Sleepy...

Sleepy...

I just woke up from a tiny nap, it's 9:18 pm and I decided to go early to bed tonight. I'm tired and feel sleepy, I felt a pressure on my chest today and wasn't feeling that good while working. I think it has been the nerves from Dad's sickness this week, no wait, I'm sure it was/is. Yeah, Dad is still sick, I will see him tomorrow perhaps. Perhaps cause I'm gonna visit on first hand Dad's new nurse. Just a meeting, a introduce meeting you can say. This meeting will be a bit later then usual in the afternoon, 3:15 pm I have to be there. I think I will have my dinner out of the house. Though not sure yet.

I hope the nerves will be less the following days, it's all in my hands. I have to, and I will. It's sure not healthy either, go out and do other things what distracts me might help. Relaxing and resting is a cure aswell. So yeah, early to bed tonight. Tomorrow morning I will get Ina for a visit, I told her that I probably have a few things for her. Dad's stuff what my Aunt brought me yesterday, might interests her. Ina has a low budget, so I thought of her first, she's a honest person, and a good friend.

Wednesday...

Wednesday...

A Wednesday well spend, yes. I had a good rest, the two naps were good and needed. In all, it was a nice day. The weather though is crazy lately, high temperatures with lots of rain in the morning and lots of wind. In the afternoon it went dryer. Today I had three visitors coming over, just like planned. First of my Aunt and Uncle came just before lunch, they planned the visit a bit earlier then planned, which was perfect. Aunt and Uncle brought some stuff from my Dad, stuff he doesn't need anymore or can't use anymore. It was quit alot, plates, glasses, cups, blankets and sheets and a few things more. It was quit a while since I saw my Aunt and Uncle, they look older. They were nice and informed me that Dad's health is going backwards, even Dad's Doctor wasn't positive about Dad's sickness.

My Aunt told me told me to prepair myself, cause it can be over soon. I already had that thought in my head when I heard last Monday that Dad is sick. I automatically prepaired myself then, I think everyone does when you hear such news. Though when my Aunt told me this morning about preparing it sounded that it can be over soon any moment, though you never know it with Dad. He seems weak but he's a strong man aswell. I must say that it gives a bit of a  rest aswell, I mean when you can prepair yourself the whole proces might go easier, easier then a passing away comes all of a sudden. I hope you know what I mean. I have double feelings at the moment... Ofcource I will miss Dad if he passes away, there will always be that missing feeling.

Though when I see or saw Dad suffering sometimes with his health I think it's a relief for him aswell, he has suffered enough, Dad had a  had a great life, it's okay for him IF he goes. With that thought in my mind it gives me a certain kinda relieved feeling aswell, yes' it's okay for him IF he goes. Though there's will be that 'missing' feeling aswell. That's why the double feelings, plus that whole process around it IF Dad passes away. What will happen with this? And what will happen with that? I will have to take care of this and that, the funeral, facing the Family again, etc, etc. I'm not that worried about it, but not looking forward to it either. I guess it will go as it goes, guess I will just float trough this whole process, IF it's time. 

The second visitor was from 'buddy wanted,' the Boss herself came by for a conversation, just like we both had planned. I'm not that happy with this project how it's going recently, that's why I asked for  this appointment. She was friendly and understood my point of vieuw,I'm not looking forward to his visits. I don't know, I just don't like my 'buddy' that much. He should help me with finding social contacts, he doesn't really come with ideas or tips, or helps me searching, specially the searching.  His visits aren't that help full, or maybe that's his strategy, it might be the way he works. I really don't want to make the 'searching' a obsession, or a 'must!' I MUST find something or otherwise I get lonely or whatever. 

That's not what I want, that's not the thought that will help me, I then might end up somewhere where I don't even want to be, just because I HAVE to find something. The conversation went well, we both decided that my 'buddy' will stop with the visits every Friday morning. And now? I came with two options, stop the whole project or a new 'buddy.' I decided to get a new 'buddy,' I figured that any help is welcome although I putted the searching on a lower level. I thought, 'when 'something'  comes my way, I will grab it.' Good thought and a good decision, right? The Boss came aswell with something, I have the chance to do volunteer work for Humanitas. It involves visiting people... I will tell you lots more about it when it's time.

No news.....Good news?

No news.....Good news? 

Haven't heard anything about my Dad since yesterday, I should inform actually but nervous to do that. I don't want to get worried about Dad's sickness, I know it's not right. No news, is good news my Mom always said, I will hear it from my Aunt tomorrow. My Aunt and Uncle will bring the stuff what Dad can't use anymore, they are mostly kitchen items and decorations, plus a few things more. Though I think about my Dad, thinking how he is feeling, or how is doing. Thinking about it makes me go quiet and worried. I wish I could stop worrying, it's like I worry about every little thing, even things what I don't even have to worry about. Worry less, they say, yeah well, it isn't that easy. To much worry is not healthy, I know.

Sometimes I feel it to that I worry to much, pressure on my chest, tiredness. All signs of to much worry. The last few months I have a pain on my chest, specially when I have to sneeze. When I have to sneeze a pain goes trough my chest, near my heart. Though my heart is in good health, I had tests last year, and my heart was perfect. 

(One worry less,lol.) I'm not going to a Doctor with 'that' pain, I been there before, twice already, they couldn't find anything. Blood pressure is also good, must be the nerves. It's oblivious that I worry to much. Well, not all the time. But, anyway, gonna keep it it in mind, "Worry less!"

This working day went well, though there's not much to do. It's rare for me that this is happening. I can't remember that this 'not much work' was also kast year. We really could use some more orders, perhaps new customers too. At our section are working six people, an that's alot when there's not much work. I should take a day off sometimes, if I would do that it would be my first day off, lol. I never ever have taken a day off, and I have 'free' days enough. Maybe it's the fact that I already have free days during the week that I work. I work on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday, the other days are free days.

Dad is sick......

Dad is sick......

Just had a phone call from my Aunt, she told me about the plans she had for the last part of the 'moving, aswell she told me that Dad is sick. Usually Dad is sitting in his lazy chair, but now he lays in bed.Even Dad's nurse messaged me today, to inform me about Dad's being sick. My first reaction was. 'Oh, okay, he's been sick before.' Later on I got worried, I don't know but, I just got that weird feeling. Worried that... I don't know, I just don't wanna say it.... But that 'feeling' I have is strong, call it a sign. I hope Dad will be feeling better soon, the nurse told me that Dad has a 'Upper respiratory tract infection,' he's getting antibiotic and other medicines, the Doctor is visiting him daily.

He is in good hands, that's for sure. The nurses there are watching him daily, (as always) 24 hours a day. That gives a calming feeling. The moving is going well, my Aunt informed me that the second hand store doesn't take Dad's little stuff, such as kitchen stuff, and other house items, blankets, clothing, glasses, mugs, you name it. My Aunt will bring all that little stuff here at my house, I can probably use it, otherwise, I know a few people who will be very happy with it. I can even sell it. The rest of the 'big' furniture goes to the second hand shop upcoming Saturday. Upcoming Friday late in the afternoon I will have a meeting with Dad's new nurse. Looking forward to that.

