"Did the package arrived?"

"Did the package arrived?" 

What can I say? Tuesday, I worked a whole day like usual. Today I was on another section again for a change. I'm not really liking it, cause I'm so used to my own section. I know what to do there, I know the tools and I know what kinda mats we make. But anyway, on that other section it was nice and calm. It's not that heavy work as in the section where I usually work. I pulled a little muscle this morning in my chest, it was kinda hurting and made me feel I had a little pressure on my chest, kinda worried me. But as the day went on the pain went less, the muscle was okay again. Let's see how it feels in the morning, when I get out of bed.

It was a nice day at work, I worked together with one other fellow worker, he was in charge in that (other) section. He's a calm guy and friendly, we both finished a order what had to be done today. Our two Bosses our a few days gone, holiday Uhm, no but it kinda looks like it, lol. There off to Denmark to see a maybe new customer, the Bosses brought a few mini mats to show the customer. It was a pretty calm day today, though I'm exhausted as usual after two days. Next week we have two days off, cause of the holidays. Next Monday we have 'Queens day,' and the day after Queens day we have 'labor day.' 

So that means I only have to work one day next week, Thursday! Yay? Yeah, though I asked if I could work next Wednesday too, kinda silly though, but okay. Some people are glad they have several days off, and I'm asking if I can work another day more, LOL! A guy at the office who does the planning told me that he will look if there's work enough for me next week, he will inform me Thursday. Tomorrow a day off, I have a few plans but hmm, buying a electric toothbrush, buying a better sleeping pillow, I need a vacuum cleaner as well. Important is also to test my blood again for my thyroid, it's been a while. I will see tomorrow.

P.s. What's with the title? What package? Oh nothing....lol.

A nice and productive day.

A nice and productive day.

I have been twice to the office at work today. I knew I would get a conversation around 3:00 pm, but the Boss came early this morning and called me in her office, "Just a little prepairing for the conversation in the afternoo," she told me. Nice of her. In the little prepairing conversation she told me again that they were glad with me and that I reall do my best, I'm positive, I work hard, ect, ect, I was Abi-minded in there eyes, lol! Abi is the name of the factory where I work. That was positive to hear that I'm Abi-minded, I'm willing to work (hard) for Abi. I like Abi, I like working here and I like the workers where I work with. although it's sometimes hard work, it's also worth it. I know aswell that I have sometimes a low energy level, but I can manage it, I know how to plan my energy trough the day and the week, I know when to take it easy, and when I can go for it.

The Boss asked me again this morning if I was flexible, meaning, flexible with work, I work Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. But it can happen that it might get busy on a Wednesday or a Friday, I will be flexible to work on a Waednesday or Friday then, though the 3 days of work will always stay. So if I work Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, then I will be Thursday off. Or when I work on a Friday then I will be the day before off. It can also happen that we get a extremely busy week, then I'm flexible enough to work 4 days, but then the week after that I will only be working 2 days then. My Boss talked aswell about working in shifts, when it gets for example extremely busy for a long time, then I will be flexible to work 3 days in shifts. For example, from 6:00 am till 2:00 pm, or from 2:00 pm til 10:00 pm.Yeah, this is te real deal. 


Like I said, I like working here, I like what I'm doing, that gives a automaticly positive energy boost aswell. Ofcource I'm tired after a day of work, but everyone has that, the feeling that I did enough and that I enjoyed it, gives a satisfied feeling. Around 3:00 pm the Boss came again to call me in her office, my counselor from Reha was there aswell, it was nice seeing her again, it's been a while. My Boss, my counselor and I started talking, it was a bit the same talk like my Boss and I had this morning, that everything goes well with me and that I deserved this working contract. My counselor talked aswell how things will go further now, for example with my earning/income. I will earn monthly my money now from Abi, and the company where I use to get my monthly money from (Gak) will keep giving me aswell something once a month. Hard to explain, lol. 

The most important is that I will get better from this, I will earn... I think a bit more then I usually earned in the month. My Boss and counselor couldn't really say how much it will be, I will have to wait till the 23th of May, then I will see how much I earned (monthly) On that date Abi will pay my first loan. Gak will have to know aswell what I will earn money from Abi, I will have to fill in a paper from Gak. On that paper I will have to fill in some information about Abi and me, what I earn, (I will ask my Boss) my social number, ect, ect. When something changes with my health or finance or getting a job, Gak will have to know this, so they can change my income. Higher loan or lower loan, I will get lower loan from Gak now cause I will earn money from Abi now. Either way, I will earn more now, more then I earned before, and that's a good thing. 


This week or next week I will sign the working contract, then it's oficilally. I will get now working shirths aswell, thank God! A shirth, a polo-shirt and a t-shirt, woot! The shirts have a badge aswell, a badge with Abi written on it, gosh I will feel special, lol. I'm glad I have a job, glad the hard work was all worth it.

Toothache?

Toothache?

Since my last appointment last Friday with the dentist I have this annoying feeling on my just repaired tooth, it's not really hurting but I can feel it, it such a annoying feeling. Ugh, I will have to wait till next Friday to fix this, cause then is my next appointment. If this annoying feeling gets worse then I will call for a appointment sooner. My dentist had alot of work on that tooth last Friday, perhaps a bit to much my tooth could handle. She cleaned out my tooth what had a root canal treatment last year. The filling on that tooth  wasn't that good either, she asked me if she can repair it or that I wanted to wait until next week, I told her to wait until next week. Maybe I shouldn't have waited... Ugh, toothache, I SO dislike it. 

NO! Only looking at it makes my teeth already hurt, lol.

So, from now on I want to take more care of my teeth, together with my dentist. Good thing I dislike candy, although I grab sometimes a chocolate bar at the supermarket, or I take in the weekends a bowl of chips, but that's really it if it comes to candy. I like my sweets in the morning lol. Sweets on my sandwich I meant. Strawberry jam or honey, yum!  I want to make that less now, even one spoon of sugar in my tea or coffee, instead of two spoons is more then enough. I'm already eating veggies and fruit, but I should do that just a bit more. And water, I should drink lots more water. I'm not a drinker, I could do easily a day without drinks, two days aswell, not good, I know. So yeah, that's it, from now on it's healthy food and drinks. 

Yes!! That's better!

