some windows is on the schedule. Many windows in my house, I won't do them all at once. Tomorrow and Saturday the first half of the house, next week the other half. And ofcource cooking is on my schedule, I'm still searching for some nice recipes. It's fun to search them, then buy the ingredients, and then the cooking. Ofcource hoping for a good and tasty result.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Finally!
Finally!
I'm officially a volunteer now, I will be visiting people with little social contacts, people who would like to do something, but are not able to do such. That can be anything, a bicycle ride, a walk, having a coffee or just a chat, just anything. Usually these people are elderly people, but not all of them. Social contacts are very important and can enrich your life. I might be starting in a few weeks, I signed up for the weekends. Little bit nerves here cause it's something I never did, but that will change!
I had a visitor today, the visit was planned, the visitor was someone from Humanitas who runs the above 'project.' The lady wanted to know more about me, what my hobbies are, and what kinda work I do, I had to tell aswell why I was interested in this project. She asked me several questions, just to get to know what kinda person I am. It's handy to know when I get picked out of the several other visitor volunteers, to visit a elderly or a certain person. Yeah, this project has a group of volunteer visitors and there's one leading lady.
She's gonna pick out wich volunteer is going to visit a certain person. The visit this afternoon was good, she's a nice lady. This volunteer work is something I never did, so I guess it will feel a bit awkward the first two times. It's nice though to help other people out, who need socializing, and who want to get out more. Hmm, where did I hear that before, right? I know someone who wants to get out more and needs some more socializing, me! LOL! And here I am, helping those people out filling their needs.
It will be good for me aswell just as good as for the people who I'm going to visit, with the first visit the leading lady will come too, 'to break the ice,' as she told me. I will follow a cursus aswell first in this project, together with the other visitor volunteer we will learn in a few lessons how to get along with people. Yeah, I will be visiting a stranger, someone who I never visited before. Just a bit of a awkward feeling. Though I'm looking forward to it, I think I will start within two weeks or so. I'm ready.
Further this WWednesday was okay, I rested well. I brought again a few bags full of Dad's belongings to the second hand store, I think one or two more bags and then I'm done. I visited a friend aswell today cause she had a operation, Janine. I bought her a nice plant, she liked it. It was a fun and interesting day. I have no plans for the weekend yet, oh, wait, yes I have actually, 1) some major cooking and 2) making a start with washing windows.
I'm officially a volunteer now, I will be visiting people with little social contacts, people who would like to do something, but are not able to do such. That can be anything, a bicycle ride, a walk, having a coffee or just a chat, just anything. Usually these people are elderly people, but not all of them. Social contacts are very important and can enrich your life. I might be starting in a few weeks, I signed up for the weekends. Little bit nerves here cause it's something I never did, but that will change!
I had a visitor today, the visit was planned, the visitor was someone from Humanitas who runs the above 'project.' The lady wanted to know more about me, what my hobbies are, and what kinda work I do, I had to tell aswell why I was interested in this project. She asked me several questions, just to get to know what kinda person I am. It's handy to know when I get picked out of the several other visitor volunteers, to visit a elderly or a certain person. Yeah, this project has a group of volunteer visitors and there's one leading lady.
She's gonna pick out wich volunteer is going to visit a certain person. The visit this afternoon was good, she's a nice lady. This volunteer work is something I never did, so I guess it will feel a bit awkward the first two times. It's nice though to help other people out, who need socializing, and who want to get out more. Hmm, where did I hear that before, right? I know someone who wants to get out more and needs some more socializing, me! LOL! And here I am, helping those people out filling their needs.
It will be good for me aswell just as good as for the people who I'm going to visit, with the first visit the leading lady will come too, 'to break the ice,' as she told me. I will follow a cursus aswell first in this project, together with the other visitor volunteer we will learn in a few lessons how to get along with people. Yeah, I will be visiting a stranger, someone who I never visited before. Just a bit of a awkward feeling. Though I'm looking forward to it, I think I will start within two weeks or so. I'm ready.
Further this WWednesday was okay, I rested well. I brought again a few bags full of Dad's belongings to the second hand store, I think one or two more bags and then I'm done. I visited a friend aswell today cause she had a operation, Janine. I bought her a nice plant, she liked it. It was a fun and interesting day. I have no plans for the weekend yet, oh, wait, yes I have actually, 1) some major cooking and 2) making a start with washing windows.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Hyperventilation?