Goodbye snow...

Goodbye snow...

It rained the whole day this Sunday, the snow melted like crazy. Poor me, I kinda liked the snow, I rather have snow then rain. Though more rain is on his way this coming week, plus higher temperatures.  I really wish the snow could stay longer, but no. I loved this Sunday, I rested and calmed down. It was quit a week, Dad's moving and the booking of the trip to Atlanta. Yesterday was to busy, I felt my muscles in my arms and legs this morning. 

Though Dad's moving is still not done, this week is the last week. At Saturday the room has to be empty, I will probably get a call from my Aunt this week. It will be alright, I'm prepaired. I did already most of the things yesterday. I could do it on my own if I had to. Oh yeah, soon it's my birthday. 45 years this coming Friday, old man, lol! Maybe I will hold my birthday, I'm not sure yet, I will see.

Dad's moving.

Dad's moving. 

Dad's moving is going well, Dad has been moved from room 201 to room 114 last week. It is a smaller room, much smaller but cozy aswell. When I went to the place where he lives I had to find him first, I couldn't find room nr. 114. Dad went from the second floor to the first floor, the first floor is like a maze. A few nurses helped me out and guided me into his room, he was sitting in his chair where he always sits. My Aunt was telling me last week that his room is VERY small, and that Dad isn't happy with it at all. Well, okay his room is small, but it's really not THAT small, he has his TV, his chair and his bed. Further he has a perfect outside view, and has everything he needs. I think a room like this invites him aswell to go out of his room, out of his room he can go to another room where every resident comes together for a chat or something to eat, or what ever. He can go to visit other residents aswell in their rooms. 

Still snowy and icy, but not for long....

As always Dad was happy to see me, he told me everything about his new room. He looked happy, so all was good. I had a look in Dad's old room aswell, thinking it was already mostly empty according to what my my Aunt, said. Oh yeah, they were so busy with it the last week it seemed. But no, his old room was still full of furniture and other decorations and items, all the closets were still full. I thought, "What on earth have they all done then, when they were so busy?" Alot had to be done, so, I figured why don't I start now? I had a few big bags with me and a few little plastic bags. I started with sorting everything out, what is garbage, what can stay at my Dad's new room, and what can go to a second hand store. Ocfource I packed a big bag full with items what I can use, before other Family members come and grab things. Oh the amount of stuff my Dad had, I surely didn't expect that much. I was out of plastic bags, but got it all done anyway. 

This coming week we get rain, lot's of rain, I will miss the snow.

I sorted everything out, garbage, second hand stuff, my stuff, and Dad's stuff. I walked alot from left to right to go from my Dad's old room to his new room, and that damn door, ugh, every time I had to push a code to open that door. Lots of work but Dad's new room looks much cozier now. A nurse told me to keep space aswell in Dad's new room, his walking is so bad that he sometimes need a wheelchair, and sometimes nurses have to use a lift to get him to bed, yeah, he's really getting old. Kinda sad to see him like that, I really love him! I got much stuff done, I grabbed my bag, thanked Dad and took off. The bag was so heavy, and it snowed alot aswell. I was dead exhausted walking with that big bag, the bag was full with Dad's old groceries what I still could use, and fully with drinking glasses and mugs, plus a few other nice things. One more week then Dad's room has to be completely empty, I think it's easy to do, even if I had to do it. 

Coffee to wake me up, the train will be there in about ten minutes. On my way to Dad.

There's a second hand store in Dad's village, they can pick up the furniture and other items for free. Just one call, make a appointment and done. Aunt's idea was to pick up the lighter things and bring them right away to the second hand store by themselves (okay), then the heavier furniture to my Nephew, my Aunt's Son (okay). That's fine with me, I didn't wanna start a argue, so all is fine. If the furniture stays at my cousin's, also fine! Aunt almost started a argue again after I told her what I had done today, sigh. I stood up for myself and told on her! Then she crawled back, yay me! You never know it with my Aunt, she can be sweet as candy, but then all of sudden, ouch! Let's see what happens this week, I offered to help out on Wednesday and on Friday, one call and I will be there.

Though months ahead... Or?

Though months ahead... Or? 

I would like to write a journal over the months towards my trip to the US, I will be leaving on the 22th Of July at 5:00 pm, I think a journal until then would be nice. Cause it sure is  a happening for me, I can tell you that. I will be flying in a plane again, it's been almost two years since I flew, it's about time. Though it doesn't feel like it's the first time, but yeah, I will have to make a little program of what to do when I arrive at the airport. One thing for sure is that I have to be on time, being on time is my nature, so that's not a problem. My motto is, "better to early then to late!" I'm nervous, nervous over the months towards this trip, perhaps I don't even have to be nervous. I like when everything is settled a 100%, the sooner the better. It gives me rest.

I'm going to meet Jan, she lives near Atlanta. I wish our communication was just a bit better, but communicate trough a computer isn't always easy. I know I can depend on her and I know I can chat with her anytime, but I also don't want to bombard her with talks and questions. Trough a computer you can't  really see what the other person is doing, you have to depend on writings on Facebook, or messengers. Sure you can ask things trough a computer aswell, but I rather talk eye to eye. Though that is not possible when the person lives overseas, I hope my conversations and explanations with Jan are clear and good. Good as in that I understand what she's telling me, and that she understands me what I'm telling her. It'll be alright. 

Today I updated my travel insurance, I can travel now overseas. What I couldn't last year, though the update will last only 45 days and begins on the day I leave, (22th July) I guessed that I won't travel overseas every year, so a short update is perfect. All the groceries are done for this week, and tomorrow I will be a bit busy with Dad's moving. It's the last part I guess, my Aunt called me last night to give me a update. She was friendly and did already alot of things, I guess I will just leave it like it is now. Just being friendly towards each other and probably forget what has happened last year. Though I keep in mind that my Aunt being friendly never lasts, so I'm on my hood.

Tonight I will be going out to a fellow worker, woot? Other fellow workers will come too, we're having a poker night. Although I don't understand poker I was invited anyway, it will be good for me. I need some distraction,this journey to the US is making me nervous,(I don't have to be I know, but I am. Hopefully these following months I will ease down and be more relaxed. You know I think waaaaaaay to much, I think, lol. The flight is settled, my staying is settled, (uhm, I think, STOP! Thinking!!) But what if....... and what if..... Well, "Most of the things you worry about, never happens!" So..... 

What a day...

What a day...