I know that the dentist can also do alot for my teeth, like make them healthy, repair them, make them clean, but ofcource that will cost me. Sure the dentist doesn't mind, she gladly see's me coming every week, lol. Good for her wallet, but not for my wallet. She could fix my front teeth aswell, they look dirty and yellow cause I had a accident when I was ten or eleven. Maybe I will do that, but I'm not sure yet. Sure it will look better and nicer, but such things will cost me aswell. I will ask the dentist what it will cost me this coming Friday. This week I will be saving money for a electric toothbrush, my old dentist told me this last year that it's so much better, better then a normal hand brush.

Yeah, Sunday already. Like every Sunday I didn't do much, just resting for tomorrow's work. Showering, preparing dinner, ironing and I washed one load of laundry, that was it. Tomorrow I will have again a conversation with my Boss and my counselor from Reha, prolly it will be the last conversation. Just confirming things I think, confirming that I have a working contract. I will prolly get new working clothes aswell I think, I hope. Every worker has a working shirt with the name on it from the factory, not me. It's about time I get new working clothes aswell, it's full of stains, stains from glue and oil, yuck! You really can't wash those stains out, it's stuck forever. I will see what I get tomorrow.

Saturday why are you so grey?

Saturday why are you so grey? 

This weather really gotta make up his mind, cause this is nothing. Still I'm wearing a wintercoat and a scarf and hat. It was grey today with rain and hail. In the morning I started with cleaning the sleeping-room, washing the windows, doors, and closets. The windows were so much work, specially the big one, the soap water was almost black afterwards. I had to take a few breaks while cleaning, I took it easy today, lol. In the afternoon after my nap I did my last groceries, and then? Then nothing much further, it's been a good day. I did what I wanted to do, that gives a relaxed feeling. Tomorrow's a resting day, like always. Sleeping, looking trough flyers, napping, watching TV. I think it's about time for....... 


Pictures!! 

 Me on my bicycle! I ride and I ride...

A little horse near my Dad's house. 

And another one... 

Near my Dad's house is a HUGE forest where you can walk for miles, as a child I was here almost everyday. There are bicycle lanes aswell.

This little horse was about to eat my shoe...

 The cano's are laying ready, now it's waiting for dry and warm weather. These cano's are part of a cafe, this cafe is in the middle of our city. Akward but so nice.

Again horses, I can't help it, lol. 

Beside my Dad's place these tree's are waiting for Spring aswell. All cut up and ready for there leaves and flowers. 

Bicycles in Utrecht, near Amsterdam. I took this picture last weekend while going home. 

 And another (trendy) bicycle in Utrecht.

We had Hail this afternoon, and it was quit alot. Now here on this pic you see a bit of sun aswell....

...but here no sun at all, only hail. 

Dentist visit went fine...

Dentist visit went fine...

around eleven I had to be there, when I arrived there were no other patients in the waiting-room. I saw knowhere a secetary so I asked her if she doesn't have help, the dentist told me that she likes to work alone. While the dentist was doing her work, her son worked in the garden, "He takes my calls," she told me. The dentist opened up the fake filling again from last week , last week she cleaned out a old rootcanal cause it has inflammation. It was quit a work but there was no pain, only keeping your mouth open with tools and cottons in it is no fun.

After 20 minutes she was done, though she wanted to do one more thing on 'that' tooth. She wanted to repair the filling and that might take another thirthy minutes, she asked me, "Do you want me to do that now or next week?" I thought about it for two seconds and I answered, "Next week please." I was done, my mouth was dry and I felt sleepy. Perhaps I should have done it, just so that I got rid of it. Now I have to take care of my just repaired tooth until next Friday, cause the filling wasn't that good the dentsit told me.

The dentist did a quick check up of my other teeth and saw that most of the fillings were bad. "Your old dentist didn't do a good job with the fillings," she said. I kinda knew it but I wasn't sure, I'm glad she told me, now I'm sure who I can blame, lol. Glad aswell that I have a better dentist now, she even told me she can make my fron teeth look much better. I had a accident with my two front teeth when I was 10 or 11, I wanted to pull my self up out of a swimming-pool and 'kedeng!' Two of my front teeth broke off.

The dentist fixed it back then but there's a tiny yellow stripe on the part where the two teeth broke off. I'm happy with the fact my new dentist could fix problem but, ofcource that will cost me. I will think about it, and ask her what that will cost me next week. Today was a so so day, I had a good nap what was needed, and I wanted to go further with the 'big'cleaning. But the tooth was hurting a bit from the repairing so I took it easy. Tomorrow another day.

Ugh, I so dislike toothache, it makes you grumpy and feel like you don't wanna do anything.Perhaps it has to heal and that takes time, let's hope it. The weather was fine today, the weather forecast forspelled rain, hail and thunder the last three days, but I haven't heared thunder or saw hail or rain. It's nice out, perhaps going out to the market tomorrow, I'll see.

It was a 'sore muscles' day.

It was a 'sore muscles' day. 

I was tired today with sore muscles, heavy lifting, same movement over and over. It all made me tired this Thursday, after 4:30 I was done, but felt satisfied aswell. I done alot and it was all good. Sometimes I wish I could do more. I mean more days, or just one day more. The fellow workers understand why I don't have much energy, I explained most of them here and there about my sick thyroid and that 3 days of work is really enough. Though that have sometimes jokes when I have the next day off, "You have such a good life," they say then. It's really a bit of a Ducth saying, lol in a fun kinda way. 

I know it's a joke, sometimes I laugh about it with them or I comment with a funny comment back. It's all jokes. I know I'm not that a talker, but sometimes the fellow workers invite me to talk. They ask me something or they have a joke, ect, ect. I'm not worried about my communication towards my fellow workers, I know 'that'will be better then it now is. The fellow workers are nice, always willing to help each other, and we have jokes, it's perfect and I'm loving it. Still I'm thinking about working another day more, that will be the Friday then. Maybe after my Summer vacation I will start, I'll see.

First a good rest from this week, tomorrow around 11:00 I will have to go to the dentist, I'm not nervous, only a bit about my teeth. I think there will be alot of work on my teeth this year, I have bad fillings and not only that. Tomorrow my dentist will work on my rootcanal again, and prolly look at my other teeth. This weekend aswell I want to finnish my Spring-cleaning, lol, it's about time. The cleaning takes a bit longer then I thought, ugh, those many windows.
I think all of the cleaning will be done within 2 or 3 weeks. (And then I will have to start over....LOL!

Days fly by so fast sometimes...