Hyperventilation?
Yeah, I could have that, it would make sense aswell. Sometimes a little pressure on my chest, sometimes a stabbing pain in my chest. Though, I'm not short breathed, but I sigh alot, specially after a effort. I have to take a deep breath then, and then I'm good. Ofcource I have to count my sick thyroid on that aswell, my sick thyroid does give less energy too. I'm fine with that, I have that symptom from lack of energy that long that I'm really used to it. I know what I can do and how much, I know what I'm able of. I know when I need rest and when I can give a 100%. But the 'maybe' hyperventilation is new to me, I would like to know a bit more about it. Though it doesn't bother me or stop me from doing things, hyperventilation comes from nerves and worries aswell, so yeah.
Dad's passing away gave a deep impact too, I'm not forgetting that. I will search and investigate a bit about hyperventilation on the net, just that I'm curious. Maybe some breathing exercises can help me aswell, who knows. Though I'm not in a terrible pain, I'm don't have the feeling that I'm gonna faint or worse die. I can do the things I want to do, like I usually do. I'm not worried. Work was fun today, I was on my own section, lol. Though I'm looking forward to tomorrow aswell, rest. I need it after two days of work. I really couldn't work a full week, I don't have to either. It's all I can do, and I'm perfectly fine with that. Oh, I think Spring is around the corner, cause I hear birds singing in the morning, Won't be long now!
Yeah, I could have that, it would make sense aswell. Sometimes a little pressure on my chest, sometimes a stabbing pain in my chest. Though, I'm not short breathed, but I sigh alot, specially after a effort. I have to take a deep breath then, and then I'm good. Ofcource I have to count my sick thyroid on that aswell, my sick thyroid does give less energy too. I'm fine with that, I have that symptom from lack of energy that long that I'm really used to it. I know what I can do and how much, I know what I'm able of. I know when I need rest and when I can give a 100%. But the 'maybe' hyperventilation is new to me, I would like to know a bit more about it. Though it doesn't bother me or stop me from doing things, hyperventilation comes from nerves and worries aswell, so yeah.
Dad's passing away gave a deep impact too, I'm not forgetting that. I will search and investigate a bit about hyperventilation on the net, just that I'm curious. Maybe some breathing exercises can help me aswell, who knows. Though I'm not in a terrible pain, I'm don't have the feeling that I'm gonna faint or worse die. I can do the things I want to do, like I usually do. I'm not worried. Work was fun today, I was on my own section, lol. Though I'm looking forward to tomorrow aswell, rest. I need it after two days of work. I really couldn't work a full week, I don't have to either. It's all I can do, and I'm perfectly fine with that. Oh, I think Spring is around the corner, cause I hear birds singing in the morning, Won't be long now!
Monday, February 25, 2013
Monday, Monday!
Monday, Monday!
Almost all the snow what felt yesterday, (and that was alot) was gone this morning. The rain came in the afternoon and the rest of the snow disappeared. I must say, I rather had snow then the rain. The rain pored down when I got back from work. I didn't feel much for going to the free dinner tonight, so, I didn't went. I was tired and didn't feel much for going trough the rain again. It felt a bit awkward not to go, usually I always go to the free dinner on Monday. Though I surely didn't miss the rush before going to the dinner. Wash, put other clothes on, laying things ready for tomorrow's work and preparing lunch for tomorrow's work.
Rushing, hasting and running, lol. The free dinner starts at 6:00 and ends at 7:00, I will be home at 7:30 then. I enjoyed the rest this evening, I went early to bed though, cause AI felt sleepy and tired. Today's work went fine, again I worked on another section, same section as last week. A bit boring, but hey, it's work aswell. In the late afternoon a machine broke down, and they sent my back to my own section, my favorite section, lol. It was all good! Let's see what tomorrow's work brings.
Almost all the snow what felt yesterday, (and that was alot) was gone this morning. The rain came in the afternoon and the rest of the snow disappeared. I must say, I rather had snow then the rain. The rain pored down when I got back from work. I didn't feel much for going to the free dinner tonight, so, I didn't went. I was tired and didn't feel much for going trough the rain again. It felt a bit awkward not to go, usually I always go to the free dinner on Monday. Though I surely didn't miss the rush before going to the dinner. Wash, put other clothes on, laying things ready for tomorrow's work and preparing lunch for tomorrow's work.