Yeah, what a day, and what for? I don't know! My day was full of nerves today. I don't understand sometimes communication online. I dislike it to sometimes. When you chat to a person, or message a person on the computer , you just see the written words and lines and that's it, no face expressions. There's no eye to eye contact. And that's a pity. Sometimes a saying needs a face expression to understand a saying, uhm right? Yes. So what happened? Well, I'm not gonna say, that's a private matter between me and a good friend of mine. Yeah, this is my blog, I know, but still. All is good now, I think, lol. Sometimes I need a second confirm, lol. Then I might ask for a third confirm, and then I'm surely convinced, lol. I'm kinda waiting for a second confirm, do I? To be honest, yes. lol! 

I was pretty nerves today, the 'ok,' made me less nerves, a breath of relief. Confusing post right? Not for me though, lol. I worry to much, I should stop that, it's not healthy. But it sure ain't easy to stop worrying when it's a part of you. It's like smoking I guess, when your used to it, it's aswell hard to stop. Anyway, anything heard from your Dad? Nope, nothing, no message np phone call, awkward and weird right? I don't know what's going on, I will message tomorrow once again Dad's nurse. I messaged her last Tuesday night aswell, no answer. Dad has a new nurse now, I will need to get in contact with her too. Just to get to know each other, to inform how the relationship is between Dad and me, plus my Aunt. Specially my Aunt.

"Booked!!"

"Booked!!" 

I couldn't wait any longer, today I actually planned that I would go to two other travel stores, but after checking my bank account online I went straight to the store where I first went to last Saturday. I was surprised about my bank account, I don't like checking it though, I almost never do, only when it's really needed. Why? Because I still have sometimes the nerves about my money, like, is my money still there? Do I have enough? Do I still come around? I rather not check it then, I know it's silly but... I trust my thoughts and instinct that I'm almost sure that have enough to come around. At the travel store the booking went pretty easy, I wanted to go a day later. First I wanted to travel on a Saturday, but I figured on a Sunday would be better. 

My Summer holiday starts at the 20th of July, the 19th is my last working day before our Summer holiday. So Saturday's would be kind of a rushing day if I would have went, that's why I asked the Sunday. Sunday was available to, but costed 400 Euros more, wow! Another option was the day after, Monday the 22th of July. The 22th had the same price as the Saturday, so, good! The lady from the store took a bit long to figure out if it was a non-stop flight or not, all though it was very clearl, That made me a bit nerves, she kept clicking on the link. "Get on with it," I thought, book and confirm! lol. Finally the booking and confirming, breath of relief. I'm happy with the price, and happy with the flight. A non-stop flight, leaving at 5:00 pm, landing in Atlanta around 8:30 pm.

I'm easily able to travel to Schiphol on the day my journey begins, I have to depend on the train times, I can now easily be on time at the airport. If my departure was at 9:00  or 10:00 am, I wouldn't have made it with the train. It takes me two hours to get to the airport by train, I have to arrive three hours before departure. The first train to Schiphol goes at 7:30 am, I would have just missed the plane. So 5:00 pm departure is great. Even the time I come back from Atlanta is great, I will be back in Holland at 3:00 pm, and gladly not in the late afternoon. Otherwise I should have booked a hotel. Nothing to worry about, everything is taking care off by the travel store. Jan, the lady where I'm traveling to has confirmed too with my visit, though I need another one, just me being nerves. 

Jan told me already a thousand times in the last few years that I'm welcome, like I said, just me being nervous. But I'm excited aswell, oh yes! My Aunt called already, nope! Weird? oh yes, probably she will call tonight. It's now 7:50 pm, yeah, it still can. Awkward that she didn't call me yet, what's going on? I trust on my Dad's nurse, if there's something going on she will message me or call me. Though there's that guilty feeling aswell, guilty cause I'm almost not able to help out with the moving, Friday afternoon I'm available. If I don't hare anything from my Aunt nor my Dad's nurse then I will message my Dad's nurse tomorrow, I would like to help out where and when I can. This week so far has been full of stress and nerves, roll on next week!

Waiting for 'that' phone call...

Waiting for 'that' phone call... 

It's 8:34 pm, my cell phone lays next to me, I'm expecting a phone call from my Aunt. I sometimes look at my cell phone like it's a ticking bomb, lol. I don't like it when my Aunt calls, knowing my Aunt she will call me cause she needs my help with Dad's moving, or she wants me to help. It's normal that she calls and that she wants me to help out, ofcource cause it's my Dad. Dad has still some of his belongings in his old room, some of those things he can't bring with him to his new room. That has to go, where? that will be probably my or my Dad's choice. I'm not looking forward to Aunt's call, cause she wants to get control over everyone, specially mine, cause she knows I'm weak and fragile. 

She has hars comments and commands, that's not my style. 8:40 pm, still no call, I'm nuts! If Aunt is going to call of message me I will be calm and straight to the point. When she wants my help I will tell her when, if she doesn't like that, well, then not. Geesh, I wish I could do my Dad's old room all by myself, I would be done in one day. Though my Aunt wouldn't let me. There has to be alot arranged though, the furniture what has to go can go from my part, perhaps to the Family or to me. I think I will take a few items with me, I will see. My Aunt told me that his new room is very small, hmm, I think I will see that upcoming Friday, that's my day off, then I'm available.

Decided over my US trip already? Well, I think I'm getting closer, lol. My doubts or the 'if that' or the 'if this,' or less. A few more fellow workers were telling me today, why not? Just go! That always gives me a boost, makes me wanna go right away, lol. I should go, the only barrier is money now, can I afford it? I think yes, but I really want to be sure. 1300 Euro is alot of money, though I saved money aswell. But with 1300 Euro I'm not there yet, I will need food, gifts for the kids, and perhaps a few extra things like always. So yeah, I really have to be sure I really can afford it. The excitement is growing though... that's a plus point!

8:54 pm, still no call. I think after 9:30 pm she won't call anymore.... Sometimes I think I think to much.

Expecting a call... no one calls!

Expecting a call... no one calls! 

I was expecting my Aunt would call but she didn't, she was expecting a E-mail from me but I couldn't, cause I deleted and blocked her on hotmail. I told my Aunt yesterday that I would ask Dad's nurse an update about Dad's moving. So yeah, Dad's nurse updated me. She told me Dad has moved to room 114, most important things were already moved by my other Uncle, the Uncle dropped all of a sudden by for a visit. He helped out. No update that my Aunt and Uncle helped out, hmm. Dad will get another nurse aswell, Dad's old nurse advised me to have a talk with her, a small introduction. I answered Dad's nurse back by saying that I would like a talk with Dad's new nurse. Further I told in the mail back that I'm able to help out with the rest of the moving on Friday afternoon, oh yes I have a full week, and it's not only work. This could be a stress and busy week, I will just let it all come over me. 