Days fly by so fast sometimes...

Wednesdays are free days for me, but what is a day? Days fly by so fast, you wake up, do a few things and before you know it's evening already. Though I did what I wanted to do today, first I rested, before lunch I posted something, then in the afternoon a visit from my counselor. It's been three weeks that I saw him. There wasn't much to do when he came, ussualy I put my important post ready where I need help with, but there was nothing, no important post.

My counselor told me already a few months ago that the important post will be more and more less in the following years, with the 'important' post I mean, the post with the guilts I have to pay back from when I was in Canada, and aswell the paying back from the loan I needed for my house, (furniture, fridge, washingmachine, bed, ect, ect. The paying back and some of the guilts I still have I'm still paying, but that all goes automaticly. 

Yes, I still need to take care of my money, taking it easy. Counting every coin when I do groceries or when I need something new, I'm kinda used to it, but I haven't had it so extreme like last year when I started of with a few coins. Just like a little month ago when I booked a little trip to Prague online, I had many doubts and thoughts about this trip. But I booked the trip, this afternoon I payed the trip online. 

Now it's confirmed and I'm all done, I'm ready for Prague. In the Summer vacation I will have 3 weeks off, I'm going to Prague on the 3rd of August, staying there for 8 days. Excited? Yes, but not that excited as I was when I went to London, I don't know what to expect in Prague, all I know it's a nice historical city trip, and I like that. Hope the weather will be good, with lots of sun!!

A needed day off...

A needed day off... 

Like I said yesterday I would like to try four days one day at work instead of three days, but I think it will be tough. Monday and Tuesday were tough aswell, though it gives a good feeling aswell. I don't think I could bring up three days in a row. If I would try four days it will be Monday and Tuesday work , then Wednesday off, then Thursday and Friday work. Then the weekend off, ofcource. Today we said goodbye to Wouter my second Boss, it was a nice goodbye. The Boss held a little speech, and there was cake and cookies while having our first break. I kinda felt a bit emotional, lol. Weak as I am, lol. 

The speeches were nice, seeing Wouter walking trough the factory for the last time, did something to me. I learned alot from him, even on his last day he guided, and teached me a few things. Everyone wished him well, when it was time to go home, 4:30 pm. It's sure gonna be different, he will be missed. It's busy at work, were getting alot of new orders at the same time. Sometimes materials are missing so we can't make or produce the mats, busy days ahead. But tomorrow a day off, resting in the morning, and in the late afternoon my counselor comes for a visit. First a nice goodnight sleep.

Why is Monday so far from Friday but Friday so close to Monday?

Why is Monday so far from Friday but Friday so close to Monday? 

Just kidding, lol. I like and love every day, Sometimes I even think days are to short. Like now, I'm writting this post, and look at the clock, it's already 10 minutes after 9. Within a hour I want to go to bed, cause I have work tomorrow. But this day flew till it's end, it's been a nice busy day at work. There was for sure enough to do, we had five people woking in our section, where's there normal three working.

We all worked together nicely and everything went well, I love that! Sure it's, but it gives a good feeling to be busy, better then doing the same thing over and over without feeling that you actually do something productive.Yes, that was the word I was looking for, it's been a productive day. Still a few days for my second boss, then he will be gone for good. We all putted some money together for a nice gift for him, we usually do such things. 

We do it aswell when someone is sick at home, something small or something big, it just depends. My 'new' second Boss was a fellow worker that I know, and what I expected aswell that he will become my new second Boss. His name is Mitvija, he's from Croation, very friendly guy. We kinda have something in common, a language. Mitvija lived for 3 years in New York, and I for 3 years in Canada.

Sometimes we speak English with each other. Fun to do that, I sometimes miss talking English. I so love my job, I feel tired afterwards but it's so worh it. I'm thinking (If I can handle it) to work four days in the week instead off three days. When I started this job I started off with 3 half days and then slowly towards 3 whole days. Now I would like to work four days, I will see if I manage. That's a thing for the comming months, perhaps I will start after the Sumer vacation. I'll see.

A day of rest...

A day of rest...
Just like I planned, I rested today. Though I had a few things to do, just some little things. Shower, ironing my just washed and dried working clothes and make lunch for tomorrow's work. And further not much, I listened to some of my new bought cd's from yesterday, wowooh! Some of the cd's reminded when I was a teenager when I just bought 'these' cd's, nice! Ofcource I went on my laptop, I never skip a day, lol. At work they say sometimes that I'm alot on Facebook, and that I post alot. Well, I like it, and I'm not 'that' much on Facebook, I have seen worser. I still can remember the time when I even didn't had a computer, I just watched TV then in the evening.

And now I,m on the computer, instead of watching TV, lol. I'm surely not a whole day on my laptop, and I can surely do without it. (That's a lie! LOL) It's fun being on the computer, specially when I have nothing to do. When I have something to do, let's say something important, then I will close my laptop. First thing I do is go on Facebook, then some regular fun sites, perhaps Cityville afterwards and then prolly Hotmail. I write in this blog everyday, usually in the evening. Sometimes it's alot of work, cause I do not not know what to write sometimes, lol. I always think of something then, cause writing a piece everyday in this blog is a must like I said in my first post. No matter what.

Finally a normal week with work again, last week we had only two day's of work cause of Easter. Wednesday my counselor will visit me, it's been 3 weeks since my last visit, he comes once in 3 weeks now. I want him to help me once more with paying my trip to Prague online with my ING bankaccount, I'm carefull with online banking. Yeah, heading to Prague with  the Summer vacation, I hope it's gonna be a nice excursion trip with lots of sun. Upcomming Friday the second appointment with my new dentist, just checking how my tooth is doing after the rootcanal treatment. The pain is less, and that's such a relief, ugh! Toothache makes you grumpy.

Depeche Mode - Clean Acoustic.flv

Clean.. 

The cleanest I've been, an end to the tears and the in-between years, and the troubles I've seen. Now that I'm clean, you know what I mean, I've broken my fall put an end to it all, I've changed my routine. Now I'm clean. I don't understand what destiny's planned, I'm starting to grasp what is in my own hands. I don't claim to know where my holiness goes I just know that I like, what is starting to show... Sometimes. Clean... the cleanest I've been an end to the tears and the in-between years and the troubles I've seen.