Rushing, hasting and running, lol. The free dinner starts at 6:00 and ends at 7:00, I will be home at 7:30 then. I enjoyed the rest this evening, I went early to bed though, cause AI felt sleepy and tired. Today's work went fine, again I worked on another section, same section as last week. A bit boring, but hey, it's work aswell. In the late afternoon a machine broke down, and they sent my back to my own section, my favorite section, lol. It was all good! Let's see what tomorrow's work brings.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Surprised at the amount of snow...
Surprised at the amount of snow...
I woke up this morning after a good sleep, peeked trough the sunscreen and saw nothing but white. Wow, it really snowed again, I thought it wouldn't be much but it was quit alot. It actually continued snowing the whole day. I think it's been quit a while since we had so much snow, last year we had alot too, but that was just a week or two. As you know I rest on Sundays, so this day was not much different. I ironed, showered, and made dinner. I usually take my time when I cook on Sundays, there's plenty of time anyway. I usually buy packages, these packages includes mostly a little bag of rice, a mix for the sauce (some kind of herb powder) and a mix for marinating for the meat. On the front of the package it says what you have to add more, that can be any kind of veggies, olive or sunflower oil and the kinda meat you need. There are several kinda packages, I already used every kinda package.
It learned me more about cooking, I think next week I will take a step higher with my cooking skills. I'm done with these packages. I also pick sometimes recipes from magazines or from online cooking sites. Though I pick the easy ones, plus the ones I don't have to use a oven for, lol. Cause I don't have oven. I love cooking, I'm already excited what to cook next weekend, lol. Cooking can be expensive aswell, so I look for budget cooking. The more ingredients the more it will cost, so lessen the ingredients. Tomorrow's Monday, a working week is coming up again. I feel better, better then last week with the 'all of a sudden' nerves and worries. What happened? I don't know,like I said a few days ago, sometimes I worry and sometimes I don't. Sometimes I can worry about a something and then all of a sudden the worries disappear. It's magic! I'm such a awkward person............... sometimes, LOL!
I woke up this morning after a good sleep, peeked trough the sunscreen and saw nothing but white. Wow, it really snowed again, I thought it wouldn't be much but it was quit alot. It actually continued snowing the whole day. I think it's been quit a while since we had so much snow, last year we had alot too, but that was just a week or two. As you know I rest on Sundays, so this day was not much different. I ironed, showered, and made dinner. I usually take my time when I cook on Sundays, there's plenty of time anyway. I usually buy packages, these packages includes mostly a little bag of rice, a mix for the sauce (some kind of herb powder) and a mix for marinating for the meat. On the front of the package it says what you have to add more, that can be any kind of veggies, olive or sunflower oil and the kinda meat you need. There are several kinda packages, I already used every kinda package.
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| One of the packages I used, one of my favorites this one. |
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Wanderlust!
Wanderlust!
It was cold and windy, and they for spelled snow today, though I decided already yesterday that I will go out. Zwolle is the city where I wanted to go to, Zwolle is the capital city of the province of Overijssel just like Almelo and Nijverdal. It lays 120 kilometres northeast of Amsterdam, and it has about 120,000 citizens. Usually I pick the train what passes Nijverdal, but in Nijverdal they are building a huge tunnel, so that train has delays until March/April from this year. So, I had to take another route, that was quit easy. Though the trip would be 30 minutes longer, but I didn't mind. Plenty of time today. I left at 10:45 and walked towards the train station, it's a short 15 minute walk. The train left at 11:22, count a hour on that and I arrived in Zwolle at 12:22.
It was the first time I travelled with this train, this train was different, smaller and slower. The route was different too, I liked it. I like seeing different places, I enjoyed it. Arrived in Zwolle I recognized the train station from the early days, it's been more then four or maybe even five years since I was here. In my old village Nijverdal I travelled always to Zwolle, (by train) and from there I travelled almost everywhere, to every big city or village in Holland. Zwolle has a good connection, with many trains going to almost every direction in Holland. Nowadays I use Almelo for that. Almelo is not as big as Zwolle but that's alright. Even though it was a long time I was here, I knew precisely almost every road. Though I walked aswell different roads, I wandered around and saw many nice sight seeings.
I had a nice afternoon, took many pictures, and saw many nice new things around me. There was the market, the nice old and aswell new buildings. There was the nice little harbor and the churches. There were aswell some Jehovah witnesses, they stopped me and started talking with me. First they came up to me with the question, "May I ask you something?