Yesterday I also sent a mail to the contact-person from 'Buddy wanted," I want to quit with that project and I told her why. I asked for other options too, who knows right?  I received a mail back from her, she would like to have a talk with me, I could choose what day. And so I did, I will get a mail back tomorrow, I'm sure. Actually curious what she has to say, lol, oh, and she's good looking, haha, always a nice visit! Kinda strange that my Aunt didn't call today, she asked (demanded) me to help out this week with Dad's moving, I told her that I will see if I have time. probably she will call me tomorrow. I'm ready! Made up my mind to travel to Atlanta already? No! I asked a few fellow workers and some of them told me to just go, you only live once! And some of them think I'm crazy to go. My opinion? I really would love to go! But..... But what? I don't know, lol. Still the, 'What if this and what if that.' The best line I heard today was,"Go without any worry and enjoy." Deciding Saturday!

What's the worst that can happen?

What's the worst that can happen? 

Today Jan messaged me that I was very welcome if or when I decide to visit here in Atlanta, Georgia. That did me good and made my doubts less. Though the amount of money and the huge airport from Atlanta still worries me, lol. Thinking to much of this trip makes the worries only worse, ofcource it's a long journey plus a big adventure. What's the worst that can happen? Well, listen up... 

-I might get lost in that huge airport from Atlanta. (hmm, naah!, You have a mouth you can talk.) 

-Customers might send me back. (Be a 100%  prepaired and they won't)

-Jan doesn't show up with the arrival. (Eek, yeah, worst nightmare!) 

-And further? Money? (Yeah, it's alot of money! See if you can afford it,otherwise next year.) 

This week I will figure out what to do, before upcoming Sunday I will make a decision. This week I will inform more travel stores in my city, there are two travel stores more. I probably could afford the 1300 Euro, but above that price? No! Skipping further vacations this year might help too, plus the money I have saved for this trip last year.  I think I'm ready! 

Surprise, surprise, my Aunt called today. She called before though a few weeks ago, but when I picked up my cell phone and saw her number I putted the cell phone back. This time I saw another number and picked it up, it was my Aunt! She just talked normal to me and asked a few questions, just like nothing has happened. I answered and talked normally aswell, I didn't like talking to her, but for the sake of my Dad I listened. 

My Aunt asked me if I received her e-mail, I told her no. (I blocked her on my Hotmail, she doesn't know) I explained her shortly that it might have something to do with her internet, lol. Aunt informed me about my Dad's moving, (most things I already knew) she had a whole story that they moved most of the important and needed things to Dad's new room. Dad doesn't like the room, it's very small and he shares the room with another elderly guy, according to my Aunt. 

When my Aunt talks you really have to believe half of it, she over reacts and tells only the things she wants to tell. But anyway, Aunt needed my help again, cause Dad needs his other stuff moved. I told her that I'm available on Friday and Saturday, Dad needs to have his old room empty within two weeks. Piece of cake, though most of his stuff he can't take with him, cause his new room is to small. Friday is my day off, then I will have a look at Dad's new room. 

My Aunt told me that Dad is going downhill fast with his health, I knew that already but Aunt over reacts her stories always. I messaged my Dad's nurse today to ask her about my Dad, and his moving. I will get a better answer tomorrow I'm sure. I'm surely not liking it that my Aunt is contacting me again, I liked it much more when she didn't call, freedom! I hope Aunt won't call me daily again, ugh!

Where to travel to...

Where to travel to... 

Traveling these days is expensive, specially when you wanna fly. I'm still searching. I have been to a travel store too today, just asking for information for a flight to the US. US? Yeah, in 2012 I told myself that in 2013 I want to travel by plane again. US, Spain or Ireland are my most favourite places to travel to. I even thought about visiting a friend in the US, a Facebook friend. It's a woman called Jan, she's been a good supporting friend since Saf and I broke up. The awkwardest thing might be that she knew Saf already before I even came in the picture. She's a very nice woman, huge family and live in Atlanta, Georgia. Yep, quit a trip to go there, a huge adventure too. Am I crazy to travel all the way to Georgia? Maybe, but hold on, I haven't even booked yet. Jan always told me that I'm welcome, but now  when it might be the time for a visit, I want to know for sure. I already asked her.... 

The visit to the travel store was good and positive, though it's still a amount of money. A non-stop flight to Atlanta will cost me 1300 Euro if I book it now or this week, if I wait longer the prices might be going up. Though expensiver then 1300 Euro isn't quit what I want, my wallet is refusing aswell, lol. Ofcource I have other options where I can travel to, but let's just wait a little while what Jan has to say. I'm still having doubts to tavel to Atlanta, like I said it's a huge adventure, and it's no around the corner. I always want to be sure of things when I travel, things has to be 150% clear and settled. No obstacles in my way when I travel, specially not on a trip that far. Searching for a trip isn't that easy, otherwise I would have been done by now. 

Let's see if I get answers this coming week from Jan, and let's see if I change my mind or what my thoughts will say. Some other news today was that I had a mail yesterday from the elderly house where my Dad lives, he moved today to another section. I was surprised for sure, cause it went so fast. He has been moved today to another section cause of his Alzheimer disease, Dad was on a waiting list a long time already. Unfortunately I couldn't help out today with the moving, though the elderly house didn't ask me either, kinda awkward actually. Dad's nurse had vacation last week, another nurse informed me about the moving. Upcoming Monday I will inform my Dad's nurse about Dad's moving, I would like to know who helped with the moving. Kinda curious aswell, upcoming Wednesday I will visit Dad. 

 

The 822th post already...

The 822th post already...

Though it's not easy to write every day a piece, but once I start writing, I write constantly. Uhm, well, most of the time. Actually this post what I'm writing now should have been written yesterday, I forgot it again, guess it was to late in the evening. Maybe I should have a certain or permanent time when I write, after dinner is good I think. Or maybe I just should write less, I don't have to write everyday. Once a week, or perhaps once a month is good too. Once a week sounds good, this is the 822th post I think I should write once a week after my 1000th post. Yeah, perfect, deal!

Friday was okay, did a part of my weekly groceries and did one load of laundry. I'm glad Johan from 'Buddy wanted,' didn't show up, he will visit me once in two weeks he told me. From my part he doesn't come at all anymore, yeah I'm done with him. He isn't ANY help. The only thing he does is a bit of positive talk and that's it, he should advice me and help me searching for social contacts or activities. When I signed up for Buddy wanted I signed up for eight months, well, I almost positive I won't sit trough these eight months. I might sign off next week.

It seems I'm the only one who is searching for contacts or activities, just like I did before I signed up with this project. But enough about this project. There was more searching, cause I still don't know where to travel to this Summer. Will it be the US, Spain, Ireland? Or maybe another country, I don't know. I would love to try another travel company. Difficult decision, cause I'm used to 'Effe Weg,' that's the company where I travelled with to London, Berlin and Paris. Today/tomorrow I will visit a travel store here, to let me inform over a trip to the US, just inform.

Nothing much to write today...

Nothing much to write today...