Now that I'm clean, you know what I mean, I've broken my fall put an end to it all I've changed my routine. Now I'm clean. As years go by all the feelings inside, twist and they turn as they ride with the tide. I don't advise and I don't criticise I just know what I like with my own eyes...Sometimes. Clean... the cleanest I've been an end to the tears and the in-between years and the troubles I've seen. Now that I'm clean...Sometimes. You know what I mean, I've broken my fall put an end to it all I've changed my routine. Now I'm clean...Sometimes. Now I'm clean, the cleanest I've been..

The record fair was top!

The record fair was top! 

After a sort off rotten week, with pain on my teeth, worries and searching for a dentist, I was determand to have a nice and relaxing day. And, tadaaa! It was a nice and relaxing day, everything went well. I already had my train and entrance ticket, I bought them a month before the record fair took place. In the train it was busy, but I could sit somewhere pleasant, the trip to Utrecht took long enough for a little nap. The city Utrecht is near Amsterdam and Schiphol, Utrecht lays not even 30 minutes from it. The were some people in the train heading to Schiphol, I could tell by the huge and many suitcases. I wish I could come with them, lol, I want to travel with a plain again! I so miss it.

In Utrecht I had to walk for a little 15 minutes towards the fair, it's a huge hall building where several shows and fairs are being held. Today there's the record fair being held plus a huge flea market, well, not really a flea market but a collect market(?) Anything what you can collect, like stamps, coins, teabags, antique, old toys, ect, ect, and ect. These halls are huge, hall 10 was where the record fair was being held. I had to search for hall 10 for such a long time, dashing and strumpling trough the other halls, passing antique and toys, lol. Finally I found it, the digging could begin. There was alot of vinyl, elpees ans singels, but that's not my thing anymore. 

I don't own record players anymore, so, cd's and perhaps some merchandising was my goal. The hall was huge and crowded, but I had fun and enjoyed the fullest. I saw alot of records, but not only that, I saw aswell the funniest items. For example baby-rock-clothing, doormats with your idol on it, Beatles or Stones coffee mugs, T-shirts. There was even a Star Wars fan section where you could buy clothing or dvd's plus you could get a signature from a famous Star Wars actor, I had no clue who the guy was, lo. ( p.s. I thinkI(cough)havea litllesuprise (cough) forcoughsomeoneaswellbutsshh!)It was nice and relaxing at the fair, I brought food with me, so all was good. I spent five hours there, and that was more then enough. 

I bought a few cd's lol, just a few, honest! There were expensive cd's but aswell cheap ones. I looked for the cd's between the 8 and 1 Euro's, and with succes. You really have to search though, and have a bit of luck finding them. Oh, record collectors people are so funny and sometimes extravagant. I saw sometimes the weirdest people, it's nice though. I saw stands from Germany, Sweden, USA, UK, and Netherlands, and more, like I said this fair is huge, you really need two days to see everything, but then again you will be exhausted afterwards. At home I took a easy small dinner, they had nice meat sandwiches at our trainstation, I took a few with me. Tomorrow I will rest and listen to my new cd's. (Insert smile)

Friday the 13th!

Friday the 13th...! 

...So far so good, oh yes I can be superstitious sometimes, just small things though. For example putting my shoes nicely next to each other when I take them off, lol, or hang the towel nicely and not wrinklyl. Ofcource it's a bit silly cause nothing will happen if I hang the towel wrinkly or put my shoes way out of each other. Though I have seen worser people, I'm not that extreme or overreacted. Anyway, lol. It was a nice day, relaxing and everything has been done what I wanted to be done. Groceries, laundry, trainstation check, it's all done. Tomorrow I won't have time, tomorrow I will be out to the record fair in Utrecht, finally, In waited so long for this event.  It's been years since I have been there! 

The weather was nice today, sunny and not that cold, though we still have cold nights. I spoke to a friend of mine on Facebook this morning, she's from Canada. Saf and I met her while singing karaoke, she was always there. We, Saf and I, became good friends with her, when I chat with her on Facebook she sometimes mentions that I have to visit her once again in Canada, Mississauga. She's full of jokes most the time, "When are you coming home?" she yells then, lol. After my break up with Saf, I always said to myself that I would like to visit Canada once again. Just for a week, that would be nice.  But that was what I was saying then, this is now, a year further. 

Oh, the things I wanted and said when I got back the first month in Holland, I wanted to visit Saf and her children in the Summer, or perhaps visit them with Christmas again, I even wanted to stay in Canada, and find myself a house there so that I didn't have to return to Holland. What was I thinking! I'm glad I went back to Holland though, otherwise I would have alot more problems then I already had. 

Having fun in Walmart with Ab and Tasn, trying on different hats.

I didn't had a Canadian passport, no money, I was ilegal in Canada, and what did I had in Canada? What did I want in Canada? If I thought about it long enough then it was wise that I returned to Holland. Even though it was a hard decision, I had to. And even though it was a hard struggle with alot of work, I had to. 

This is now, I'm here now and I'm okay and good. Am I happy? I have sometimes my happy momnents yes, but I'm sure no one is happy 24 hours a day. That was one of my goals to be happy again, but being happy 24 hours a day is impossible. Being happy are just moments I think, you have sometimes happy moments and sad moments aswell or bad moments, or even jolly or crazy moments. Do I still want to go back to Canada for a week? I don't know, I mean I would love to!! BUT, it can bring back alot of memories aswell, those memories can be nice but aswell. Or the memories brings me back to the beginning of my proces, pushing me back in the proces. Like I said I'm fine here, I'm good and okay. 

Though I will think about it of visiting Canada once more, visiting my 'karaoke' friend. I won't visit Saf or her children, that would be so major akward and weird, I don't want to creat havoc. Like I said I would LOVE to visit Canada once more, but the memories what I might get there frightens me. Maybe in the near future when I'm ready for it, perhaps three or four years from now. At the moment I'm not ready yet, that's oblivious. I still miss a few of Saf's kids aswell, Tasn, Ab and Noor, the missing is less though. But I will never forget them, they will prolly forget me, that's fine, I can't blame them either.

Two posts in one post!? (long post)

Two posts in one post!? (long post)

I forgot to write a post on the 12th of April, dummy as I was, lol. So, what to do? I wrote a extra long post, two days in one post. The 11th and the 12th of April... here we go!

April 11th.