I didn't know first what they wanted, until they came up with the word God and Jesus. I think their age was about 25 or 28 something, what they were telling me was here and there quit interesting. My story about my Dad's passing came along aswell, I told them that I had some kinda peace with it that my Dad passed away, I told aswell about how I felt at the funeral, that it was awkward but mostly sad.
But it seemed they weren't that much interested in that, They were more interested in their own story. At the end of their story they handed me a flyer, and they invited me to visit one day 'this' church in Zwolle, "Sure," I told them, I shook their hands and walked further, lol. They were nice guys, but I don't know, they had something fake over them aswell. In my eyes they were just a bit to much of a Christian, lol. I made a end of this visit to Zwolle by buying my last few of groceries there. I walked many miles this day and I really could feel my legs. At the train station in Zwolle I helped a black man out, he had to go to Almelo too, just like me. But he had no clue where to go. I told him to stay with me, cause I was going where he had to go. Fun thing was that he liked it to talk in English, I loved it.
I loved to chat with him a bit in English, he was a nice guy. Once when we arrived in Almelo, he had to take the bus, so, I walked with him towards the busses, cause again, he hadn't had a clue where to go. He shook my hand and thanked me afterwards, good feeling. I felt exhausted once at home, but it was so worth it. I cooked dinner, and after that I sat down and didn't get up, lol. Tomorrow will be a resting day for sure, it's needed. The pain and pressure in my chest I felt today too, but it was handable, I think I know what it is, and that gives a bit of a relief.
It was cold and windy, and they for spelled snow today, though I decided already yesterday that I will go out. Zwolle is the city where I wanted to go to, Zwolle is the capital city of the province of Overijssel just like Almelo and Nijverdal. It lays 120 kilometres northeast of Amsterdam, and it has about 120,000 citizens. Usually I pick the train what passes Nijverdal, but in Nijverdal they are building a huge tunnel, so that train has delays until March/April from this year. So, I had to take another route, that was quit easy. Though the trip would be 30 minutes longer, but I didn't mind. Plenty of time today. I left at 10:45 and walked towards the train station, it's a short 15 minute walk. The train left at 11:22, count a hour on that and I arrived in Zwolle at 12:22.
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| Train station in Almelo, no this wasn't the train to Zwolle, this huge train was going to The Hague. |
It was the first time I travelled with this train, this train was different, smaller and slower. The route was different too, I liked it. I like seeing different places, I enjoyed it. Arrived in Zwolle I recognized the train station from the early days, it's been more then four or maybe even five years since I was here. In my old village Nijverdal I travelled always to Zwolle, (by train) and from there I travelled almost everywhere, to every big city or village in Holland. Zwolle has a good connection, with many trains going to almost every direction in Holland. Nowadays I use Almelo for that. Almelo is not as big as Zwolle but that's alright. Even though it was a long time I was here, I knew precisely almost every road. Though I walked aswell different roads, I wandered around and saw many nice sight seeings.
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| I was surprised at the many statues in Zwolle. |
I didn't know first what they wanted, until they came up with the word God and Jesus. I think their age was about 25 or 28 something, what they were telling me was here and there quit interesting. My story about my Dad's passing came along aswell, I told them that I had some kinda peace with it that my Dad passed away, I told aswell about how I felt at the funeral, that it was awkward but mostly sad.
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| Coffee in a shop to warm me up! |
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| A nice cat in the window, there were more, but this one cathed my eye. |
Friday, February 22, 2013
Reach and stretch.
Reach and stretch.
I think I know what's wrong with my chest, I have sometimes a certain chest pain, with little stabs in my chest and I have a little short breath. The pain comes and goes, it feels a bit like my muscles there are stuck kinda. Everytime I have to sneeze, it feels like a nail hits me in my chest, not that fun. I worry so now and then, actually I must say I worry alot. Though the worries come and go, I can worry about little things for a few days, then all of a sudden it all turns around and feel calmer and relieved, and I'm asking myself, "Why on earth did I worry about that?" The last few days I worried about my trip to Atlanta, today it all turned around, and thought to myself, "Why on earth would I worry about something, what isn't even necessary?" Or, "Why worry? The trip is yet so far away?"