Just a working day, it's still not that busy. I hope more orders or work will come, it keeps us busy. We recently got help from a bunch of other workers, I think I mentioned 'that' before. And the awkwardness about it is that these bunch of workers are coming from Reha, my old job before I joined my 'new' job. These bunch of workers are not in the same building with us, they are in a building next to us. They are helping us with making mats, they do the first stadium of the mat, very simple work. I don't really like it at the moment when these 'new' bunch of workers help us, that way we don't have much to do, specially when there's not much work. 

But anyway, I hope the amount of orders come soon, so we can be busy again. Plans for the weekend? Uhm, not really. Maybe visit my Dad, but I think I will do that during the week. I need to visit my old Doctor aswell soon, I called him yesterday to undo me as a patient, I was still registered as a patient with my old Doctor, but I got a new Doctor here in the city where I live, for a long time already. At my old Doctor I will pick up my dossier and hand it over to my new Doctor. Didn't know it would be that easy, nice. Will have to figure out what to eat during the weekend, yeah, it's really getting a hobby this cooking, I love it during the weekend.

A nice day off...

A nice day off...

The temperature is below zero, day and night. And these temperatures will stay below zero the upcoming days, perhaps weeks. The roads are icy and full of snow, Winter has finally arrived in Holland. I love it, though the cold is rough. Being outside is nice but covering up thick is a must, I think I need new gloves, gloves where you can make a fist inside the glove, how do you call such gloves? Mittens? I think it's called mittens, yes. I haven't been doing that much today, it's what I usually do on a day off, lol. Resting in the morning, take a nap, or maybe two naps. I took one good nap today, the second one didn't succeed. 

I felt for a second nap in the early but couldn't catch my sleep. I went out aswell for a little bit, staying to long in the house makes me lazy. Although the weather was cold, I took my cycle and onthe road I went. I don't mind icy or snowy roads, I'm a excellent cycler, lol. I had to do some groceries, searched for some nice spots to take Winter photo's and had a nice cuppa hot chocolate in a store. After that I went to the free dinner, I have been outside for 2 and a half hours and that's Long enough with being in this cold. I want to go early to bed to be fit for tomorrow's work, rest is good.

It snows!

It snows! 

Finally! It was expected yesterday, and today it came, snow! With amounts it came down today, in a no-time the streets were covered in white, such a nice view from out of the window from work. I didn't even stop snowing today, it continued until late in the evening. Though most of the media in Holland make such a drama about this snow, we had 22 cm of snow (lenght) and the media went wild. Road blocks in traffic, trains were not riding, delays at the airport. I watched many news reports on TV tonight, but everything had to do with this little bit of snow. Yes, it's dangerous on the road, people gotta be careful, elderly people rather stay at home. A fellow worker who always rides with me towards home fell of his bicycle, he wasn't hurt but, damn, it was quit a fall. He's a old man, though he was alright. Other news today is that my Dad is going to another section at the place where he lives now, Dad is living on the second floor, but now he moves to the first floor. 

This first floor is specialized in special occasions when it comes to diseases with elderly, my Dad is going to this section cause he sufferers from Alzheimer. Dad was on a waiting list for this section for almost a year, now it's time, there was a room free. Dad's nurse emailed me and told me that Dad took the (good) news calm. He's used to his room as it is now, he likes his daily things. He doesn't like changes that much. But he has to move, it's better for him, the getting used will take time. The moving is not actually a thing what I'm looking forward to, I might face my Aunt again... I haven't seen her since my Dad's birthday in August, and I haven't spoken to her since September. I told Dad's nurse that I'm not looking forward to Dad's moving and why, Dad's nurse knows about my Aunt and me, I will get a answer from the nurse tomorrow I guess. I'm not worried.

"Cold!"

"Cold!"

Thick sweater on, heater on, and still cold. It's typical Dutch weather, it's all or nothing. I will leave my heater on tonight, it will automatically turn of at 00:30 am anyway. Gotta love central heating in flats, my heater always turns off automatically at 00:30 am. around 5:00 or 6:00 am I can turn the heater on again. It's automatically setted this way, don't know why, but it's fine with me. I don't like it when the heating is on during the night or any other kind of electric machine, or how you call it.

Work was tough, no heavy lifting but just rough work. Making mats with recycled rubber and steal pins. My fingers are still hurting, though I had some laughs aswell, just making funny jokes and noises. I was exhausted after work from the rough work and laughs, lol. Work is not that busy the last few weeks, and upcoming weeks will be un-busy aswell. I hope it will be busy again soon, cause that's what I like. I guess it's normal for the time of year.

Totally forgot!

Totally forgot!

I forgot to write a post yesterday, tsk, tsk, tsk. With so much time on my hands and still forgetting it, lol. Though Sunday was pleasant, the new cooking pan is a huge success. I made risotto, and it was good. Everything in just one pan, chicken breast slices first, then cut up mushrooms and zucchini. Then add some water plus the sauce, and then the rice. Wait until the water is mostly steamed up and tadaaa! Done! Never knew it was that easy, dishes were done in a no-time, I used only a cutting board, knife, spoon, one plate and the new pan, lol. Further this Sunday I didn't do that much. I been on a coffee visit though after my dinner and shower. 

I had a coffee with Ina, Ina is my buddy, can females be buddies? I think she's the only person I can count on and trust as a friend, and that gives a good feeling. We talk alot, and laugh alot. No, I'm not in love and no there won't come a relationship, lol. Just good friends. More of such friends please, I'm still looking and searching. That's though in a city what's nearly dead. Though I might have found something to do during the weekends, there's a little theatre here in the city called Hof 88. They are playing all kinda movies for cheap, there's cabaret, concerts, etc, etc. All that in a small area, I might check it out this coming weekend.

Where to go to....

Where to go to....

I just watch a 50 minute video of a guy filming short little scenes of his trip in Paris, France, it was great! I saw many spots where I have been too, a nice flashback. Watching the video reminded me aswell that my five days in Paris was hectic, we had a full schedule those five days, the days flashed by just like that. Perhaps ten days would have been better instead of five days. The Paris video made me want to travel again, I'm still searching where to go, it's like a maze going trough all the travel sites. I just don't know where to search or where to start. My favorite countries to visit this year with Summer are Ireland, Spain or USA. 

I have been thinking of Canada aswell, exploring Mississauga once again. But the last two countries are expensive to travel too. I want to travel by plane, this year I don't want to travel by bus. I have been traveling three times now with the same company, now it's time for something else. Though, I must say traveling with the same company is more trustworthy, you just know what to expect from them. But this company does only Europe trips, and uses only busses. I think it's a good idea to get informed by a travel store here in my city, we have a few. Some say it's even cheaper to book at a travel store then trough the internet.I will try to book a trip before March. 

The cooking's pan I always wanted, but bought it today.