Alright, the Ibuprofen 600mg works,the toothache is less, but it makes me dizzy, nauseous, and I don't know what more, I just felt weird the whole day. But like I said the toothache was less, I wish this whole toothache adventure was over, ugh! . The good news is I have a new dentist, yay! This morning I had everything scheduled for the day, I had my list with all the dentists adresses I searched for, everything ready to visit them and ask them if they still take new patients. BUT! At 8:30 this morning I had a phonecall from my new dentist. I filled in a little form on there site last night, I had to fill in my adress and postal code, and on what day and time I would like a appointment, ect, ect. 

The dentist recieved the form and red it, she called this morning to make an appointment with me, I didn't expect the phonecall so early in the morning, and not even that she would call, nice of her! I couldn't come today cause today was full, tomorrow morning I could at 11:00 but, I would have to ask for a day off again, so no. Friday was full aswell, and next week could, but I really can't wait that long. There was a little bit of time free tomorrow at 4:00pm, that was okay. I will have to ask my boss for a hour earlier off tomorrow. I asked already today, and it was fine. I'm glad I'm working tomorrow, so I'm not thinking of my dentist appointment later on.

Am I nervous? Yeah slightly, I guess the dentist will do a rootcanal treatment or she's gonna pull the hurting tooth out, ouch! But anything better then this annoying pain, I'm tired of it and I'm done with it. Upcomming Saturday starts the biggest record fair ever in Utrecht, I hope the toothache is then behind me. I looked so much forward to this record fair, I keep my fingers crossed. Today I did a few groceries, ordered new medication for my thyroid and went to the free dinner. The couch pillow cases are finally all done, I think I washed them a bit on a to high tempature (40 degrees) cause they shrinked just a little bit. I guess sitting on them for a while will fix the problem. It's all good.

April 12th.

"If it's gonna hurt then just tell me, okay?" 

What a sweet dentist it was this afternoon, just like I kinda expected. I was bloody nervous today, thank god I had something to do today, work! It distracted me from the nerves I had. Ofcource when it came closer to 4:00pm the more nerves came up, lol. Work went well, wow someone from work (a fellow worker) was sent to Denmark (woot!) The huge mat we made and delivered for a customer in Denmark last week had some mistakes, the fellow worker who places the mats here and there and everywhere was sent to Denmark to place the mat. Now that's a trip I tell ya! The worker has tomorrow off, he must be so tired.

At 3:30 I left from my work heading towards the dentist, It was my first visit, I even had to find the place. Google maps helped out last night, no wrong turns just straight to the house where I had to be, I was nerves, nerves of what the dentist will do with my tootache. Funny that it was a normal house where the dentist did her job, the little hallway was the waiting room, small but cozy. When the dentist called me in she introduced her self and asked me about my tootache. The room was quit big and everything was there what a dentist needs, she was nice and very open. 

I told her where the pain was and how it felt, she looked at it and had to take a few x-ray photo's aswell or how you call it. The dentist could see that flammation caused the tootache, she could aswell see that in that tooth a rootcanal treatment had taken place. She talked aswell slightly about a crown, but aswell that the tooth was healty and didn't had to be pulled out. That was a relief, but what was next? She cleaned out my tooth, emptied the rootcanal, and filled it again. I asked for a anesthesia (or how you call it) and she gave it to me. The dentist wasn't rough or hard while doing her job, what a difference with my old dentist. Could it be that the dentist is a woman?

I had a few times a woman before as a dentist, and she was gentle aswell, so, it could be, yes, lol. My new dentist asked me several times, "If it's gonna hurt then just tell me, okay?" But it didn't hurt at all, only the special bleach to clean out my tooth was tickling with a bit of a pain, but that was it. After the treatment we made a next appointment, next Friday at 11:00 I'll have to come back. She wants to see if today's treatment went well, and if I still have pain then. The next few days I have to see and feel if the pain is lessen, like it suppose to be. I'm hoping on it. I'm happy with my new dentist, I have to inform my old dentist to say that I'm quiting with him cause of the new dentist, but that can wait a few days.

Still the toothache is still a bit there, I even feel the anesthesia is still there, but that's normal. Tomorrow will be better, the dentist told me that I have to reckon on afterpain and that the tootache still will be there for a few days, but the other following days the healing will lessen the pain. Good!

Found me a dentist!

Found me a dentist!
It´s the dentist where I sent a email to, they responded with saying, "Yes were taking new patients, we now only need some more information about you, for example, your postal code and your adress." I amhappy that this dentist replied and took me, I heard that this dentist is a good one, and she is a woman, meaning that she is not as rough as male dentists. I expierenced that a few times.

I can call for an appointment today after 9 am, but I think I will just go there, cause I want a appointment today. This morning the tootache became worser, if I touch the tooth with my tongue it is hurting, and that was not before. So, crossing my fingers that I can get a appointment today. What she gonna do with my tooth I do not know, for my part she is gonna pull it out, cause I can not think of another solution. We will see.

Work went well, with here and there somewhat toothache...

Work went well, with here and there somewhat toothache...

I will keep it shorth with my tootache, otherwise it gets boring I guess. I had a nice positive tip for the ibuprofen I got from a friend, afterwards I felt more relieved to take them. I'm so not a fan of medication, specially when I don't know them. I knew ibuprofen, but I never had the 600mg. I know that it's not healty to take ibuprofen for a long time, specially then ones with a high dosis. Still I had a bit of doubts to take one this morning, I thought, 'I'm gonna take two with me, if the tooth begins to hurt, I will take one.' Five minutes before I took of my tooth began to hurt, so I took a half one, lol. I was wet from the rain and exhausted from the bikeride when I arrived at work, ugh, what a hard wind. My tooth began to hurt even more more, so I took the other half of the ibuprofen. 

It rained the last two day's constantly, I think we had enough water now. Can I have the sun back pretty please?

I thought your gonna keep it shorth with your toothache Sjon? LOL,  yeah. Work went well, with here and there somewhat toothache, was it the ibuprofen that helped to ease the pain, or is it something else what causes the pain? I guess when you have tootache, you have it constantly. With me it comes and go, and when it's there it's hurting alot. And at night? No pain, or less pain. Weird, I know, it's annoying and kinda worries me, lol. Silly me with all my worries and nerves, the worries ans nerves can cause pain too. Anyway, tomorrow the hunt for a 'better' dentist, and when/if I find /found one then I want a good check up at my teeth, to see what's wrong with my teeth and what has to be done. Toothache is no fun! Alrighty, enough about my weird toothache!