These sometimes worries can give damages on my health and body, that's why these chest pains, and sometimes other pains. Although the pains are not that painfull, it's sometimes annoying, sometimes it scares me aswell. So yeah, time to act, time to work on those worries and pains. Just like I wrote yesterday, a mindfullness cursus will do me good, next week I will sign in. I have been looking online too for exercises to make my chest muscle a bit smoother, or how you call it. Less stressful/painfull. I will have to do some relaxing exercises, just to learn to relax again and to focus more on my body. Instead of focusing on worries. The exercises are easy and fun to do, I will start tomorrow, Hope I can hold on to it.
I even though about following yoga lessons are a step higher, fitness lessons. But I don't want to do many things at the same time, let's see what these exercises do, plus the mindfullness cursus. Maybe my Doctor can help out aswell, these sometimes nerves and worries can really get a grip on your body. It's so strong. Today I relaxed and took it easy, cause tomorrow I will be out to another (close by) city. I bought my groceries and I heard some good news aswell. This upcoming Monday 'we' will get a new heater in our flat, meaning I could not use my heater for two or three days working, and no hot water.I can pick up a electric heater Monday, the housing corporation took care of that. Though it wasn't necessary, I called today and they told me that I won't have heating only on Monday.
Monday, they fix they fix the new heater. I will be working on Monday so I don't mind the 'no' heat, when I come back from work the new heater is fixed and works. So, all good, and I don't need a extra electric heater. Thursday they gonna fix the hot water, well, I can live with that. All is good, less worries, lol!
I think I know what's wrong with my chest, I have sometimes a certain chest pain, with little stabs in my chest and I have a little short breath. The pain comes and goes, it feels a bit like my muscles there are stuck kinda. Everytime I have to sneeze, it feels like a nail hits me in my chest, not that fun. I worry so now and then, actually I must say I worry alot. Though the worries come and go, I can worry about little things for a few days, then all of a sudden it all turns around and feel calmer and relieved, and I'm asking myself, "Why on earth did I worry about that?" The last few days I worried about my trip to Atlanta, today it all turned around, and thought to myself, "Why on earth would I worry about something, what isn't even necessary?" Or, "Why worry? The trip is yet so far away?"
These sometimes worries can give damages on my health and body, that's why these chest pains, and sometimes other pains. Although the pains are not that painfull, it's sometimes annoying, sometimes it scares me aswell. So yeah, time to act, time to work on those worries and pains. Just like I wrote yesterday, a mindfullness cursus will do me good, next week I will sign in. I have been looking online too for exercises to make my chest muscle a bit smoother, or how you call it. Less stressful/painfull. I will have to do some relaxing exercises, just to learn to relax again and to focus more on my body. Instead of focusing on worries. The exercises are easy and fun to do, I will start tomorrow, Hope I can hold on to it.
I even though about following yoga lessons are a step higher, fitness lessons. But I don't want to do many things at the same time, let's see what these exercises do, plus the mindfullness cursus. Maybe my Doctor can help out aswell, these sometimes nerves and worries can really get a grip on your body. It's so strong. Today I relaxed and took it easy, cause tomorrow I will be out to another (close by) city. I bought my groceries and I heard some good news aswell. This upcoming Monday 'we' will get a new heater in our flat, meaning I could not use my heater for two or three days working, and no hot water.I can pick up a electric heater Monday, the housing corporation took care of that. Though it wasn't necessary, I called today and they told me that I won't have heating only on Monday.
Monday, they fix they fix the new heater. I will be working on Monday so I don't mind the 'no' heat, when I come back from work the new heater is fixed and works. So, all good, and I don't need a extra electric heater. Thursday they gonna fix the hot water, well, I can live with that. All is good, less worries, lol!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Mindfullness!
Mindfullness!
I'm thinking of starting a cursus mind fullness, I actually had contact already with the lady who gives this cursus a few weeks ago, a week after my Dad passed away. I already was interested in this cursus way before my Dad passed away, a week after Dad's funeral I searched for contact with the lady who gives this cursus trough a email. I also told her about my Dad's passing in the mail. She told me that it's not a good idea to start with the cursus yet cause of my Dad's passing. She thought it wasn't a good idea to start this cursus when I was still mourning and grieving, I agreed but not a 100%. The lady told me to wait four or five weeks, or even longer. I waited two weeks, I'm almost sure that tomorrow I will try to get contact with the lady once again.