Nice day today, there was a tiny bit of snow when I woke up. But later today it was gone, it sure wasn't much. This morning I took it easy, later on after my nap and lunch I took off to a second hand store in another village. The village was only 2 km's away from my home, though there's always that hill I have to get over getting there. It was cold but the sun was there aswell, the second hand store was fun, I scored a nice blue jeans for work, only 10 Euro! I still needed to do my last part of my groceries, but first I had to buy a cooking pan, I knew a store where I can buy the pan I needed in the same village. Though the store was closed, sigh. 

I really needed a pan for tomorrow's cooking, tomorrow I will cook risotto, that's why the new cooking pan. I have a few cooking pans, but I needed one with a deeper bottom. I decided to go back to my own city, sigh, that was a pretty rough and far ride, and again over that hill. I was out of breath but it felt good, healthy weather, lol. I scored a nice cooking's pan for again a nice price, I have seen pans for 40 or 60 Euro, the one I bought costed 12 Euro. Did my last grocery after that and went home, then a well deserved nap.

What to do? What to do....

What to do? What to do....

I have written about this subject before, but there's absolutely nothing to do what actually interests me when it comes to volunteer work or any kind of 'thing' what can help me build up 'new' social contacts. Or how you call such a thing? New relatives? I'm still looking for new or other contacts, other people around me, perhaps new friends. But where to start in a city where there's not much to do? Recently I started with searching again, but I had aswell times that I nearly gave it up, or putted the searching in a pause mode. I really don't want to make the 'searching' a obsession, or a 'must!' I MUST find something or otherwise I get lonely or whatever. That's not what I want, that's not the thought that will help me, I might end up somewhere where I don't even want to be, just because I HAD to find something.

Writing about 'this' or thinking about 'this' makes my brain become in a knot, like I'm in a maze, I just can't find a solution then. This 'searching for (new) social contacts' is what I want, but I'm not daily busy with it. Fun in the searching or not get hopeless is a must, if that's not happening, I'll stop searching for a little time, and pick it up later again. 

Tonight I have been searching aswell on the internet, I found a few things but I have doubts. It was something with yoga, badminton, helping children with a handicap, and a few more. I saved the links in my favorites, I will have a look at them again tomorrow. It has to be something what interests me, otherwise it won't work. This morning my 'buddy contact' (counselor) came for a visit aswell. I'm not looking forward to his visits.

I don't know, I just don't like him that much. He should help me with finding social contacts, but he doesn't really come with ideas or tips, or help me searching. He pushed me today to come up with something (social contacts) within two weeks. Johan comes once a week, but today he told me that he will come once in two weeks now. I was glad to hear that, cause his visits aren't that help full, or that's his strategy, that might be the way he works, I don't know. That I have to come up with 'something' within two weeks made me a bit upset, "Help me then?" I thought. But maybe he's right, I only talk alot about finding new social contacts, but I don't take steps, or I don't take action. Well, almost not. I'm sure I will succeed within two weeks! But I'm not happy with the way Johan works.

Colder weather!

Colder weather!

Within a few days the cold Winter days will start, finally, I'm actually looking forward to some snow. The last few days we only had rain, and rain and rain. And it's not even cold, that's not Winter. Today I got pretty wet too, when I got back from the free dinner I got soaked. It's been a nice day at work, worked hard and it felt good. Though 'they' should stop serving cream cake or any kind of cake, lol. Every time when it's some one's birthday there's cake or cookies, we have more then 40 people working in the factory. Only this week I had two times cake, and it look so yummy!

I felt tired after work, I'm looking forward to the three days of. I will take it easy I think, I will surely take it easy with my wallet. December has been an expensive month , I think it's then good to save some money this month. Sure I could still use some things for myself, like a two persons bed, or a few more decorations in my house, or maybe some new clothes. But, 'that' can wait. We get a a few extra free days off from works too, just because it's not that busy, funny that those free days are on a Friday, Friday is actually oficially always my day off, lol!

Resting day...

Resting day...

Wednesday, resting and napping, though I had only one nap. While I'm writing this post in the evening I feel sleepy aswell, it's gonna be a early night for sure. Today was easy, I mean the things I had to do today went easy. The taxes office helped me with the 'changes of my new income of 2013' very smoothly, we were done in not even 10 minutes. I was kinda worried about it, and see, there was nothing to worry about. Right after 'taxes' I went to my pharmacy to pick up my medication, they were laying ready, so no waiting there. I couldn't reach my old Doctor though, I tried many times to call but they put me on hold several times. That's expensive when you have a cellphone, I will call tomorrow or Friday then. 

For the first this this year I went to the 'free dinner' again, it wasn't so busy there. Probably cause of the bad weather, it rained pretty much the whole day today. The video I posted I just watched by accident, I stumbled trough my own made videos, and saw this video aswell. It's an oldie, it's a little movie I made while I was in Canada, it was the summer of 2009. I couldn't watch this video for a long time, it's a 'touching' song, (Saf's favorite song) and the pictures I putted in the video were taken in the summer of 2009. On purpose I didn't put much faces in this video, just (summer) objects. It let's the viewers guess what the video is about or it makes the video more attractive. 

Seeing this video back now, it still hurts a bit, yes, do I miss that time? Uhm yes and no. Yes, because as you can see in the video we really had a good time, and no, because, I can't go back. I'm having my life here now. I changed alot while being back in Holland, stronger and enjoy things more, I travel, got a job, etc, etc. Seeing this video back made me also ask the question, "Could I manage or handle it if I could turn back the time two years from now and start the relationship with Saf over? With  being the person who I am now? Oh yes, easy! Do I want that if it would be possible? Uhm, yes and no, you know turn back time doesn't exist. Time goes forward, so are people, and so do I.

Finally...

Finally... 

That was alot of work writing those extra posts over my trip to Paris, I'm actually glad it's finally done. Back to the normal writing, lol. I had alot to write about, it sure was a big adventure the whole Paris trip. Tomorrow a day off, though I have some things to do. I guess it will go fine, though slightly a bit nerves about it. I'm gonna do the 'taxes changing' tomorrow plus getting my 'new medications.' They are the same medications like the old ones, but just I was out of them. Probably I will call my old Doctor in Nijverdal aswell, I'm still registered there said my new Doctor. 

So let's see if that's right. I don't like phone calls, I hope my phone doesn't dy in the middle of the phone call, lol. Should I charge it just a bit more? naah! Today's work went just a as last Monday, everything went fine. My chest pain is so so, let's say it's not as pain full that I think that I really need to see my Doctor. Let's see how it goes until next week, when I don't think about my chest pain the pain is less, probably a hint. They for spelled rain tomorrow aswell, me don't like that. In the weekend we get colder weather, I hope we get some snow too.

Let the Monday begin...

Let the Monday begin...