I worked at a different section today, I worked there before but that was really four or five months ago. On this section they make mats aswell, but just differently. It's lighter work then the section where I worked. They needed a worker more cause they were busy, they picked me. Though I hope I don't continue working on 'that'section, cause I liked the section where I work before so much more, I missed it aswell today. There's one week left for my second Boss Wouter, then he will be gone for good. I wonder how they gonna devide or place the workers then, it's sure gonna be different when he's gone. I really hope and I will cross my fingers that I will keep continue working on my own section, I love it there, I love the work.

Toothache, ugh!!

Toothache, ugh!! 

I think I broke the world record 'going to bed early' last night, I went to bed at 9:30. I so had enough of the toothache, the only thing I could think of then was, 'I'm going to bed!' I can't really describe the pain, it just hurts, sometimes bad and sometimes less, strangely the pain comes and goes. Suprising I had a good sleep with less pain, I took one paracetamol after dinner and one before I went to bed. This morning I took again two paracetamol's, it seems it helps a bit. But I know aswell that these medicene doesn't heal my tooth.

I felt a bit sick today aswell with a light stomach ache, I guess it's just not my day today. I didn't do much, I showered, used the laptop, ironed, and went to the free dinner. The free dinner was packed with people, first I didn't wanna go, I didn't feel well and the rain came poring down. I messaged a girl who also always comes at the free dinner, telling her I prolly won't come. The girl answered back that she and her boyfriend would willing to pick me up if I wanted. I thought, 'Okay, why not.' Perhaps a 'going out' for a few hours will do me good, and it did.

Though I'm slightly a bit worried about my toothache, (*read, alot worried.*)  Ofcource when you have a toothache you go to the dentist, but my dentist lives in another village, and I don't feel like going there again. I had enough of him, he's just not a good dentist. He told me already that the tooth he filled a few weeks ago is bad, and it might need a crown. Well, 'that' bad tooth is hurting... I think, so when I go there he will prolly get me a new crown. Thinking of the last treatments he did, I'm not really excited to go. He replaced old fillings with new fillings but the fillings were horrible. 

The fillings came out again and I was in pain again, it's a waste of money aswell. So, I have been looking for new dentists this morning and yesterday, and with succes. I found four or five I think, upcomming Wednesday I will go on a 'new dentist hunt,' I have the adresses so I know where to go. One dentist I already sent a message on there site, hopefully I will get an answer tomorrow afternoon when I get back from work. Comming from work I will buy aswell some new painkillers, if a dentist gives me painkillers fornthe pain he always gives me ibuprofen, so that I will try. 

P.s. The 'girl' from the free dinner gave me Ibuprofen, that was nice of her, but it's 600 mg. I'm not such a fan off medication, so I will be carefull with the 600 mg. I will stick with the paracetamol and tomorrow after work I will go to a pharmacy and ask for some information for the best painkillers. And ofcource searching for a new and better dentist. 

A nice relaxing Easter day!

A nice relaxing Easter day! 

While I'm writing this post I'm actually watching a soccer game aswell, a very important soccer game. Club Heracles Almelo (our city) has to play against PSV Eindhoven for a trophy. This trophy is important for Heracles cause if they win this trophy they can play European soccer aswell. The soccer fans are going nuts in the city centre here, the city has huge movie screens to watch the soccer game live, there's music, food and drinks. Heracles and PSV are playing in Rotterdam, the city Almelo gathered 500 busses for the fans to support there team in Rotterdam. Wow, 500 busses, many people from my work are also in Rotterdam to support. Me? naah, I'm not that a fan, I'm good here on the couch with a cup of yogurth on my lap, nice and relaxed. (PSV just scored a goal, damn, it's 0-1. Come on Heracles)

The forest near my Dad's place, I have been here so mnay times, as a kid, as a teenager, as a adult. Saf and Abdu have been here aswell. It's so nice here, aspecially early in the morning.

I decided to go to my Dad this morning instead of tomorrow morning, tomorrow there's a good chance were getting rain and colder weather. Today was a nice day to go, a bit of a cold wind but the lots of sunshine made it feel so much better. I felt good today, just one nap was enough to come trough this day. Only recently I have sometimes this tootache, ugh, I need as soon as possible a new dentist. I found one yesterday, I really hope I can get this dentist, it's a she and she lives near, she has a good rank aswell. Dad was doing well, he always smiles when I come in, he was dressed nicely, lightbrown pants, and a lightblue blouse, plus his favorite braces, lol. After a little hour I left and decided to walk trough the forest, it was nice out. Ofcource I took some pictures. (PSV scored a second goal, Heracles has two score three times now. Grr!)

Sometimes the sun hided behind the clouds...

I nearly missed the train, lol, the walk in the forest took a bit to long I guess. At home I rested a bit, and later in the day I ironed the couch pillow cases. They dried a whole night and a morning, but what a work it was to get those cases back on the pillows, it went so tight. The pillows looked like they shrinked aswell, but I think a few weeks sitting on them does miracles. I'm happy I washed them, I think once a year washing them is more then enough. Day one of Easter is nearly over, I saw alot of people visiting each other, grandpa's and grandma's to there children and grand children and vice verca. It doesn't effect me that much, just a little. Ofcource it's nicer to have people around you with such days, but it is as it is, and when it is, it's just fine to have a relaxing day on your own. Tomorrow another day of Easter.

PSV scored a third goal, and is the winner aswell, what a pity for Heracles!

Happy Easter days everyone!!

Nearly Easter!

Nearly Easter! 

Did some cleaning again today, this time it was the living room. I washed all the windows and all the doors plus I throwed most of the couch pikllow chases in the washing machine, there drying now. It actually wasn't that much work, the kitchen was the most work. All the floors in my rooms I will do at last, and then on to the shower/bathroom. I think I will re-paint the walls aswell in the shower/bathroom, it will be done in a no time, cause it ain't that much. The walls are white but there a bit dirty and dammaged, the walls hasn't been done when I first came living here. The tiles in the shower/ bathroom needs a good scrub aswell, I think the whole house will done with cleaning in the end of April, lol! It was nice to see that the soap water was dirty, a good sign that it went from dirty to clean

After the cleaning I tried to take a nap, but couldn't catch sleep. I rested a bit and afterwards I went on a visit. I planned already yesterday that I wanted to visit Paula my old counselor from Humanitas, she was working today so on my way I went to Humanitas. Ofcource there' was a chance that she could be busy with other residents or paperwork, but there was aswell a chance that she might has some spare time for me. She had time for me, she loved my visit. Paula was just a week back from a pregnancy vacation, she was a way for five months. She delivered a little boy named Dagmar, she showed me many pictures from the baby on her phone. Cute little fellow, with lots of hair. We talked alot, she asked me how I was doing and if I could manage myself now. 