Yes, I'm still grieving and mourning, but I'm much calmer and relaxed about it, I can't really explain how I feel at the moment, I'm okay. Ofcource I feel sadness that my Dad passed away, ofcource I miss him too, he doesn't deserved this. But, I can aswell say that he had a good life, though the way he lived the last thirteen years since 'Mom' passed away weren't that pleasant. He is happy at the moment, he's with Mom, he's not suffering anymore, the missing of his "all" is over. That's the way I think about it now, 'that' gives me a some kinda reliefed feeling. The decision to start with the cursus mind fullness is because my worries are becoming annoying, almost a problem too.
It's time to work on those worries. These worries are mostly just worries for nothing. These 'nonsense' worries as I call them are becoming a pain aswell, I have sometimes pressure on my chest, a little stabbing pain, and a hurting stomach. They say nerves are always attacking your weak parts, that will be my stomach then. Though, it sounds that I'm a nerves and stress full wreck now, but I'm not! The sometimes pain made me decide that I have to act, act in a play full and enjoyable way. The cursus mind fullness is enjoyable, it will learn me to think differently, learning to focus on other things, etc, etc. My thinking will become easier, and my worries less. The cursus sounds interesting aswell, I like it, I will learn from it. Let's see what the lady will say tomorrow.
Work went well as always today, again a other section but okay, I didn't mind. Working on a other section means aswell working with other fellow workers, we have some foreigners aswell at work, actually alot. There fun and interesting, it's interesting to hear from other cultures. We have Turkish people, Yugoslavian people and ofcource Dutch people, lol. It's a nice mixture. Plans for the weekend? Uhm, yes and no, it depends on the weather. Would love to go to another city (Zwolle) on Saturday, but the weather forecast for spelled grey weather and perhaps snow, I'm so done with this cold weather. This Winter season is taking to long it seems! But Dutch weather can always change, so I will see what it brings Saturday.
I'm thinking of starting a cursus mind fullness, I actually had contact already with the lady who gives this cursus a few weeks ago, a week after my Dad passed away. I already was interested in this cursus way before my Dad passed away, a week after Dad's funeral I searched for contact with the lady who gives this cursus trough a email. I also told her about my Dad's passing in the mail. She told me that it's not a good idea to start with the cursus yet cause of my Dad's passing. She thought it wasn't a good idea to start this cursus when I was still mourning and grieving, I agreed but not a 100%. The lady told me to wait four or five weeks, or even longer. I waited two weeks, I'm almost sure that tomorrow I will try to get contact with the lady once again.
Yes, I'm still grieving and mourning, but I'm much calmer and relaxed about it, I can't really explain how I feel at the moment, I'm okay. Ofcource I feel sadness that my Dad passed away, ofcource I miss him too, he doesn't deserved this. But, I can aswell say that he had a good life, though the way he lived the last thirteen years since 'Mom' passed away weren't that pleasant. He is happy at the moment, he's with Mom, he's not suffering anymore, the missing of his "all" is over. That's the way I think about it now, 'that' gives me a some kinda reliefed feeling. The decision to start with the cursus mind fullness is because my worries are becoming annoying, almost a problem too.
It's time to work on those worries. These worries are mostly just worries for nothing. These 'nonsense' worries as I call them are becoming a pain aswell, I have sometimes pressure on my chest, a little stabbing pain, and a hurting stomach. They say nerves are always attacking your weak parts, that will be my stomach then. Though, it sounds that I'm a nerves and stress full wreck now, but I'm not! The sometimes pain made me decide that I have to act, act in a play full and enjoyable way. The cursus mind fullness is enjoyable, it will learn me to think differently, learning to focus on other things, etc, etc. My thinking will become easier, and my worries less. The cursus sounds interesting aswell, I like it, I will learn from it. Let's see what the lady will say tomorrow.
Work went well as always today, again a other section but okay, I didn't mind. Working on a other section means aswell working with other fellow workers, we have some foreigners aswell at work, actually alot. There fun and interesting, it's interesting to hear from other cultures. We have Turkish people, Yugoslavian people and ofcource Dutch people, lol. It's a nice mixture. Plans for the weekend? Uhm, yes and no, it depends on the weather. Would love to go to another city (Zwolle) on Saturday, but the weather forecast for spelled grey weather and perhaps snow, I'm so done with this cold weather. This Winter season is taking to long it seems! But Dutch weather can always change, so I will see what it brings Saturday.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
A day well rested!
A day well rested!