Today's work went better then last Friday, still a bit of a chest pain but it felt better to work with it. I was kinda worried that I would get more pain during work, but no. Though it's a strange thing, if it is worries or stress, why does it go badder then? I have to release the stress, but I can't think of a thing what would stress me. Yeah, I worry so now and then, but to say I have stress? No, or maybe un-known. Time will tell, that's what I always tell myself, "Time will tell." Worry less, and continue with what your doing. I'm happy I have work, I notice that I talk alot more then I used to did. I noticed this when I got back from Paris.

I feel comfy with the talking, I guess the Paris trip did me good. I wasn't quiet either with the trip, I even searched for passengers to talk with, it went so easy. Yeah, work was good today. We did alot and got much done. I like when my team leader comes to me and tells me what to do and I get it right away, just a "Okay," and I do what I have to do. I wonder what this year wil bring me, I started searching for a flying trip. But nothing found yet, I have no clue where I wanna fly too, flying is expensiver then with a bus. Oh, I will see. This month or next month I will make a decision.

Trip to Paris - day 5. 

I slept well, I went to bed early last night. The bus returned at 8:00/8:15 pm last night, I went straight to my room and finished packing my suitcase. It wasn't that much work, most of it wasn't even un-packed. I took out what I needed and putted it back when used. After packing I put everything ready for tomorrow's last day,  phone alarm 6:00 am, medication, etc, etc.  I went to bed at 8:45 pm, at 6:00 am I got up and 30 minutes later I went to get breakfast. I was ready to go home, it's been a adventure the last four days. I made a huge breakfast, including lunch aswell, it's free and it's handy while I'm in the bus traveling home. I was almost first with breakfast, when I had my serving plate full of what I needed more passengers were coming. Wow, it seemed everyone came down, the little restaurant was packed. Our group is a mix of almost any age, I could get along with almost everyone. Nice people, though there are always some people who are not that open, and like to be more on their own, that's alright, I respect that. I ated my breakfast and grabbed my ready made lunch and went to my room. My suitcase was already packed. 

At the Eiffel Tower, early in the morning.

I grabbed my last things and went downstairs once again, I checked right away out at the hotel lobby. After that I went outside with my bag and suitcase and waited for our bus driver, more passengers were coming with me.My suitcase was packed and I searched for a decent seat in the back of the bus, the back in the bus is my favorite place, long legs, well, you know. But the back seats were already taken, I sat almost for five days in the back, and now all of a sudden the seats were taken. Some friends wanted to sit with each other and they were just a bit not that polite, but oh well. I complained just a bit, but understood 'them' aswell, I didn't wanna argue, these guys were nice people all the way trough this trip. As long as I can stretch my legs every seat is fine, I choose to sit somewhere else where I could stretch my legs. All was good. The bus took of for one last adventure, "The Eiffel Tower." Eek, I'm gonna do it! It was early, (7:30 am) the bus driver told us that the morning traffic would be very busy this morning.

Cause it's just a normal regular working day again for Paris, France. The Eiffel will go open at 9:30 am, And guess what? We were way to early, the bus driver was surprised aswell. We got out of the bus and the Eiffel was huge, wow, I never been that close! I thought, "Should I really even go up there?" Yes, I will, I promised! There was already a little line, I stood with some other passengers in that line and waited. 70 minutes to go, then the gates will open. It was cold, must have been the early dawn. Though the time past well quickly, the sun came up aswell, nice. I looked several times up to the Eiffel Tower, it's so frigging high. I already deiced while looking up the Tower that I won't go to the third stage, that's the highest. the second stage is aswell just a bit to high for me, the first stage is perfect. Yep, first stage is good. 9:30 am, the gates went open and my nerves began. We were in a no-time inside, the way to the lift took a bit long, but once in the lift everything went fast. We had to buy our own tickets though.... 

Here we go!

Third stage costed 14 Euro, second and (I think) first stage costed 8 Euro en 50 Euro cent.8 Euro en 50 Euro cent is perfect, I had to take care of my money aswell after the 'New Years taxi!' Damn! Anyway, the lift went up and there we went. Damn, the lift went straight to the second stage, there wasn't even a first stage, ugh! Though the elevator I could see how high we went, and that wasn't a pleasant vieuw. I just wanted to get out as soon as possible, just to get it over with. The doors of the lift went open and there I was, second stage. Being on the second stage wasn't that scary as being in the lift, but don't look down. I never knew there was so much space to walk on the second stage, there's asfalt on the ground, in the middle are shops, bathrooms and litlle rest areas. I surely didn't look down and didn't come to close to the edge, though it looked solid. After taking some pictures and talking to a couple of passengers it was time to go down again, our bus will leave at 11:00 am. It was a bit of a awkward feeling going home again, kinda looking forward to it aswell. 

Once out of the lift I was happy I stood on the ground again, but happy aswell that I did it, oh yeah! Our journey back to Holland had a bit of a difficult start, lol. Some of the passengers were doing awkward and difficult over their seats, sigh. Most of our passengers do have (automaticly) their own seats during the last four days, (I had too, lol) This morning was a bit different as you noticed, I had to pick another seat too. When we went in the bus after the Eiffel Tower visit it all started again, some passengers had to changed seats again, cause some 'other' passengers decided to sit somewhere else. The passengers who had to 'changed seats' got shouted at by other passengers who were actually sitting there. Our bus is full, when you sit down as we take of, then that's actually automaticly 'your' seat. The argue began and it escalated, there wasn't a solution it seemed, not even after twenty minutes. Though it were all words, no violence. The bus driver had enough and ordered everyone to get out of the bus. 

Everyone out of the bus!!

While everyone stood outside our bus driver told everyone to get in the bus again when he told us to, we had to get in the bus two by two, or actually couple by couple. Fair enough, though I was alone, so I could pick a seat last. Sigh, ofcource my second seat from this morning would be already taken, I didn't even look for it. Some other passengers told me that I could sit here, so I did, nice of them. I t was a nice seat, and I could stretch my legs. I sat next to a guy who wasn't that much of a talker, he was reading his e-reader and took so now and then a nap. I knew that it would be a long journey, so I tried to have a nap too, or just close my eyes, it makes the journey much more shorter. We stopped two times on our way back, for a wee wee or a snack. Just before 6:00 pm we arrived in the south of Holland, we were going to have a sort of 'goodby dinner,' just like last year. We stopped at a place called, uhm, I forgot where it was, but I knew it was in the south of Holland. More then three hours still away from Almelo, my city. Where our bus stopped, more other busses came back from their trip. It's a meeting point from all busses from the company where I travelled with. 