It was a nice talk, I told her about my trip to London aswell and that I will go to Prague this Summer, Paula liked it that I'm doing many things. We talked for an hour and then I left, Paula had to work aswell ofcource. I could always come back for a little visit and a coffee. Funny was that Paula knows my second Boss Wouter aswell, she talked to him about me a few weeks ago, lol, small world. After the visit I bought a few small groceries and went home, it was busy on the streets, gotta love Saturday traffic. Further this day I didn't do much, internet, cooking and watched some flyers. Oh yeah, I looked for new dentists in my own city aswell, I found three or four dentists on the internet. I really need one as soon as possible, tootache isn't fun, damn fillings, lol. 

I looked aswell for new and better vollunteers work, I really need something to do in the weekends. Just one thing where I can go to, where I can communicate, have fun or that I just have something to do. Something where I'm actually allowed to go to once a week, that would be good. I should actually go out more in the weekends, I can't always depend on vollunteers work. What is stopping me then? Well, money... going out these days is quit expensive. I would love to go to a sauna, but damn there so expensive. I was thinking to go to church again on Sundays, that's been a while. I think I was 8 or 9, I use to go with Mom and Dad. It's even free entrance, hmm, and it's in the weekend, it doesn't do harm, it's even good aswell.

What I would really love is to go out once again on a Saturday night, like a bar or a disco. Singing and dancing and go crazy, letting it all out and just have a blast. Not on my own but with a little group of people.

'Good Friday.'

'Good Friday.' 

Today it's 'good Friday' as we call it, it's a religious holiday  observed primarily by Christians commemorating the crusifixtion of Jesus Christ and his death atCalvary. It is also known as Black Friday, Holy Friday, Great Friday or Easter Friday. Though the latter normaly reffers to the Friday in the Easter week. (Wikipedia) 

It was a day like normal, I only had muscle pain in my legs from yesterday's work. I used muscles that I actually don't use that much I guess. The weather was good, sun was shinning only bit of a cold wind, the wintercoat was still needed. I bought my weekly groceries in the early afternoon, in the morning I mostly rested.  Yes, I took it easy today, tomorrow I'll start with another part of my Spring cleaning, the living room and I might do the front windows in and outside. 


Today I've been aswell to the Doctor, my thyroid medications are almost done, plus I needed a paper for my blood test. But, the Doctor wasn't there, I could have guessed it, it's nearly Easter and some Doctors have a short Easter vacation. I still have some medication though, untill next Wednesday, I will get my medication then and get my blood tested right away aswell. I ussualy test my blood after I finnished my medication, I ussualy get medication for three or four months. 


I'm looking desperatly for a new dentist aswell, a good dentist, a dentist who lives near, lol. Lately my old dentist doesn't do his job well it seems, he filled alot of teeth with new fillings the last half year, but, the new fillings are rubbish. The fillings  fall out just like that and I can't stand to cold or to warm food, it's annoying. Schedule for tomorrow: Spring cleaning, a few groceries, and I might go to Humanitas to visit Paula my old counselor from last year, she's working tomorrow. She's always ready for a cuppa cofee.

A new blog? Nope... a new Tumblr.

A new blog? Nope... a new Tumblr.

Here it is!  <== Click!

Ofcource this Blog will stay... I'm to addicted! I wanted to try something new beside it. Tumblr it's gonna be.

A second blog about bicycles. Woot!

Totally forgot...

Totally forgot...

I totally forgot to write a post yesterday, lol, it's 7:23 in the morning the next day and I'm writing yesterday's post. I nearly fell asleep last night behind my laptop, I was tired and sleepy. We had such a busy day at work, we had to deliver a HUGE mat, this mat had top be delivered in three parts. This huge mat wasn't a square mat, it has several turnes in it. They have been working on this mat for three days now, and today was the last day. The size of the mat was done, we only had to saw it in the actual shape, put safety (soft) tape on the bottom and then put the carpet in. (Damn, I wish I had pictures token) The Boss came so now and then to look if this huge mat was already done, it was a hell of a job. The mat had to be done at 3:00pm, cause then the truckdriver comes to deliver the mat to Denmark.Rush, rush!

Putting in the carpet was the hardest job, ussually we put the mats on a working table to put in carpet but these huge three parts wouldn't even fit on these tables, solution? On the ground. It was 2:00pm and we had five people working in our section on the three mats. All three mats were done at 3:20pm, a bit later but okay. Wouter my second Boss, told already, "We will do our best but, it's almost impossible to finnish this." But we did, I was dead exhausted. It's such more nicer working when you have enough time, but with this rush now everyone is flying from left to right, and tries to do his best. A ltiny ittle mistake here and there is okay, were in a hurry, ugh! Yeah, we were in a hurry but we managed it , it's been a long day. After 4:00pm we all sat in the cantine, it's almost Easter it was time for the Boss's  speech. 

I took this picture from Facebook, the picture is from a fellow worker. See how big it is! I gave it away cause it would have  been a two week of eating chocolate, every day a piece, lol. I'm not that much of a candy eater.

Were having a little short Easter vacation, Next week Tuesday we start again. We all gathered around in the cantine, workers, office members and the two Bosses, there were drinks and snacks, wow I didn't expect that today. The speech from the Boss was short but good. She mentioned me aswell in it, as a new worker with a contract. "Way to go Sjon!" some were shouting, nice! One worker said, "Your not really new to us, last year October, THEN you were new to us." After the speech I waited ten minutes and took off to the free dinner, I can't skip that. The Boss had for all of us a little suprise, hmm, not really little. It was a huge chocolate egg, decorated in plastic. (See picture) I like chocolate, but on my way towards the free dinner I was thinking to give it away, cause I never could finnish this huge chocolate egg. 