Every Wednesday I got to the 'free dinner,' just like on Monday's and Thursday's. But today I didn't go, I was tired, and felt like a nice afternoon of quietness and being on my own. I slept well last night, got up and took it easy. Around 11:00 I decided to do a few things what needed to be done, I packed two bags full with Dad's old belongings and went on my way to the second hand store. I decided already a few days ago to bring Dad's old belongings to the second hand store, cause then everyone who's buying it can enjoy it, rather then giving it away to some of my greedy friends. So yeah, good decision! One of the two bags was quit heavy and big, I putted it on my steering wheel while riding my bike. It went fine. The second hand store was again happy with it, I think I still have two or three bags full. After the second hand store I went straight to the taxes office, I think I'm a well known guest there now, lol.
There was again a change in my income, and that's why I had to inform taxes about this change. I get benefit's from taxes cause my income is not high enough, just because I'm not working a 100% fully. I work only three days in the week. My boss pays me only for these three days, the other two days I get payed out from Social Services. I have the right on those benefits, I get housing benefits and health benefit. If there's a change in my income then the height's of those benefits will change too. Simple, right? I wasn't even nervous to go, what I usually was in the beginning, now it's just easy. They don't mind if you come to often. Next address I went to was the housing corporation, I needed to know of our new heater. We are getting a new boiler/heater or something, I say 'we.' Cause 'we' in the flat have a central heating, and this central heating is kinda old and needs to be replaced.
This replacement will take place upcoming Monday until Thursday, meaning no hot water and no heater for at least three days. They offered us a electric little heater, though I work on the 25th, so I would like to know where and when I can get that electric heater. Housing corporation told me to contact the 'house master,' that's a guy who controls this flat in a certain way. If there's a problem 'he' will fix it or arrange it. He knows about this new heater aswell, so, I have to contact him and ask him if I can get that electric little heater sooner. Cause I will be working the 25th until 4:30, it might be then that these 'heaters' are gone. I can do without the warm water, but I like some heat when I get back from work. I will contact him upcoming Friday.
Every Wednesday I got to the 'free dinner,' just like on Monday's and Thursday's. But today I didn't go, I was tired, and felt like a nice afternoon of quietness and being on my own. I slept well last night, got up and took it easy. Around 11:00 I decided to do a few things what needed to be done, I packed two bags full with Dad's old belongings and went on my way to the second hand store. I decided already a few days ago to bring Dad's old belongings to the second hand store, cause then everyone who's buying it can enjoy it, rather then giving it away to some of my greedy friends. So yeah, good decision! One of the two bags was quit heavy and big, I putted it on my steering wheel while riding my bike. It went fine. The second hand store was again happy with it, I think I still have two or three bags full. After the second hand store I went straight to the taxes office, I think I'm a well known guest there now, lol.
There was again a change in my income, and that's why I had to inform taxes about this change. I get benefit's from taxes cause my income is not high enough, just because I'm not working a 100% fully. I work only three days in the week. My boss pays me only for these three days, the other two days I get payed out from Social Services. I have the right on those benefits, I get housing benefits and health benefit. If there's a change in my income then the height's of those benefits will change too. Simple, right? I wasn't even nervous to go, what I usually was in the beginning, now it's just easy. They don't mind if you come to often. Next address I went to was the housing corporation, I needed to know of our new heater. We are getting a new boiler/heater or something, I say 'we.' Cause 'we' in the flat have a central heating, and this central heating is kinda old and needs to be replaced.
This replacement will take place upcoming Monday until Thursday, meaning no hot water and no heater for at least three days. They offered us a electric little heater, though I work on the 25th, so I would like to know where and when I can get that electric heater. Housing corporation told me to contact the 'house master,' that's a guy who controls this flat in a certain way. If there's a problem 'he' will fix it or arrange it. He knows about this new heater aswell, so, I have to contact him and ask him if I can get that electric little heater sooner. Cause I will be working the 25th until 4:30, it might be then that these 'heaters' are gone. I can do without the warm water, but I like some heat when I get back from work. I will contact him upcoming Friday.
Colder days next week...
Colder days next week...
No, I'm not worried, I'm not worried, I'm not worried! Okay............ I forgot to write a post yesterday, ugh! (Actually, I was to tired to write or didn't feel much for it, but don't tell anyone!) I had a good day at work, first half of the day I was working with this machine again, just like yesterday. That went fine, though it's kinda boring, I rather work where I usually work. Just making mats, build them, measure them and pack them. Just before lunch another fellow worker took over my work, so I could go to my own section again, yay! I actually don't mind what kinda work I do, I'm glad I have work and people around me. It's not only work we do together, we talk and have fun aswell. These fellow workers are people where I spent 24 hours with during a working week, and that's not nothing.