All the six busses who took of to several countries five days ago returned. Dinner was nice, the restaurant was packed with lots of passengers. All passengers from the other busses sat here, nice, flashback from last year. The food was food and alot, I sat next to a very nice lady who was sweet and talkable, she was with her girlfriend. It was a nice talk, awkward was that she was also part of our group who traveled to Paris, though I couldn't remember I saw her. At 8:00 pm it was time to head to another bus, before dinner every passenger has got a number of a bus where they have to go to, if they wanna go to home, lol. I had bus number 11, this was the same bus was going to the middle and east of Holland, I live in the east. It took a while to get in bus number 11, cause we had to get our suitcases first from our first bus, the bus what took us to Paris. I wasn't expecting to be early at home, though I wished it. But as usual with this company, something will happen and I will be much later home. And yes, I almost thought, "Hey, I'm nice one time, this time." 

But no, the bus driver drove past my home  and drove first to another city. A so called detour, sigh! More passengers weren't happy with this. But ah! At 00:20 am I was home, instead of 23:00 pm. I went on the computer, downloaded my Paris pictures before I went to bed, lol. I couldn't wait. This whole trip got me exhausted and tired, I really needed to have a few days rest. This trip to Paris was a busy one, but I wouldn't wanna have missed it in the world. Paris is nice, the group where I travelled with was maybe the best group where I travelled with. Yeah, a nice trip, a real adventure!

Living healhty but where to start and when...

Living healthy but where to start and when... 

I have been searching a bit to find out what's going on with my chest pain, I didn't even want to cause the internet makes it mostly worse then it is. I looked for five minutes and what I saw satisfied me. When I have to sneeze there's a little stabbing pain going trough my chest. It turns out that that's my chest muscle being silly. I red that on a forum, I googled sneezing/stabbing/chest/pain and found the forum, lol. What I red satisfied me enough to stop searching further. I probably have to move more, perhaps a little more stretching in the morning or during the day. During work I work sometimes a bit hard, heavy lifting or a awkward holding while working isn't that healthy. It could also be stress, it makes the muscles more tight up.

Stress? Stress from what? It's easy to worry for me, small things is where it starts with. Sometimes things where I don't even have to worry about. Then when I think about it more  the nerves begin. I have to loosen those little worries, that ofcource is easier said then done. Last week I thought that it would be easier to get used to those worries, it's just a part of me, it's in me. I can't get rid of it just like that. Once I get used to those thoughts and worries, it might be going easier then to live with it or perhaps even get rid of it. Perhaps the worries or stress will vanish then. Living healthy might help too, eat healthier work healthier, etc, etc. Let's see how my chest is holding this week.

As you know I don't do that much on Sunday's, so, yeah, today was the same. Resting and enjoying my staying inside. One load of laundry, a shower, and preparing a dinner is all I did today. This week I will have to do some important things, my Doctor told me two weeks ago that I'm still registered with my old Doctor. He could see that in his computer, so this week I will have to call my old Doctor and tell him that he has to un-register me as a patient. Aswell since I have a permanent working contract I will have to visit the taxes office and Gak, Gak is a welfare company who gives me half of my whole income, the other half I get from my Boss. 

My handicap is that I can only work for three days in the week,that's why I have welfare. Gak has to know that I earn a little bit more now that I have a permanent contract, Gak will lessen their half income, just so I get the right minimum wage. Taxes has to know too that I earn a bit more now, every time my income changes, taxes has to know, that's the law. I have a little income from taxes aswell, that's why. I have 'housing and health benefit' from taxes. Enough to do this week, I will be sure to take it easy aswell, I promises.

Trip to Paris - day 4. 

What a day yesterday, my clothes were still wet when I got up this morning. 9:00 am I got up, my shoes were the worst, wet and dirty. I planned not to do anything today, I felt exhausted and tired last night. It's better for me to have a good long rest, I need it. At 9:30 am I went down for breakfast, it wasn't even busy in the tiny little restaurant. I think I was the  first one of our group. I was surprised I was that hungry, I never ated that much as this morning. Four sandwiches, a yogurt and a cup of orange juice. More people of our group came down for breakfast, aswell a couple where I was with last night. She was one of the girls who was wearing high heels, they both asked me how I got to the hotel, and I asked them the same. There were laughs and there was lots to tell, they were aswell tired and told they got a taxi last night just as me and the 'deaf' couple took off. "It was a horror night," the guy told me. And we knew both that we had to split up anyway, cause with seven people in one taxi is not possible. 

They are nice people, and fun to talk with. Funny aswell that I didn't spoke to them earlier when I saw them, "Not my type of people," I thought. I asked them if they are gonna stay inside and do nothing aswell, they told me that they will go out today and join the activity, "We payed for it, lol," I payed for it aswell, but I didn't care last night, I was so tired. But, after this morning breakfast I decided to go anyway, I feel okay. And it's only a short afternoon. Early to bed tonight!!  More people of our group were asking how I got to the hotel last night, gosh, it's the talk of the day it seemed. In the end we all could laugh about it, sure it was horror, but hey, it was a adventure aswell. At 12:00 the bus took of again, with me in it, the couple where I spoke with this morning, and the 'deaf' couple! Wow, surprise. I felt okay, I was tired but it went, just taking it easy this afternoon, I thought. On our way we dropped of some people who wanted to do other things then today's activities. The rest of us went to 'Mont Parnasse.' 

The Mont Parnasse!

Vieuw from the Mont Parnasse.

That's a huge skyscraper where you can have a panorama view over whole Paris. There was a long line waiting for us when we got out of the bus, there was a cold streaming wind aswell. I could feel slowly the less hours of sleep from last night plus last nights adventure coming in, I tried to take it easy as much as possible. We stood in line for more then a hour in the cold and hard wind, once when it was our time to get in everything went pretty fast, show the ticket, in the elevator, elevator up, and there we were on the 56th floor. What a amazing view, it reminded me of the CN tower in Canada. Ofcource I took several photo's, though we couldn't stay long cause our other activity was waiting. Our second 'City walk,' waited for us, it was the same guide where I sneaked out with a couple of days ago, wonder if she recognize me and dislike me, lol. But I guess she didn't the 'City walk,' was nice but in the end to long, the tiredness kicked in of all of us. The 'walk' was to long, the tour guide stopped several times by a monument of other object to do her story, for us it was resting time, lol.

Our little group walking the city walk.

Beautifull scenery!

Finally after three hours walking the 'tour' ended, there was one little nice gesture our guide offered me. On the first day of our trip I bought some cards to send to people I know, yesterday it was my luck that I finally found a tobacco shop where I finally could buy some stamps, sigh! Now I only had to post them, but a mailbox was no where to find in Paris, I thought, maybe the 'guide' could help me out. I asked her after our walk, her response? "I will take care of that, no worries." I didn't even ask her to post it, that was really nice of her. wow! I thanked her two times I think. Next activity was a calm one, dinner! This activity costed 20 Euro, just like every other extra activity where I had to pay for. Dinner was good, tastefull and cozy. This cheap restaurant had even a piano player, lol, one of the waitresses sat all of a sudden down behind the piano and started playing. after dinner back to the hotel for a long, long rest. I started with packing already, it wasn't that much. The only things I left out were the things I needed in the morning.