My Dad couldn't finnish this huge chocolate egg either, some of my dear Facebook friends are living to far away. Perhaps the people who always organize the free dinner, hmm,maybe yes. In the end I gave the egg to a resident from Humanitas, who I see nearly three or four times in the week. Her name is Margaret, I know her such a long time now, she and her boyfriend had much fun together while being at Humanitas shared alot aswell. Margaret was happy with the egg, lol, she told me, 'I'm not gonna share it, it's all mine,' ofcource she was kidding. A little suprise today at work aswell, my second Boss Wouter is oficially leaving us now. He has his contract from his other Boss and starts in the last week of April, wow! 

Wouter announced it to the both Bosses and they were suprisingly not suprised about him leaving. They congrated him and wished him well, wow! With Wouter leaving it will be different for sure, Wouter arranged everything in our section, guided us, finnished the mats to a good end and to be delivered, puts everyone to work. I will miss him, though the good news is that I can stay on my section, and I saw already (I think) our new second Boss. I know him, and I kinda knew already it's gonna be him to take over Wouter's place. It's gonna be tough and different. This new second Boss has to lean Wouter's skills and lead us. But I guess , it's a positive plus point for me aswell. I see it as a another  higher step up for me, promotion! LOL!

A grey cold day...

A grey cold day... 

This mornming after a nice sleep I planned to post a few things and do a little grocery, it was cold and grey. The cold wind blew trough my jacket, it was much colder then the last few days. I had post for Humanitas, I could have throw it in the mailbox but I figured why not just go there and have a little chat with some people of the staff. I had a little chat with secretary Barabara, she invited me in for a little talk. She had mail for me aswell, I had to sign a letter. I still have contact with Humanitas, they helped me last year with getting my life on the rails again, and they helped me with giving me a room in there place. When I started to live on my own again they gave me a counselor, also from Humanitas, the counseling will stop in July. Ansd then I can say, 'I'm on my own now, now it's all up to me.' 

Ofcource I do most of the things on my own already, like paying bills, going to appointments, working, ect, ect. Just the daily things and the things I need to do.  But so now and then I need help or a reminder, then I can count on my counselor, he comes once in three weeks now. In the beginning he came once a week, then a few months later he came once in two weeks. Ofcource last year I had lots to do, I had lots to arrange and all that in a short time. Like a rollercoaster I went from left to right. most of the 'important things' are settled now. It becomes easier. Most of the debt's has been payed, the rest of the debt's is being payed automaticly, it's not much. The normal bills and normal payings like everyone has I will keep ofcource. I really had to get used to these things again.. 

I hoped I would have met my old counselor Paula when I visited Humanityas this morning, she had a pregnacy vacation the last five months, now she's back. I still ow her a cuppa coffee, but she wasn't there, sigh! I have alot to thank towards her, she did so many things for me. I know it's her job but, damn she was so nice and so funny. Barabara told me that she will be back on Thursday and Saturday. She told me when I saw her the last time, (August 2011) 'We can drink a cuppa coffee when I get back from my pregnacy vacation.'  I think I will visit her on Saturday at Humanitas, would be nice to see her again. Today there would have been a visit from the firefighters, but I didn't go, I was to tired. I took two loooong naps.

The firefighters were here to inform us about fire safement, or how you call it, or how we can protect our house against fire. The informing took place in our (flat) cantine, but like I said I didn't go. I wouldn't even know if it was busy or that the firefighters  showed up, I was napping. I doubt that it was busy cause I heared a few neighbors doing there households and many residents were working. Our cantine or the so called recreation room is always empty, you can have a cuppa coffee there, watch television or just have a talk with the other residents. But I never see people there. For tonight... early to bed... I'm still a bit tired and work is calling tomorrow.

Two days of hard work...

Two days of hard work... 

Wow, I worked hard the last two days, I'm happy with the upcomming day off. During the working days I try to plan ahead with my energy, for example, when it's almost lunch time I give it  my last best shot cause I know lunch break is comming up so I can rest for 30 minutes. Or just before the working day ends (at 4:30) I try to finnish where I'm working on, and save a little time to clean up aswell. Today I felt tired, specially after the lunch break. Perhaps I got a bit overwhelmed with the work, though the working feels good, and I know what I'm able off, I know when to stop or to take it easy. 

At 4:00 my second Boss (Wouter) came to me and asked me if I could work tomorrow aswell, cause they were busy with a mat that had to be finnished as soon as possible. I find it difficult to say 'no,' but I had to, I felt tired and felt that I gave it all the last few days. I explained it to Wouter and I said 'no.' He totally understood it and said to me 'not to worry.' Though the reffusing  felt bad, cause my Boss asked me in our last conversation if I was flexible wirth working, meaning could I also switch with the working days, I told her yes. Now they asked me, and I refusse. Though it was okay, it felt not good. (Perhaps a bit nervous to loose my job aswell) 

I finnished my mat and went to the office, lol, to tell my Boss why I refussed. Though my Boss didn't understand where I was talking about, Wouter (my second Boss) went to another office member and 'he' asked for me to work tomorrow, lol. After I explained my Boss why I couldn't work another day and explained her that I thought that Wouter went here my Boss was very friendly, and she respected my visit and my explaining. It was a bit of a lame visit from me in my eyes, but I like that my Boss respected it. I didn't expect that Wouter came that late to ask me to work tomorrow, it wasn't in my plan, lol. The day ended good, it's all good.

Just another Monday...

Just another Monday... 

Work was good today, I did alot and finnished alot. That gives a good feeling. I like it when it's kinda busy, doing this and that, without keep asking my (second) Boss what to do now. There is a change about to come at work, perhaps a positive change for me. My second Boss, who helps and guides us at our section is gonna leave us. A few weeks ago he mentioned he is looking for another job, and he found one. 

Still he had to do his best to give a good impression at his new job, so he could be choosen out of three other people. He's gonna work at a jail, (woot!) he's gonna guide prisoners with activities in the jail. He told me he's gonna earn more and he has more days off. Today he told me that they hired him, now it's only a matter of time that he will be gone. 

My second Boss doesn't like his work anymore, "It's not like it used to be," he told me. He and the Boss are not on the same line with each other, "it's like he doesn't like me," he wisphered. Wouter, my second Boss's name does deliver good work, he doesn his job very well, I learned so many things from him and still am. He's excited about the new job, he's also excited to go to the office and tell the Boss that he's gonna quit. 

When Wouter leaves a new worker will take his duties over. Me? No not me, I think I have a clue who, but for me, I will keep my duties on my section. When Wouter leaves it will be a  step up for me, though I will miss him.