Next week, on Monday the 25th of February 'we' the people in our flat, will be getting a new central heating. That means from Monday until probably Thursday no heating in our houses, and no warm water. I don't mind that the 'no warm water,' though the 'no heating' sucks. Specially during Winter, couldn't they have waited until Spring or better Summer? Nope, the central heating really needed renovation. According to the letter we received we can pick up a little electric heater 'somewhere' in this flat, though I'm working on the 25th the whole day. I hope they still have heaters then, otherwise I will buy a second hand one. I need warmth! lol! I will go ask for some information by the housing corporation.
No, I'm not worried, I'm not worried, I'm not worried! Okay............ I forgot to write a post yesterday, ugh! (Actually, I was to tired to write or didn't feel much for it, but don't tell anyone!) I had a good day at work, first half of the day I was working with this machine again, just like yesterday. That went fine, though it's kinda boring, I rather work where I usually work. Just making mats, build them, measure them and pack them. Just before lunch another fellow worker took over my work, so I could go to my own section again, yay! I actually don't mind what kinda work I do, I'm glad I have work and people around me. It's not only work we do together, we talk and have fun aswell. These fellow workers are people where I spent 24 hours with during a working week, and that's not nothing.
Next week, on Monday the 25th of February 'we' the people in our flat, will be getting a new central heating. That means from Monday until probably Thursday no heating in our houses, and no warm water. I don't mind that the 'no warm water,' though the 'no heating' sucks. Specially during Winter, couldn't they have waited until Spring or better Summer? Nope, the central heating really needed renovation. According to the letter we received we can pick up a little electric heater 'somewhere' in this flat, though I'm working on the 25th the whole day. I hope they still have heaters then, otherwise I will buy a second hand one. I need warmth! lol! I will go ask for some information by the housing corporation.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Exhausting day...
Exhausting day...
Oh yeah, STOP these worries Sjon! They are not good for you, it tires you out, LOL! It sure does, and did today, it's not healthy either. Work today felt exhausting and it wasn't even heavy work, just alot. I worked on another section this Monday, I had to stick by a machine and had to pay attention. If I walked away for thirty sec, I would be screwed. This machine produced material for mats, I had to fill it with little pieces of nylon. Or little bushes nylon wrapped in plastic, these bushes had the size of a matchbox, not that big. Though it was quit a work, cause the machine runned constantly.
Worries? Yeah, last night I went to bed with these silly thoughts, I should slap myself to the face, lol. Worried about my trip to Atlanta, 'what if this and what if that,' there's absolute NO need to worry and yet I do. Nerves are normal I guess for this 'far away' trip, ofcource. But overdoing it, NO! Stop that! I have my days sometimes that I worry, and not only for this 'far away' trip. I could worry over just little things, things where I don't even have to worry about. I'm gonna work on these worries starting this coming week. It's gotta stop!
Perhaps talking to the person who I'm gonna meet (Jan) over this 'far away' trip will be good to. She's a good friend, and there's NO need to worry.
Oh yeah, STOP these worries Sjon! They are not good for you, it tires you out, LOL! It sure does, and did today, it's not healthy either. Work today felt exhausting and it wasn't even heavy work, just alot. I worked on another section this Monday, I had to stick by a machine and had to pay attention. If I walked away for thirty sec, I would be screwed. This machine produced material for mats, I had to fill it with little pieces of nylon. Or little bushes nylon wrapped in plastic, these bushes had the size of a matchbox, not that big. Though it was quit a work, cause the machine runned constantly.
Worries? Yeah, last night I went to bed with these silly thoughts, I should slap myself to the face, lol. Worried about my trip to Atlanta, 'what if this and what if that,' there's absolute NO need to worry and yet I do. Nerves are normal I guess for this 'far away' trip, ofcource. But overdoing it, NO! Stop that! I have my days sometimes that I worry, and not only for this 'far away' trip. I could worry over just little things, things where I don't even have to worry about. I'm gonna work on these worries starting this coming week. It's gotta stop!
Perhaps talking to the person who I'm gonna meet (Jan) over this 'far away' trip will be good to. She's a good friend, and there's NO need to worry.